Small warning from the author: there is slight mature material as well as derogatory name calling. If you dont like it dont read the flash backs and a few other scenes especially if easily triggered. The rest of you...just skip this.
Alex's POV
What has this whore done to me...I thought as we made out on the far side of the courtyard. Her moans made me gag but this is just a way to blow off steam. I can see Ash on his usual spot when I tried to stop kissing her but she choked me with her tongue once more. He sees us. I smirk as he runs off, probably to puke or get ready for art. As expected from such a goody two shoes.
Time skip because it gets better
After me and Emily were done I left. As i walked into the school however I was smacked in the face with a nauseating headache. Not again...god damnit. I ran off to the bathroom before anyone could say anything about my recent color change. What the hell...?
INCOMING SPICINESS!!!
Flashback
"A-ahhh! Please...more~" A boy moaned in a haze looking at me. I heard a bit of laughter and he played with him more. "A-alex...p-please!" He moaned once more as, apparently, I teased him.
End flashback
My face grew a deep shade of red as the odd images passed through my head. There is no way that happened! I must be hallucinating! My thoughts exploded with disbelief. I couldn't believe it but the more I thought about it the harder it was to push it out. I locked myself in a stall knowing no one would come in here because the bell just rang.
What is wrong with me? I'm an awesome single straight guy!! That thought reminded me that I still dont have a soulmate. Then again I just turned 18. I stopped brooding and washed my hands. I grabbed my bag and walked to class.
I walk into class and sat seats away from Ash eyeing him carefully. Maybe he's a fucking witch... Ms. Riddle walked in and began to explain that today we are to have a partner activity. Shit... She paired me with the nerd. Of all days, really? He slowly sat across from me and spoke but, I wasn't listening. "What?" I growled at him looking over at him. He began to fumble over himself. Ugh..stupid little nerdy gay kid. "Um...do you want to pick the topic this time?" He asked offering the envelope of cards towards me. "Whatever," I grumbled as I reached for the envelope. "Thanks I guess." I mumbled before grabbing the envelope with a roll of my eyes.
Fucking nerd a- before I could finish my thought process that stupid dweeb grabbed my hand. We both stopped short and looked at each other, I more or less just glared. "Stop holding my hand gay ass..." He stared at me but, looked away with a pink tint on his cheeks. "Stop staring, dweeb...or I'll kick your ass." I muttered as I snatches ans opened the envelope to pull out two cards.
"Leo the lion and Aquarius the water maiden." I spoke reading them aloud showing them to him. " Easy! U-um...which one do you-" He asked but I cut him off with annoyance. "Aquarius." I said simply with an eyeroll. So I should try to stick to the maiden theme here, it'll keep the innocent look. "Ok let's get to work and finish up, we have an hour left." He said looking at his lap and pulled out his sketch pencils.
I looked down and then looked at him trying to think of an idea. I hummed as soon as I got an idea good enough to sketch. He is much more of an idiot than I thought thinking I don't notice him staring...wait! Stop it!! I sighed in defeat and began sketching letting my hand follow my strategic design. I kept noticing him look at me for some reason. I did the same for the little details such as shoulders. Eventually I got bored and decided to screw with him. Carefully I moved my leg accidentally brushing up against his. His breathing noticeably hitched. I choked back laughter at his reaction. So he can give reactions.
He tried to move his leg back but I moved back toward him once again pretending not to notice. Haha! You should see the look on your face! We both looked at each other. I raised a brow and he only turned more red. I chuckled and returned back to sketching as he tried to do the same. Slowly I moved my leg and he seemed he could breathe now. I silently laughed to myself.
He finally finished his sketch and I finished afterwards. I snatched his sketch book without asking and tossed mine. He showed our sketches and the only thing I could do was trace over his drawing. It was suprising. I knew he was good but I never knew he might be better than me! Impossible! Stupid shitty glasses.
He decided it would be best to show Ms. Riddle so we could leave class early. I talked to a buddy of mine before I officially left. "Hey man." I said gaining his attention. "What's up?" He replied turning to me bored. "Soulmates can be anyone right?" I asked trying not to seem worried even though I was. " Yeah, weren't you paying attention in Soulmate 101?" He huffed. "Uhhhh....yes?" I said unintentionally sounding more like a question. He sighed and gave me a look like 'really dude?' "Yeah, yeah I know. Thanks anyways man." I said standing up leaving him with a fist bump.
The moment I stepped foot outside I was blinded by hands over my eyes. I sighed quietly, mentally cursing. "Hey baby~" Emily cooed in my ear pressing her obvious fake breasts onto my back. "Hey you." I replied sound sweet but it came out sarcastic as I turned around. She smiled as I wrapped my arms around her waist. "I'm hungry..." She whined. "Lunch?" I asked hopeful. "No way! I want you~" She purred. *gagging noises* I smiled a little annoyed. "You always do..." I muttered. "Great! Let's go!" She chirped dragging me to the side of the building. Here we go again...
She pulled me into a kiss as soon as we were there. She tasted like vodka as she pulled me closer to her. Her hands grabbed mine making me grope and grab at her. I didn't like the lack of control so I pinned her hands up. Both her wrists in one of my hands up on the wall. She whimpered as the kiss went on and I slipped my hand down her skirt. She moaned loudly resulting in me having to shut her up. So fucking annoying..she asked for this and now she won't shut up.
The further the kiss went the more I started zoning out. I came back to reality when she started squirming. "Impatient, are we?" I asked, speaking to no one in particular. Suddenly she broke the kiss as to become loud again. At the exact moment that she moaned my name another flashback started. What the...
Flashback
"Ahhhhh! Pl-ease..." The boy from before was a moaning mess. I smirked at the fact I had him to myself. "Why dont I shut you up, eh?" I whispered into his ear. "Alex~" He moaned my name loudly. "I-I lov-" My voice cut out.
End flashback
"NO!" I yelled as I pushed myself from Emily. She hit the brick wall then fell to her knees skining them, I don't care. I gripped onto my hair like a madman and continued to mutter to myself. No.... This didn't happen... Stop it....
The fragments of pictures drove me mad. I was fed up with it repeating in my mind. Why won't you leave me alone!! Go away! Emily reached for me in an attempt to calm me down. I jerked back from her, "Dont touch me." I growled at her accompanied with a glare. She tried to speak but no words came out. With no regrets I told it to her straight.
"I dont like you, nor do I love you. You're disgusting. Nothing but a whore and a drunk who'll become a teen mom. Dont ever talk or touch me again." I spoke with a look of pure disgust and fear. Her face said it all, she was scared. I scoffed and got off the ground running over to puck up my bag and ran off. Finally I dont have to deal with that slut.
(Time skip for no reason)
I sat down on a curb a block from my house. I just wanted to think. What is happening to me? He is a guy, I'm a guy....this makes no sense. I sat for a few hours just thinking and playing on my phone. I decided to walk around the block but I came back to the curb again. It began to rain so I just put my hood on. I checked my phone and it was already 9:46pm. Fuck.. I cant believe it's this late. Not that dad would care so, maybe I'll stay a little while longer...
I checked my phone once more. 10:08pm I wonder w- I saw someone walking on the other side of the street. Before I could call out I saw their face. Ash? What's he doing out this late? I dont care but still...what's up with him? "Hey, Ash? You okay man?" I asked him hoping he could hear me. No response, he just stopped. I walked over to him and he didn't say anything. "I asked you a question, dweeb." I repeated getting annoyed.
He mumbled something. I sighed and asked him again becoming even more annoyed. "I said go away!" He yelled out which took me by surprise. I recovered from his outburst and without thinking I yanked on his shoulder. He was now facing me but his head was still down. God damnit Ash! I was just barely able to keep my anger under control as I jerked his head upward by his hair to look at me.
What I saw through the rain that came down between him and I shocked me. He was crying. "What's wro-" I started but he cut me off. He shoved me as hard as he could which knocked me off my feet. "DONT ACT LIKE YOU CARE! YOU'RE A BULLY, YOU'VE NEVER CARED ABOUT ME, LEAVE ME ALONE! I HATE YOU!" he yelled at me before running off.
I didn't know what to say so I just watched him go. My head my stung with a sharp pain through my temples and a voice called softly in my head. He's right. You don't care, You are a bully. Suddenly anger boiled within me the more I thought about what he said. I am a bully, and y'know what? He really is gonna learn how much of a bully I really am.