The rainy morning was predominant. There's a lot of raindrops in the window of my room. It's so cold. I remember Tommy was calling me yesterday because the class has suspended during the non-stop of falling rain. I love this moment. I can do all I want to do and because of my friend, Tommy He's going here to spend his time with me and drinking a lot of drinks. I wonder when I see the beautiful lightning coming from the dark clouds I remember the time when my classmates outrage me. Pained and It's the cause of oppressed. Swipe my tears and I always doing is to go at the back of the University.
I want to be treated like a real person. They treated me like an animal. Because of my outfit and nerd eyeglass? C'mon. I'm just a student who wants to enjoy my college life. I know it's not really easy and there's a lot of stupid people who can easily judge me by my physical appearance but I'm also a person like them.
My phone has rung. I hold it up and answer the person in the opposite line. I think I know that number and I do not mistake It's John. John wants to finish his activity on Reading and Writing subject but He didn't take down notes last week. He wants to copy my notes and do it before the passing day. I guess he would make a non-sense story about me if I cannot do what he wants. But I'm not afraid of his warning.
I'd like drinking coffee and using the cup that my mom gave to me. I miss her so much. It's been a long time ago when she's gone and leave me at the side of my dad. I'm not happy. Dad was told me if I bend the rules in this house he evicts me. So harsh but before mom left I promised I will study hard, cath up my dream.
It's already 2:00 P.M. I still waiting for the second call of Tommy. The rain is still falling with the high pressure of the wind. The windows are spanking on the wall. It is like a horror movie scene that I watched last day. So creepy.
After a few minutes, I heard a sound coming from the door. I walk towards and I open it. I was amazed when I see the person in my front. It's Tommy. He is wearing a green jacket and a black mask. He entered my room and looking for unknown things.
"Bro? Where's your guitar? Can I borrow it?" He smiled and I'm going to my second room.
"Here, please be careful ah! That's the inheritance of my Grandfather!" I laugh before I give it to him.
"I know bro! Can you teach me how to play it very well?" He holds the guitar and starts touching those strings.
"You will learn it when you watch some video tutorials on youtube!" I smirked.
I decide to leave this room in several minutes to serve food and drink. I know Tommy's tired on a road trip. I hope He enjoys the meal in my own made.
"How's your day? You are already done on our homework?" I asked.
"Not yet bro!"
I'm shocked. But Tommy is my only friend. Like me. Tommy's are victims of bully before we started at college.
I feel the real shock when my dad is coming and he did not greet me if I'm fine or not. Dad has go to the room while removing the tuxedo. I'm really worried about my dad's attitude. He is not like this when my mom is alive. I think dad is the most affected when my mom was gone. And it is because of me.
My mom saved me from the hold-up encounter in manila past 2 years ago. The unknown person who wearing a black mask is hit a 4 times gunshot. Mom was falling on the wet road. I'm not mistaken that is night. I was crying while holding my mom's head. I screaming for help but no one is there to help us. I starring the bloody face of my mom and she smiles with me. "Don't cry, sweetie. Don't let your dreams will go for what happens right now. You promised me. You can do all your best to prove your self on your dad." She said with rattled sound. The tears are flowing in my cheeks. I ask for help by screaming and that second time someone person is calling an ambulance. But when my mom is confined after 30 minutes the doctor told us mom has died.
"Hey bro? What are you doing here? Are you crying?" Tommy's said.
"N-No! I'm not crying. I'm also happy because I'm having a friend like you." I smiled
"Are you sure?" He asked me again for the second time.
"Yes. I'm sure."
Before I drank the last 2 swallows of coffee.
Tommy's nudge me using his elbow while holding a cup of coffee. I don't know what's the meaning of that act.
"Are you puzzled?" Tommy's said before sipping his coffee.
"Not really, but John's told me if I cannot do the project He uses social media platform to vilify. I'm scared about that because I didn't know how to commence all of the work. I think I need succor." I said with nodded.
Tommy's starring me like a pitiful and He raised his hand. He took the ballpen in his bag with a notebook then He smiles at me before writing my name on the piece of paper.
"I will help you, my friend."
I smiled. I look in his eyes and I hug him. I really appreciate the effort that He gave me. I'm so really lucky to have a friend like Tommy. I see the sadness in his eyes and He pretending strong. I knew it's not. But I would like to help him too. Tommy's plight is not easy. He is most affected than me and I want to show him this is not the end to give up in our dream.
"Thank you, my friend," I said.
"You're welcome, bro."
We are sitting comfortably here in the dining room. I'm still looking for attention coming from my dad. I wish he will be okay. I love my dad but I think he didn't love me too because of the incident.
"Don't worry bro, your handsome friend are here by your side to guide you to finish that." Tommy's said.
"After this typhoon, I will buy a new book for you."
He laughs loud and holds my shoulder.
"You will?"
"Yes! I will!"
"Yay! Thank you very much! By the way. What kind of book? Or a title?"
"It's secret bro! Surprise only. For now, help me to finish this."
I draw the building of our university and I wrote a poem in a center part of the sketch.
The dark surroundings engulf my heart
I forget the feeling and my broken part
I hope it will be fine and create a new start
I miss my old me with a screaming laugh.
My teardrops falling in my work. I didn't know. My bad emotions are now engulfing in my body. I fighting in my anxiety. It's not okay. But I pretend I'm okay. I believed this happened are only challenges. I viewed the work of Tommy. So beautiful. There's a lot of stars by the combination of blue and violet. He draws the unknown girl. I don't know who is that but the face of the girl is so attractive and I like the suit.
"Who's that?" I asked.
"Oh well, This is Tala. The God of Stars."
"She's so beautiful ah."
"Oh? Really?"
"Yes."
"Thank you!"
"Welcome."
I continued my work. I secretly viewed the work of Tommy. That girl caught my attention and I don't know why. She's so beautiful and every single second I saw her eyes I fell in love. No! No! She is a fictional character created by the wide imagination of the Author.
I'm going to the kitchen and take any snacks and juice. Tommy is staying in my room while accomplishing his work. I decide to go into the balcony and starring the grey sky. I saw a lot of young people playing in the middle of the pouring rain. I smirk, I remember the time I and my mom are playing. I miss my mom. If I could go back the time when my mom and I are asking for help. I think she's still alive right now.
Mom sorry. It's all my fault. Please forgive me for letting you go because it's your choice. You are the reason why I'm here in this world I hope you are happy with God and please stay by my side for the better and for worst. I love you, mom!