"Look K, I happen to see Zest yesterday. It's not like I wanted to see him. Honestly girl, you should talk to him. This happened second time already. If I were-"
" Nel, stop. You know i can't. I..I love him and I don't want to lose him." This is how stupid I am when it comes to love. Zester Sullivan, age 17, a basketball player caught my heart. He's everything to me or should i say he's my everything. We've been together 2 yrs from now and it was going well until the time he wanted to have my virginity almost a year ago. I refused, of course. My parents raised me well enough to not engage in such activity but sadly for me, he changed. Yes, we're still together but not like before. He respected my decision but his overall personality to me got different. Obviously, my refusal was the reason behind it. I could've just give in but my will about not losing my virginity until i get married was strong and he could've break up with me but he didn't.
I was happy he accepted what I want for a very long time until a month ago. I caught him talking to another girl, oh it's not just a girl, it's Hennessey Dutch, the one who bullies me, orders me around like I'm her servant. Don't get me wrong, I'm not weak, I just don't want to make her hate me and I don't want to be her friend either. Right now, Nel, my newest friend and neighbor who just transferred last month and now my bestfriend said she saw him with Hennessey yesterday.
"I mean why?? Girl, he's not the last guy in the world. Stop being so stubborn and break up with him" she murmured while eating the last pizza. " It's true, 2yrs together with him is full of something but don't you think it's time to stop sticking around with him if you know the spark is already gone? You're better than this K, I may have know you for just a month and I'm happy I met you so listen to yourself. Look you're even showing any emotions when I bring him up. I don't know if you're hurt or what"
I sighed. "Sorry Nel, give me time to think about it. For now let's go back to class.
As soon as we got back to class, the school bell rang indication for class resume after break. Thinking of what Nel said made my mind busy throughout the day. This type of relationship is common out there and I don't really know how to act. Come to think of it, Since the day he acted different, I might have lost my emotions about it . I don't even know if I was the one who changed. I'm not angry about him cheating but I don't want to let him go. Is this normal? or am i going crazy? *sighs*
Class ended with questions whether i should do what Nel says or not hovering around me instead of stress like every normal days I have without thinkin about how I should deal with Zest. I wasn't really focused on my surroundings that I bumped into someone. Wait wait wait wait .. omg is God finally giving me some answers? Is this the time when the person you bump into will be the guy to be with you forever??? Guys you know this part. Will my story finally end??
I slowly move my head up. Omg! I knew it! He's a cool looking guy, he got like the bad boy vibe. I might forget Zest this time!
"Oh I'm sorry I wasn't paying attention honey, here *gay tone (lends a hand)" Suddenly my shining future days with this young innocent guy who wasted his looks for being what he wants shattered in pieces.
Really? Are you effin kidding me? I got excited for this? Oh I'm done.
He helped me get up and went his way. This reminds me of someone. Someone so dear to me that made me who I am today.
I smiled with the just the thought of him. Well, I hope he's doing well wherever he is.
Nel already left since her brother picked her up and as for me, I'll just take the bus as always. I don't really trust cabs especially when I'm alone with the driver.
Bus arrived at exactly 5. I chose an empty seat beside a window and waited till the bus drive of. What I like about riding a bus is that I get to see a view,where children are playing around, adults busy doing their stuffs and teens wandering wherever they want. I get to see a lot of people minding their own business.
We we're almost at the next station so the bus slowly stopped for the passengers. My eyes followed a tall guy with a messy hair wearing a mask and hoodie. I'm quite amused at how he dressed, it's just my type. It'd be great to see Zest wearing this style but nah, he isn't really into it. I sighed with the thought of him refusing my request.
He sat at the back seat and at the this moment, the bus is full and I'm still in 2 stops away.
30 mins passed and another batch of passengers entered the bus. A lot are already standing with the guy I saw earlier, well I'm sorry he's the only person I notice here. He stand out so much. And hello, I'm not the only girl who gets interested to some random guy, all girls do it no? or is it just me? oh nevermind.
The bus stopped again and a lot got off the bus. This time an old lady carrying a bag of books and some groceries sat next to me. I smiled at her. She's giving me a relaxing vibe. I love how gentle and fragile she is. She smiled back to me and her wrinkled eye formed a curve shape then she just sat there doing nothing until the last stop.
As soon as she got up, I stood up to guide her but the guy from earlier acted first. That's cute. I walked from behind them as we got off the bus. I noticed she thanked the guy so he went on his way, the opposite way. Well I'm headed where the lady is headed so might as well hold her groceries for her.
"Hi ma'am, would you like me to hold your groceries for you? " I said with the softest voice I made for my whole life(just kidding)
She looked at me and smiled. Oh my! Her smile made my day!
"That's so kind of you dear, what's your name?" she replied and handed me her groceries.
"Keize ma'am, I sat next to at the bus ma'am"
"Ah yes, I see. And stop calling me ma'am, call me granny B " she chuckled. Even her chuckle is a wholesome. "Sure granny B" I smiled. This moment with her made me forgot about my worries. It was really a good decision to ride the bus.