Fear. Its not a delicate subject. Sometimes it saves your life but sometimes it wastes your time. My fear took away somebody. I should be happy about it since I feared him but I couldn't shake the feeling that I actualy enjoyed his presence. I didn't like him too close, that triggered a panic attack but I felt…safe with atleast him in my sight. Now that he's not here with me it makes me feel lonely.
"So we're all settled in! Are you comfortable in this corner?". Marly snapped me out of my thoughts as she got up to leave.
"Yeah it's fine. " I lied as I was sitting in cold concrete in a corner. I chose to sleep in a corner because I move a lot in my nightmares but if there's a wall on one side maybe I won't move as much. This was never going to be comfortable but it's all I got.
"Great! I'll see you tommorow at breakfast! Wait you don't know where the cafe is do you? I'll just come and pick you up here then we can go together. Also Jackson was supposed to tell you tomorrow exactly where you will be guarding and at what times but he asked me to do it so you'll receive your instructions tomorrow from me. " She said as she was about to leave the sleepers cell.
"And look, I know you don't like me. I don't blame you! I took away your chance at a new life but Issavella please u derstand that I'm all you got because I feel like Jackson is trying to avoid you. I'll try my best to earn your trust and liking but you have to help me understand you. Just know you can talk to me. " she said as she looked at me one last time and left the sleepers cell. Yeah she was right, I didn't like her exactly for that reason.
I looked around the room as there were about 40 other people getting ready yo sleep. Some where chatting with others and some were all ready sleeping. I on the other hand was buried in my thoughts hugging my knees. I was scared that I'll make to much noise in my nightmares and wake up others. Will they tell the boss?
I layed down on the side and used by arm as a pillow. This was as comfortable as its gonna get. I closed my eyes as I slowly cleared my head from all the thoughts.
I woke up in a totally different room. This time it was bright red. I looked around and there was no one here. What's the hell am I doing here? I saw my mom walk in. I got exsided as she looked at me and ran up to me for a hug. She could see me! She could finally see me! I saw our boss walk in the room behind her. Did he bring her here? I looked at him as he walked up being my mom. My mom had a terrified look on her face like she knew what was about to happen. What's going on? The boss brabbed my mom by her hair and with the other hand he pulled out a knife. "NO! WHAT ARE YOU DOING? " I yelled terrified by what's about to come. He cut my mom's throat open and let her go. As she bled out on the floor in front of me I hystericly cried as the boss was just loughing. "MOM! NO! WHAT HAVE YOU DONE!! MOM PLEASE! COME BACK TO ME! MOM PLE-"
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"Girl wake up! Are you ok? Why are you yelling so loud?" I gasped as a young man woke me up from this nightmare. I felt relieved yet so terrified by the dream that just started crying.
"It was just a bad dream don't worry! Now go back to sleep. " He said as he walked back to where he was sleeping before. I looked around and I relised I woke up all most the whole room. Some of them look annoyed some of them mad. I even saw some confused faces that probobly have never experienced a bad dream.
All the people went back to bed but I couldn't do that. I won't allow myself to wake everybody up again. I'll just stay up for the rest of the night. I layed done back on the side facing the corner.
Feels like ten minutes have gone by and all I can think about is not to fall asleep. I won't do it. I heard someone down the hallway so I started panicking because what if it's the boss and he heard me screaming. Did I wake him up???
I was hoping tha person walking would pass this room and go further into another room but of course I heard his shoes walking on concrete. I knew he was in this room since its the only room with floor as concrete not wood in this hallway. I could hear the quiet footsteps getting closer and closer to me. I started shivering from fear that I'll get grabbed by my arm and thrown in a torture room or something.
As the footsteps god so close I could hear that the person walking was trying to be quiet. He was right behind me. I was about to throw up from the amount of fear I have. I was trembling in fear as I could hear the person behind me knell down. I felt a tear drop on my cheek as I thought about all the bad things that could happen.
The person layed a something on me and quietly left. I was to scared to look at what he put on me. Maybe it could be a movement bomb or something. I slowly felt a little wormer than before. What did he put on me?
As I slowly took a look I was shocked at what it was. A blanket. Someone put a blanket on me. It was dark but I could still see that it was in a dark blue color. It was really soft and made wormer in seconds. Who would give a blanket to me? I thought about Marly when she said she'll try to earn my trust and liking so I bet she was the one who put the blanket on me. I'll thank her in the morning. I was actually happy at this moment since I was worm and a bit more comfortable.
I thought about all the things I could possibly have to do as a guard until I fell asleep.
"Hey Bella, wake Up its time to go for breakfast! " I slowly opened my eyes as I saw Marly carefully shaking my shoulder. I can't belive I fell asleep. I didn't have a nightmare. The blanket really was a lifesaver.
"where are the others? " I looked around and except for Marly, I was the oy one in this room.
"They already left for breakfast, I couldn't get you to wake up! You were in a deep sleep clearly! I'm actualy surprised since from my experience sleeping on concrete isn't comfortable. "she said with a little giggle in the end. I felt energetic like I actually did get a good sleep. Thanks for the blanket I guess.
"Now let's go, they're serving pancakes this morning!" she said as she started to walk to the exit of the room.
"Before we go there, thanks for the blanket! " I said as I smiled at her. I still didn't like her but it was nice of her. She looked at me confused.
"What blanket? You mean the one you were sleeping with? Yeah you were wrapped like a burrito in it! " she said sounding excited. Excited for the pancakes.
"Yeah that one! Thanks for giving it to me! " I said as I pointed to the blanket folded in the corner I was sleeping in. All of the people sleeping here had some belongings but I was the only one with a blanket.
"Yeah uhhh… You got the wrong person. I didn't give it to you." She said as she left the room expecting me to follow but I was left in confusion. Who gave me the blanket?