Ethan kissed me gently but passionately making me want more of him. He pulled me out of my chair and closer to him, I ran my fingers through his soft brown hair thinking about how beautiful he is. I wake and Ethan is gone so i get up and put my clothes on and walk out of the bedroom to ethan and nathaniel staring at me. I ignore them both and make coffee using my flowery cup that i've loved since i was little. The smell of coffee is soothing. I look at the muffins i made the day before and grab one. Nathaniel won't stop looking at me. "Where are the twins?" I ask breaking the silence. Ethan looks at me "playing with their dolls." I look at him with an okay look. "Nathaniel can you go get the twins ready for swimming, please?" I ask in a do it so i can talk to him privately voice, which of course he understands. He gets up and goes into the twins room. I pull him to the bedroom and shut the door. "You know it's rude to leave a girl in the bed alone in the morning." I say a little annoyed, but right now all i want to do is kiss him again. He moves closer to me and pushes me up against the door and kisses me deeply, it pisses me off but i let him. He looks at me. I hug him burying my head in his chest hiding my face. We walk out of the room and nathaniel comes in with the twins i know my face is burning red but i can't help it.
"I'm gonna start the boat up and Ethan and i are gonna go and chill out on the water." I look at nathaniel and he nods. " Make sure the twins don't get hurt or hit anything by the big waves." He nods again. I start the boat and back out of the dock and drive off. I stop the boat and turn it off and we sit on the water in silence. "I've been driving a boat since i was a little girl, was my favorite part about coming out here." i say smiling. Ethan looks at me and moves closer to me kissing me gently and i fall into his arms. After a while of talking we head back to the house it's noon and i go to check the mail and see the funeral card for my parents, it's decorated with a daisy and my grandma of course planned it but i don't plan on attending or maybe i will but just me going alone, the twins are too young to understand and nathaniel shouldn't go. I don't want to pressure him with all of this.
I sit in the kitchen and stare at the card and all the tears i've been holding in burst out and i go to the bedroom and lock the door and just cry, it's hard to not cry loudly. Ethan knocks and i stop crying and go to the bathroom turning on the showers so he thinks i'm in the shower. I turn it off when he leaves and i fix my makeup. I open the door and ethan is standing in front of me, we stare at each other for a minute but it feels like forever. I move out of his way because i know he wants in but instead, he pulls me inside the room and kisses me deeply and whispers in my ears that everything is gonna be okay and i fall for him even more. I can't help but feel somewhat safe with him. He kisses me rougher but it feels great, we move to the bed and i we keep kissing and we take off our shirts and move our bodies closer together.
Nathaniel knocks on the door and I look at him and try not to panic but at the same time i'm panicking and i can barely breathe. I put on short shorts and a big t-shirt that says "Lovers mark" I walk out of the room and look at Ethan who is standing there waiting for me. I hear a knock at the door and answer it to find a boy, he looks about nathaniel's age and he has dark brown hair with dark brown eyes, he has a red suitcase next to him and he is holding his keys in his hand. "Hi i am Eric, Nathaniel said i could stay with y'all for a little while." He says trying to sound perfectly confident, i yell for nathaniel and he walks in. I look at him and then Eric. "You are joking right?" i say annoyed. "Come inside please, Eric." i say more inviting. "Nathaniel you better have a good explanation for this and he can sleep in your room. But we are gonna talk about this tomorrow and i'm gonna set some rules." i say trying to sound incharge but i know he will listen even if i wasn't. He nods. I head out of the room and go to the twins room and tuck them in. I shut their door quietly and head to ethan's room, I shut ethan's door, he is laying on the bed. I go into the bathroom and take off my contacts. I know ethan is staring at me well my ass but i guess that's the same thing.
Ethan's POV
Before Eric showed up nathaniel told me that he was coming but i never told rose and i wish i would have told her. She didn't seem to like that he invited him but i know she will end up to like him, he is a pretty nice person. Rose is sleeping with me since Eric is sleeping in Nathaniels room. She catches me staring at her butt, but i can't help it. Rose climbs into bed and i look at her she is wearing a shirt with short shorts underneath, she makes me want to take her somewhere, where we can never be found where no one will hurt her but if i do she will leave behind the people she loves. She looks at me and smiles, one of her perfect ones it's rare to get one at least that's what i think. "I'm going to the funeral alone." She says to me and i don't know what to say. "Well we have eric now can't we leave them in charge of the twins until we get back?" She looks at me and she looks pissed off. "I don't trust eric yet and i've only known him for like 5 minutes now so i don't think that's a good idea." She gets out of bed and walks to the door but i stop her and pin her to the door and look into her eyes. Her eyes have a flame in them and i can she wants me to let her go but i don't want to. I lean closer to her face and she lifts her hand up like she is about to smack me, but she puts her hand on my cheek and leans in kissing me.
Rose's POV
Ethan annoys the hell out of me and i can't stand him. But i love him too much to be mad at him for a long time. I pack my bag for the funeral without ethan knowing because i want to leave without anyone knowing. I hide the bag in the car and leave a note that i'm going to the store, but i'll text ethan later about it. He comes outside and looks at me, "Can i come with you?" he asks in a kid kinda tone. "No. it will only take a few minutes." I say not looking in his eyes but i know he is staring at me and he gets in the car anyway. I get in and start the car and drive away knowing that he knows that i'm up to something i head to the store. He stares at me the entire drive. I drive past the store and head for the clothes store and park the car and give him an annoyed look. I get out of the car and go inside and he follows me and i pick out a suit and a tie and some black pants and buy them avoiding his eyes.
I walk out of the store and put the suit in the back with my bag and get in the driver's seat. "I packed clothes for you too and i knew you were going to do this. I also booked a hotel and i left a note on the counter for nathaniel." i say still avoiding his eyes.
Ethan's POV
Rose can't hide anything from me and i can tell her heart is bleeding on the inside she feels so much pain and i don't want to hurt her in any way, she hurts enough already and i'm trying not to be clingy to her but it gets hard. She was trying to sneak away to the funeral but i caught her and now we are on our way to the hotel. It's been two hours since we left and i'm getting bored and i want to switch places with her but she won't let me. She's being really quiet and it's kinda bothering me but i can tell she is still mad at me for coming along but i want to make sure she doesn't go through all of this alone. She's stubborn, but i will keep trying. I may not have known rose since i was little but she is obvious about what she is doing and it's hard to get her to do things. Especially speak her mind on things. I keep prying and i know i shouldn't but i can't help it. I want to learn more things about her and be with her until we die. But most of all i want her to see that she is beautiful inside and out.
I sat there on the car ride and i kept thinking and waiting to say something but i didn't know what to say to her without her being stubborn about it. Rose would smile a lot more if she didn't have to deal with everything on her own, but i'm still here for her but she can't see it and i know i should be more mindful. "So, where is the funeral gonna be at?" i ask. "My grandma chose the place, where we all grew up." she says but she says it in annoyed tone.
Rose's POV
All this driving is annoying, but we finally arrive and i get out of the car first grab my bag and head to my grandma's door. I plan on staying only one night here and then heading back early in the morning. I knock on the door and she answers the door. Ethan comes up behind me and walks inside with me and grabs my hand holding it and i don't let go or push him off. My grandma looks at us and i know exactly what she is thinking and it's so obvious. "Thanks grandma." i say very politely but i'm biting down hard on my teeth and want to just disappear from her gaze. "Rose, can we talk privately later about the funeral please" she asks but i can hear is my own words taunting me and telling me i should leave it isn't safe here. "Of course, grandma i am free until the funeral." I say very politely but i know i'm giving her a sassy voice.
I head to the room still holding ethans hand and let go when we get in the room. I close the door quietly. "We need to leave right after the funeral, something isn't right about this." I say as I put on my funeral dress and do my make up quickly.
I open the window and climb out and drag ethan with me. I put the stuff in the back of the car and get in starting the car up. Ethan doesn't say anything but i know he is thinking the same thing. I call Nathaniel and eric answers. "Hey eric, put nathaniel on the phone please." i ask nicely but i'm in rush to know he is okay. "Sorry Rose he is in the shower right now, i'll have him call you after." he says but i know something is wrong, but i'm too far away to do anything i should have never left them alone with eric this is going to end up bad. I drive to the funeral place and join everyone. I know i have to see them both one more time before they get buried. I know i won't like what i see but i need to get closure on them. My dreams are getting worse and i need this. I walk through the doors holding ethan's hand and everyone looks my way, as i make my way up to the coffins everyone is silent. It's me, my grandma looks my way and i know that i should say something and i will. I let go of ethan's hand i look into the coffins. The two people i loved the most and who loved me in a coffin too early, i'm still in high school and haven't even gotten married or had grandchildren for them to see.
What am i supposed to say to that child or children when they want to meet their grandma and grandpa. Keeping all of this to myself is hard, but i manage to keep it all in. Ethan tries to make me feel better but i know i can't. I hold back tears and i turn around and face everyone even my grandma.