A/N !! Hello everyone! I'm PinkInRoses. Call me Pink or Pinkie. This is kind of trial and error for me so please tell me any ideas you have for my book. Thank you! 🙏😊
Hi, I'm Ash. Let's kick this off with some trauma. Long story short I've never been much of a popular kid, as you'll notice. Being the only open gay guy in a small town makes it hard to be yourself. Now add being in love with your worst harasser to that and you get my life daily. But It's kinda always been the same. Here, see for yourself.
*Flashback*
It was summer camp. Mom sent me away so she wouldn't have to deal with me. Said it was good for me but I used to hear her on the phone with aunt Jenny.
"I just don't know what I did wrong, Jen. He's just so..." she sighed.
I watched my mother run a hand through her dark hair, pick up the bottle from the floor and drink some more.
"He's so faggy. He'd might as well be a girl. I can't see anything but the wretched man in his eyes. I hate them, Jen! I hate his disgusting eyes..."
"Girl, send his little a** away then! That's what I do with my brats. There's this great summer camp that'll..."
Their voices faded as I choked back sobs and went back to my bed. Even as a child I knew what that felt like, it hurt. I never understood, why couldn't I be how mommy wanted, makes me sick to my bones these days. I didn't ever see my mother look me in the eyes after that, I stopped trying.
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Back to the summer, I was about 8 now almost 9. I hated summer camp but I went anyway. That year we had another boy joining us. He quickly saw a lot of the bullying unfold when we got there. He was my perfect little prince. Until the accident...
I was slammed into the wall with a strong shove. "My dad says you're a fa*got and you're disgusting!" Joshua Miller snickered. I wiped blood from my mouth as I stood up with a sigh , only to get punched in the stomach and fall back down. I groaned in pain but tried my hardest to keep quiet. "Hey! Leave him alone!!" A voice yelled from behind all of them. "Hey it's the new guy, what do -you- want? This doesn't concern you." Joshua questioned. "For you to stop." The voice called back sternly. Next thing I know Joshua and his groupies give him their attention. The boy clean clocked Jared in the face. They tried to fight a bit but the boy was hardly phased. I sit up and hold my side, just watching. It seems Joshua gave up, carrying Jared away.
The boy walked up to me. I looked down, fresh tears forming on my wet eyelashes, the taste of blood refilled my mouth. He chuckled and spoke," I won't hurt you. It's okay now." He offered me his hand as I looked up at him sniffling. Hair fell into my eyes and I looked down. I felt a smile tug at my lips. Sure this guy has a brain? Is he even 10 if he's so tall, is he my age?
He bent down in front of me and tapped my shoulder. "Hey are you okay? You look pretty beat up." He asked, his blue green eyes staring at me. I nodded as I wiped away the warm droplets that fell. It was useless as more replaced them. I just sat there wiping my eyes furiously like an idiot.
He sighed and hugged me. I was hesitant but, I hugged back. "Why are you hugging me, did you hit your head?" He laughed, it was nice. "You sound cute trying to talk with your face squished. No, I just know that when someone is upset, you're supposed to hug them." So I let him, I sat there blank for a moment. Then sobbed. Just letting the tears fall as I clung to his shirt. My tears wetting it, making it cling to his skin. He just let me cry it out. I was glad to have anyone to talk to, other than Lily, of course. I pulled away with a hiccup continuing to stare at the ground.
"Hey..." he nudged me lightly. I looked at him wiping the last of my tears. "If you keep glaring that hard you might break it." He joked. Embarrassment began painting my face, he just looked at me with a cheeky grin. "I..you..!" I babbled, at a loss for words. I chose an easy question and finally spoke. "Why are you helping me? Do you know why they were picking on me?" I asked confused. "I'm helping you because nobody deserves that. And yes, I know why they were picking on you, you're ...gay? It's cool, I have... experience with people like you. I'm Alex, wanna be friends?" He spoke smoothly and stood. I looked at him and he smirked, offering his hand. I blushed and took his hand as he helped me up. I thought he was the coolest prince ever. We spent the whole summer together.
*End flashback*
After that, he walked me home every day. He was with the family who just moved in up the street. Him, Lily and I, all hung out whenever she could. She doesn't have it so good at home, especially since her mom just left,so we try our best. Bad things happen all the time. That was 9 years ago though. Alex even accepted Lily as she is.
If I hadn't met her I probably would still be alone. She lived a whole different life from us. She was special but she's always been my bestie. I'd never judge her for her abilities. Her family comes from a long line of cat hybrids. A curse she calls it. But we live in separate worlds, we were never supposed to meet. Alex used to hang out with us. She took a while to trust him but it worked. He came to know all the secrets. Our bond grew stronger quickly. We wrote notes and told secrets and explored with each other. We may have been young but that meant something. Something I'll never let go of.
But one day we got into a huge argument. It was so stupid. He had threatened to tell everyone about the academy. Oceanside Academy of speciality. (OAS). I got scared he might and snapped at him. I had never gotten so angry with him. 'How could he? After everything we... after all I..' I was furious. He stepped back and tripped. He tripped right into the road.
He tripped into a moving car.
I remember the sounds of sirens. The scream I let out. How quickly my anger faded and how quickly the color drained from him face. His face on the pavement. It all felt like slow motion. Next thing I knew I was going to the hospital with him, and I was waking up at his bedside. Little 11 year old me alone at the hospital with my best friend because mommy was too wasted to come. Finally, Alex woke up. When I went to greet him, tears rolling down my face from joy, he looked at me blankly. I was confused, I stopped short when he spoke, his voice hoarse. "Who are you?"
" who are you?"
My whole world collapsed around me as the realization set in. He has no idea who I am. Just in time his parents came rushing in, shoving me to the side. They came back early from their big trip when they heard he was in the hospital. I sat there blankly staring in shock. He had no idea who I was it was as if everything had collapsed around me. Like a broken mirror shattering at my feet.
The next few years were harder. Harder in more ways than one. Like watching the person you love suddenly become the person who hates you the most. But, it is what it is. All I want is to see him happy.
Besides, I'm 17 now almost 18, I'm a senior about to find my soulmate. I can see Alex every day, even if it's cruel. What could go wrong?