Again, the morning came and Tammy went to school. I have not replied to your letter and I miss you...
Hi love,
It has been a long time... I want you home... I want you here, with me, without the fear of losing you so suddenly without even seeing you breathe your last breath.
I cannot really argue for you love your country as much as you love me and Tammy. I understand not but I know that it is hard being a soldier and a father... You earned my respect since day one and I support you until where you can go...
I just cannot help but worry for you and your well being. If you suddenly become injured, please go home immediately... I wish to take care of you in the hospital...
Just for the love of everything, Marc, please tell me if something's wrong... Do you think I don't know that you've been hiding messages in your letters? Remember, that's how we become a team! I can help you... you have a shoulder to lean on... Please don't bottle all of this up like you have no one in the world... you have a wife you married you, idiot... Though I call you an idiot, you are a smart man and I cannot believe you forgot about your wife...
Please come home for the time being...
Your wife,
Olfina
I leave my room to see an empty house with no one but me... I never knew that this place was so big... Maybe it's because Tammy was always around to make sure that every corner is noisy. This is going to make me go mad.
I take the envelope I sealed then without even changing from my nightgown, I walked to the post office then gave the letter. I left not long after that... I feel tired... I don't have the strength to bother mingling with people...
The fourth day... I play the recording of his serenade on the television and it made me quite nostalgic... I never knew what happened after that but I knew that I found him...
After watching the video, again and again, I put the record of Marc playing me Salut d'Amour before he left for the army. It made me feel as if he's here... Call me delusional, I don't care...
As the record played, I went upstairs to change into my gown. It was the gown that I used during our wedding reception... I remember the wedding so perfectly... Our honeymoon on the beach, our Spanish inspired reception and our traditional wedding. It went great and it was the best night of my life.
I went downstairs as if he was there waiting for me and I danced alone in the living room as if I had him to dance with me... I could only imagine as the cold ran through my back, telling me that he is not here... That I need to wake up.
I love the feeling of your soft hands, your scent that I miss, the warmth you gave me for all those years. Especially when the nights are cold, you were there right beside me... But not anymore. I never thought of looking for someone to keep the bed warm for I never found someone like you... Someone who exceeded my expectations...
I just cannot believe how much I missed you... I wouldn't even be mad if you actually opened the door and laughed at me as I danced with the wind...
I have nothing to do today, for Tammy is not here... I have no one to talk to. I am happy though the silence is deafening and definitely making me insane. Can you please just come home... I need a safe haven and this house is not a home without you.
I hum to the tune of the gleeful melody... As the tune says hello to the man I love, I imagine us being the happy family we used to be... Being the ideal family that I loved and I will continue to love until I leave.
With no more words to say but I love you, I let the record play while I dance to the garden where I feel melancholic. The melody keeps me sane and it would make me quite upset if the tune were to finish. Not long, I hear the beep of Tammy's school bus. Tammy comes in the gate then she sees me dancing with a smile on my face. She then proceeds upstairs with a smile on her face.