Time flew so fast and Nikka was more nervous every minute that passed while waiting for Marcus. She worried her lip so much it almost bled. She was not used to doing this. Although she had imagined this several times in her mind, there was still doubt in herself.
'What if he rejected me? What will I do?' she felt sad at the thought.
"It is now or never...." Vera's words encouraged her. She had to take the risk otherwise she wouldn't know if Marcus really have feelings for her, too.
She remembered the "present" that Vera gave her and she swallowed hard as her heart continued to race inside her chest. She had never worn anything daring before whenever she went to sleepover at Marcus' apartment. Oftentimes, she wore long pajamas so he wouldn't think she's seducing him.
'A special present for a special day,' she thought nervously.
Marcus had always been a gentleman to her and had never touched her inappropriately at any cost. There were times that she would even wear something shorter, enough to show some skin. She would sometimes find his eyes following her every move and yet, he never dared touch her.
But today, with the clothes she packed, which Vera technically did, she did not know what she'll do if he did make a move. She vowed herself that she would save herself for marriage but she felt like it would never happen.. and it would happen tonight instead... with her one true love.
Her mind felt like it was going to explode. Her heart kept beating faster and faster as they neared his apartment.
"Are you okay?" Marcus asked, concerned. "Is something wrong? Did something happened?"
"W-what? No. It's good. I'm fine," she answered nervously.
A few minutes later, they arrived in his apartment. As soon as Marcus opened the door, she rushed to the bathroom to wash her face with cold water. She needed to calm herself. So she took a deep breath and slowly exhaled. She could feel her body shake and she pressed her hands together. She took a last look in the mirror and then she opened the door.
"I placed your duffel bag in the bedroom inside the closet. Are you sure you're okay?"
She moistened her lips and just nodded.
"Do you want to go change first before we have pizza or-"
"I'll change later. Why don't we eat pizza first?"
"Sure."
Later on, after eating, they sat beside each other on the blue couch while a horror movie is on TV.
"I-I'm going to take a shower first and change into my pajamas. Pause the movie for me, okay? I'll be back," Nikka told Marcus, trying to hide the shakiness in her voice.
"Sure. Take your time," he replied and paused the movie.
She almost ran to the guest bedroom where her pink duffel bag was.
Nikka went into her bag and took out the set of a black silky slip nightgown paired with the black lace underwear that Vera gave her this morning. She took them along with her toiletry bag to the bathroom and jumped into the shower. After a few minutes, she came out and put on the clothes. She brushed her teeth and brushed her hair.
She took a deep breath and went out. She saw him drinking wine and staring blankly on the screen. His face looked so worried. She rarely saw him drinking wine at all and she knew that he was bothered by something she didn't know. She studied him for awhile, not wanting to disturb him.
Later on, he set down his glass on the coaster on top of the glass coffee table and buried his face with his hands.
She never saw him at this state before and for a moment all she wanted to do was to comfort him. She approached him, running her hand at his back as she sat beside him. He turned to her and looked straight into her eyes. She could see the sadness in his eyes, and she was concerned.
"Is everything okay?" Nikka asked.
But instead of answering, Marcus' eyes slowly dropped from her eyes to the hollow in her breasts. He bit his lips and when his eyes returned to her face, he saw the questioning look. He could not hide the desire that formed in his eyes and Nikka got nervous. He moved closer to her, cupping her face in his hands.
"What are you doing to me, Nikka?" he said in a husky voice. "Are you trying to seduce me?"
"W-What? I... ummm.." she stuttered and moistened her lips.
His eyes narrowing as he bit his lip and he continued to talk huskily. "You're making it harder for me not to touch you."
"T-Then don't stop," she said, wrapping his arms around his neck, pulling him closer to her as their lips were inches apart. "Kiss me, Marcus."
"Nikka.." and he bit his lip again, "Please don't do this to me," he begged and he swallowed hard. She could feel his struggle to control but she's determined to do it tonight. She loved him that much that she was willing to give up everything for him. Including this...
"But I want it. I want you," and she kissed him.