I woke seeing my house full of broken glass and trash. I wanted to punch myself hard for leaving things like this last night.
"Ugh, time to clean up now." I said as i got up from the couch. My back also aches like hell, why did i even slept there if i had a bed anyway?
Agh! This day is just so stupid.
I hate this day.
After cleaning up my own mess, somebody knocked on my door. And when i opened it, Justin was there looking so worried. "Oli---i mean Hudson! You're back!" Then he hugged me.
I pushed him away. "Tch, don't act as if you haven't seen me in years."
"WHAT THE HELL HUDSON, YOU WERE ACTUALLY GONE FOR FIVE DAYS!!"
My eyes rolled, "I was busy with some other things."
Both his hands landed on my shoulders and he shook me so hard that i got dizzy. "YOU SHOULD'VE TOLD US YOU WERE DOING SOMETHING, WE WERE ALL CRAZY WORRIED ABOUT YOU!"
"By 'we' you mean 'you' right? You shouldn't worry at all Justin, i'm none of your business." I told him.
Then he frowned at me.
"How can i not worry? I've known you for years and this is what i get?"
"Then just leave me alone."
"That's so cold of you, Olivia." My eyebrows met and i sharply glared at him.
"Hudson is my name."
"Yeah, right. You're so crazy about that guy and you even continued life using his name. He's all that ever mattered to you... but what about me?" He whispered the last part which i couldn't hear.
I just coldly stared at him and turned my back on him. "I'll be a little late for work, you go off now."
"Fine." Then i heard him walking away.
Damn, everything just keeps getting hard each passing day.
As i got back at the bar again, Samantha and some other women barge on me giving me all attention. "We missed you Hudson!" Larilyn cried.
Then Samantha who was hugging my right arm said, "Why do you make me worry, Hudson? Where have you been the past few days?"
"Hudson! Take me with your arms!"
"Please don't ever leave us again, Hudson!"
"L-Ladies! Please don't kill me." I managed to joke and laugh while being strangled by women. Then in some corner, i saw some of my male co-workers glaring at me.
Probably jealous because i was so famous with all the woman here.
As i was done mingling with the ladies, we started to work once again. The bar opened up and the costumers just keep on coming. While i was doing my job as usual, Justin was really bothering me with his stares and worried looks.
It was pissing me off.
When i get to have a break, i decided to talk to the bastard. "What the hell is your problem?" I asked, maintaining to look calm and cool.
"H-Huh?"
"Don't 'huh' me Justin. With you looking like that, it really bothers the hell out of me." I bluntly told him.
Then Samantha suddenly joined our conversation. "Uhm, is there something wrong here guys?"
I didn't said a word and was still waiting for Justin to answer me. He sighed and called for someone to take his place for moment. "Excuse us, Samantha, i just have to talk to Hudson here."
"O-kay?"
Then he dragged me all the way out of the back door, where we can talk privately. I didn't change the way i was looking at him, i remained glaring and he wasn't bothered by it at all.
I was expecting he would start explaining but it surprised me when he just grabbed my face and forced a kiss on me.
So is this what he wants?
Instead of protesting, i pulled him closer and dominated him. He thought he could get me into submitting to him, but i can out done him. As i got him weak in the knees, he suddenly kneeled and looked at me with such a damn horny face.
"O-Olivia... i..."
"Is it sex? Are you pestering me for one?"
He suddenly got his straight face back on. He fixed himself and got up from the ground. "Olivia, why the fuck act this way!? It's like you've never known me at all!"
"How many times should i tell you this, Justin? My name is not Olivia anymore! Forget about that damn Olivia! I'm fucking Hudson now, i'm a fucking guy like you!"
Then he got pissed off as well, "I've been always turning a blind eye ever since you started this act. And bullshit, changing your name won't change you into a fucking guy. You call yourself Hudson? What the heck are you saying!? That guy is dead! And you, you're Olivia Faiths! The girl i loved ever since!"
My mind was blown by the fact that this guy's feeling never changed. He actually confessed to me before, and i can't believe that after all these years he still...
"Can't you find somebody else!? Can't you just forget about me!? Can't you stop feeling for me?"
He started crying and it was the first time i ever saw him look so vulnerable, "If i only could, but i can't! You were always in my mind! You can't change that Olivia, you know i would always be inlove with you!"
He seriously looked at me and grabbed my hand, "...Olivia, let me ask you a selfish question, just this once. Can you abandon the past and live your own life for my sake?"
It breaks me to hear what he ask me of... i broke down and cried. All the stress and madness, all the weakness and fear, all the tiring shit and killing... but then Hudson... he flashed into my mind, he was smiling and calling out my name.
He was all the reason that i was living for.
I laughed and said, "That wasn't a selfish question at all, you stupid idiot." And tears continued to fall from my eyes.
He came closer and wiped my tears. "Then can you tell me what's your answer, Olivia?"