Nathaniels POV
What if I'm in love with someone but it's not a girl? How do I keep that a secret? What if people won't like me if I tell someone? Rose likes this new boy but he isn't the kind of guy who would be helpful, this boy isn't good news. I keep my mouth shut though and lock myself in my room and keep my distance. I don't like it here I wish we still lived in Florida where people knew to stay away. Before the twins were born Rose and I would hang out but now she is too busy for me. It seems dumb but Rose was the one person I could go to when I felt weird or different. She helped with my relationships. Today I met someone who was at my school he is adorable and I think he's cute. His name is Eric he doesn't know that I like him yet.
Rose's POV
Nathaniel doesn't come to me anymore it makes me sad but I know he is scared of ethan. I don't understand why he is scared of him, but I hope they will bond. I mean Nathan is my brother I want him to bond with my friends as well.
It's been a week of school. I started picking Ethan up and hanging out with him. Today, I pick up ethan and we walk in together, Ellice looks at me, she walk away without saying anything. I look at ethan and we walk to class, I sit down next to him and get out my notebook. After class we head for my locker and I put my stuff away it's almost lunchtime when I see Nathaniel and the twins with the principal and an officer, I walk over with Ethan and I ask what happened and the words crush my heart and I feel like I might pass out but I grab everyone and run out the doors and away from everything I just heard, they chase after us but I jump in the car. Why I'm running away? I still can't understand. Just instincts. I head to the house to grab our stuff.
I park the car at the end of the driveway and walk up, there is police tape everywhere. As I get closer I see the door is open all the way, all I see is blood on the walls and staircase, I move past the police tape and walk carefully upstairs. I walk to my room and grab a bag and throw stuff into it and I head into Nathaniel's room and grab his things and head to the twin's room where I get all their dolls. I head for mom's room and everything is covered in blood, there is a puddle of blood on the cover of the bed most likely where mom was, I walk into the closet and open the safe and take everything out and shove money in the bag and anything important then I head downstairs to the office and grab documents.
Ethan walks in and looks at me and I just want to cry or curl into a ball. I grab his hand and head back outside and shove the bag in the back of my car and I give the twins blankets and pillows. I look at Ethan and he grabs my hand and squeezes it to help me but my hand is shaking and I have to act strong. But it's hard when you are only 17 and have to take care of all your siblings alone now.
Ethan's POV
I'm glad I'm getting away from school with rose but it means that I have to leave a lot of things behind like family and my dog. But Rose is the one I want to be with. When I saw her the first day I knew she was the one who could change this school and my life. I thought she was perfect. I feel like I can be myself around her she seems like the best person to talk to about my life and I can get out of my shell. People always avoided me and it made me sad but I knew they couldn't help me, not even the teachers could help me with my abusive father. No matter what happens, no matter how hard I try he always finds a way to hurt me. But I cover it up and keep everything locked away since mom died he changed and became angrier with people and started taking his anger out on me.
Rose's POV
I find myself depressed but telling someone about it would make them sorry for me. So, I decide to keep it to myself, every feeling, expression, I completely shut myself off. It's almost midnight and we stop for gas and drinks, we've been driving all afternoon and I don't know where to go, we could head to grandma's but she would probably flip out. I look at Nathaniel and he looks at me. " we should go to the lake house it's safe there." He says. Ethan gets in the car after putting gas in the car. I look at the twins they are asleep. I start the car and get back on the highway to the lake house.
7:30 am
I put a movie on for the twins because they woke up and wanted something to do. I'm getting tired but I don't want to sleep it's another reminder that I can dream up a world that doesn't exist. Ethan falls asleep and so I keep driving. I let my thoughts wonder.
"If I were to die what would people say at my funeral?" I think to myself. "Rose was the greatest person I know she was smart and beautiful and a happy child, she had everything she wanted she had this beautiful smile and everyone loved her." Well that's what everyone would say but people who actually knew me would say, "Rose was not a happy child, sure she had everything but what she didn't have was love, she tried her best to give everyone love but she never loved herself she always tried to be social but everyone let her fall she never wanted to die like this but she was too depressed and too sad, so she let everything go, it's like no one really knew her and I knew her because she wrote all this down this was her letter to the world that said I was not what you think I was." I keep thinking my mind races over and over again about the topic and how people would barely care about it. Ethan wakes up and looks at me I can barely breathe, but I can't cry there is no point. They are gone and I won't be able to change that.