The wind suddenly turns cold, as dark clouds start to unfold. I smiled and celebrate for that season, 'coz I love the rain for a thousand reasons.
You suddenly came and said hi, as sweet notes seemed to fly. I smiled and celebrate for that time, 'coz never again will I be a broken chime.
Yet, I hold not the weather nor fate, neither could I say was it too late? All of a sudden you were gone, as our love was left undone.
I told you please don't go, but you simply answered no. Now I have to bear this pain, as you go away just like the rain.
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Tears fell from my eyes. I felt that sadness has devoured me. I could almost feel the pain and the frustration of whoever wrote this. I am not a fan of poetry, but if this was self-written poetry, I admire the way it was written. It's relatable, it hit me so hard -- for some reason.
It made me start questioning myself, and my fucked up head. Have I ever left someone by chance? Or did someone left me? Do I have some unfinished business with someone, that I might have forgotten? I lied down and found myself pondering. Until I felt that I am slowly falling into sleep.
"I wish we could be like this forever." I overheard a guy saying it.
I saw some lovebirds on the bench just a few meters away from me. The guy is lying down on the girl's lap, while the girl is happily brushing his long white hair. I stood there in front of them. I'm not the type to pry over people's private moments, but I felt like at that moment, I was meant to be in there -- to witness it. I saw how the guy held the girl's hand tightly and put it in his chest.
"Can you feel this heart beating?" He asked the girl.
"It beats only for you." He continued.
Instead of replying, the girl gave him a forehead kiss. I tried to make out their faces but to my dismay, I couldn't. I wanted to get closer to them so I could make out their faces, but something kept me from getting any closer. That's when I realized I was dreaming. Then I felt like I am being sucked in from somewhere.
I woke up to my phone ringing. I reached for it, without even checking who's calling. I heard Andrei's voice on the other line. Even before he could say more, I dropped the call and ignored his calls. I didn't know how many times he tried calling before giving up. I am still pissed with what he did, that I don't wanna talk to him still.
Andrei: Hey, I'm sorry for what happened over lunch in the cafeteria. I know you're upset about it, but will you talk to me?
He sent me a text message, but instead of replying, I deleted it. I put down my phone and reached out for my dream journal and pen that was in the bedside table. I started writing down the dream I just had. It is that guy again. I just left out a deep sigh.
"Eanne!"
It was a Monday morning. My ever-perky classmate, Melody came running up to me the moment she saw me in the hallway. The way she looked at me, and the way her dark brown eyes glimmer, tells me that she's up to something. She pulled me excitedly towards her.
"Tell me, tell me, tell me!" She said excitedly, with her frail hands clasp together. She was bouncing up and down, like a bunny waiting for a treat.
"What should I tell you? I have nothing to tell you." I said rolling my eyes.
I already had a clue of what she's bothering me about. We kept walking until we get into our room. I sat comfortably in my chair and was about to put on my earphones when Melody snatched it away.
"If you think you can get rid of me, you won't! Not until you tell me what happened in the school cafeteria last Friday." She said persistently with her hands on the hips.
She's a petite girl, standing four feet, and eleven inches, but with the way she confronts me, I felt like she's towering above me. She's a sweet girl, who can make the room go lighter with her playful vibe, but she can be stubborn most of the time.
"You can no longer deny it. Do you know that people were talking about it since Friday afternoon? I saw how Joe kissed you in the head. What's Andrei's reaction to it? I saw how both guys were fighting over you."
Telling me her point of view over the things she saw a few days ago. The twinkling in her eyes tells me that she's getting hyped up.
"Fine! I'll tell you." I said giving up, declaring my defeat.
There is no other way to get rid of her but to give her what she wanted. I am telling her not to explain myself, or to confirm anything, but to correct their wrong perception over things.
"First of all -- JOE. DIDN'T. KISSED. ME!" I said, stressing out every word.
"Then what did I saw that day?!" She asked in disbelief.
"He just whispered something to me. It's a secret so no one should hear about it." I lied. I don't want Melody to be asking me what it's all about.
"Second -- they were NOT fighting over me. They were planning to play some basketball." I continued.
"But I saw both of them pulling you by the arm." Melody said reasoning out.
"It wasn't like that. It's just that they saw me playing basketball with Andrei, so the boys are kinda inviting me to play with them in the afternoon, unfortunately, I have to go home -- for emergency reasons." I said lying again.
I knew I lied about so many things, but if its the only way to correct those misconceptions, then I will lie in a heartbeat.
"Oh my. I wish I could be you Eanne! You know how I like Joe, and I would die if I learn that Joe is hitting on you." She said to me in her high pitched voice.
Andrei, Joe, and Alex, were our seniors. They were all varsity players of the school's basketball team, which is also a three-time champion. It's no wonder why they are so popular in school, and girls have gone head over heels on them. I hate how I am always being dragged over drama because of Andrei, and now, because of Joe as well. I planned on becoming the wallflower for the entire school year 'til I graduate, but being friends with Andrei now, meant that my plan isn't gonna happen.
I tried my best to dodge Andrei that day. I am still not in the mood to talk to him. I skipped lunch and snacks so I won't have to go to the cafeteria. I even skipped paying the rain tree some visit, 'coz I know that Andrei would go there. I had my phone in airplane mode so Andrei won't have any other way of getting in touch with me. Just when I thought I succeeded in avoiding crossing paths with Andrei, here comes fate playing a nasty joke on me.
As I was walking silently on my way home, I felt a breeze of cold air. The cloudy skies have turned gray, and lightning lit up the skies. I'm relieved that I had my umbrella that day. I took it out of my bag and started walking. Just as I passed by a bus stop, I saw a guy making his way to me. When he was getting closer, I started to recognize his auburn hair and broad shoulders -- it was Joe.