♤Louis' POV♤
Last night was amazing to say the least. The images of his lips on mine and his hands on my body flash through my mind as I watch him sleep beside me. The anxiety crawls back as I remember how awkward the other boys were when we kissed at 12, but I cant blame. None of them would've ever expected me and Harry to kiss, we were bestfriends and nothing more in their eyes. Im not really certain on how Harry feels about me, but I know with every second our make out continued my love for him grew stronger and stronger. My only concern is that when he wakes up, he will have regretted last night and thats scary. My phone dings to see a message from Niall Horan, what on God's green earth could this pest want.
"How come everyone knew you guys were together and not me."
What an idiot. Why does he act like this. Evey since we exchanged number he wont stop asking about Harry and I cant stand it. Niall is a nice guy, but I get the sense that he is trying to ruin me and Harry and I dont like it. I respond to him in the nicest way I can without being sassy or rude.
"We arent together...not yet at least. At practice today me and H will tell you guys about it later we still haven't talked. Please stay out our business."
I kay my phone down and look back to see the greenest, prettiest, most amazing eyes looking up to me. "What are you upset about?" I blush, his morning voice is so attractive. "Just Niall...he asked why he was the only persin that didn't know we were together and I had to explain that we aren't..or at least not yet." I hesitate at the ending, I wasnt sure if Harry wanted to be my boyfriend or not. He laughed and laued his head on my bare chest and I can see his lips are bruised and there are red marks on his collar bones, suddenly I remember all the details from last night.
*flashback*
Harry pulled me into his lap and rested his perfect hands on my bum. Our bare chests against the other and there is so much heated love happening I cant breathe. "Lou" he speaks between sloppy kisses and pulls me closer. "I love you" Each word between a kiss. I stop to catch my breath and to tell him the words Ive always wanted to. "I love you too-" before I can continue Harrys lips are reattached to mine and our tongues move together, the only noises that are heard are our soft moans. I move to his chest, leaving love bites on his collarbones, he is mine and I want to keep what is mine. We stop to breathe and he speaks again "we should go to bed love, we have band practice tomorrow."
*end of flashback*
"I think we should talk sunshine." I love that name we call each other, its so cute. Its not usual for me to call him that, but I want him to feel special. Harry looks up to me and puts his hand on my cheek then pulls it away and I can hear his raspy voice again, "About what love." My heart melts once more, he called me love yesterday and today and he is using it as a name instead of a joke. "About last night, about this, about us?" I speak slowly brushing his hair behind is ears and kissing his forehead after. "And what about it Lou? Are you mad, did I do something wrong." He sounds sad and confused, I just want to let out my feelings but I dont know how to yet. "No honey you didn't do anythig wrong and I'm not mad. Ive wanted to kiss you and hold you since the moment I met you. Ive had feelings for you since as early as I can remember, Its always been you and it will always be you. I don't really know how to say how I feel right now, but the instant I find the right words I will show them to you. For right now...all I can say is I love you Harry. I love you so fucking much and last night meant the world to me. You are my sunshine and you're my world. You my dear, are my everything." I keep my voice low so no one else can hear, he is only person Ive ever loved and I cant even think of anyone understanding my love but him.
"Boobear... I- I love you too. Ive loved you for so long and I cant believe you are here with me right now. I-Its the most amazing thing in the world. That song for your birthday..that was the only one I've written that I thought you would like and I didn't know another way to tell you. Last night I just went for it and I had to kiss you. I had to feel your lips on mine to know if you loved me too...A-And I know you do now. I dont know what words to use either, but I will try E-Every day to tell you what I feel f-for you." His voice is shaky and scared. He only stutters when he is excited or scared, and I cant tell which one of those it is. Im terrified. I kiss him softly and feel his bruised lips against mine, pure heaven. "What do we tell the boys?" He whispers into my mouth, waiting for an answer.
"We will tell them we love each other but we arent together yet, we have to tell them to back off and not tell anyone because we want our love to be special." I kiss him again, he is mine he just doesn't know it yet. This boy, is mine.
""
"So you guys are in love but aren't together?" Liam seems shocked, but not as shocked as Niall. Zayn smiles, he expected it and can tell. None of them disrespected our sexuality or what we were and that made me feel safe, I hope Harry feels safe too. We both answer at the same time "thats exactly what it is." Our words are in sync, if that isn't true love then I don't know what is. Niall shook his head is disgust and Harry started to tear up, I am not about to let a Blonde headed man whore make my boy- my true love cry right in front of me. "Whats your problem? Seriously? If you dont like it then you can leave." I add sass to my voice so he knows I'm serious, homophobes get on my nerves and I dont stand for it. "Its just, I wasnt expecting either of you to be gay and now Im just wondering how we are all going to be seen together at school when there are two fa-" his words are rushed before Zayn decks him and he is on the ground. "Don't you dare to even try to call them that again. That's my cousin and the boy he loves. They are our friends and if you dont want to be seen with us then you can leave the band and the friend group and be on your own. Now I suggest you shut your mouth and let's practice. We have the talent show in two weeks and we still don't have a song written. Get your ass up and pick up your guitar or fucking leave Asshat." Zayn sounded so mean, Ive never seen him angry and I liked it. The way he acted matched his rugged look and crazy tattoos, he was the Zayn I loved being friends with. "Wait talent show?" I say, I barely payed attention to that part of what he said.
"We can use one of my songs." Harry's voice is whisper and I can barely hear him. He is a genius and a good writer too, one of his songs would be perfect. "Harry said we can use one of his songs." I speak for him, I feel like his protector when I do that. "Thats perfect." Liam claps and stands up, we are ready.
""
We have been back at school for 3 days, with Harry's help I passed finals and we are in our final classes of highschool. Luckily I have 4 out of 5 classes with Harry and we picked our seats next to each other in all of them. Senior year is so much better than I ever imagined. We are more than bestfriends, we are in love and everything is perfect, besides our bandmate that is a raging homophobe. Our talent show is in a week and the song Harry wrote is amazing, our voices all match the song and the music fits amazing, the only problem is that my baby is scared and I dont know how to get him ready. "Louis I really dont know how I will get ready, I'm so nervous." He whispers in our French class as we leave for lunch. His medication should keep him from being as scared, but it isnt and that worries me. I hope he is still taking it like he is supposed to. "Harry everything is gonna be fine, remember just look at the back of the auditorium and don't look at the crowd. Or you can look at me and look into these blue eyes and youll be safe. Don't be scared, please dont be scared." We get our lunch and sit at the circle table with our other bandmates, two seats waiting for us. "So, I was thinking that Zayn should do the high notes because that's his specialty." Liam rarely speaks, but when he does its always wise words. "I agree, I'm gonna nail that shit. We are definitely gonna win." Zayn bows as if he was a prince, but Harry is the real prince. He eats in silence as he always does, he is so precious. He is an angel.
""
My blood is pumping, my heart is racing, my eyes are wide, and I'm ready to perform for the first time with our band. Harry is scared, but I've assured him everything is okay and to look at me to be safe. "Next up, is One Direction. Zayn Malik, Liam Payne, Niall Horan, Louis Tomlinson, and Harry Styles!" The announcer speaks and the curtains open, I give Harry a nod and the music starts.
"Stained coffee cup
Just a fingerprint of lipstick's not enough
Sleep, where you lay
Still a trace of innocence on the pillow case" Niall sings remembering all the words. Everything is going good, now we all sing.
"Waking up
Beside you, I'm my loaded gun
I can't contain this anymore
I'm all yours, I've got no control
No control
Powerless
And I don't care, it's obvious
I just can't get enough of you
The pedal's down, my eyes are closed
No control"
I did it, I sang the first chorus with the help of Niall. Now its Liam's turn and then Harry's, they can do this I know they can. "Got the taste on my tongue
I don't want to wash away the night before
And the heat where you laid
I could stay right here and burn in it all day"
Harrys voice is beautiful and so perfect, we are going to win this because of him alone and the addrenilone rushes through my veins.
"Waking up, beside you I'm a loaded gun, I can't contain this anymore
I'm all yours, I've got no control, no control
Powerless, and I don't care it's obvious, I just can't get enough of you
The pedal's down, my eyes are closed, no control" I sing the chorus again this time with everyone's help. I feel so powerful, like I could take on the world. Now it's Zayn's solo. This is his band he wants to win this, his voice holds us together. He sings the bridge. "Lost my senses, I'm defenseless, her perfume's holding me ransom
Sweet and sour, heart devoured, lying here I count the hours" he nails it, his voice his every note perfectly, and in that second we all know, we have this in the bag. We all finish the last chorus together, "Waking up, beside you I'm a loaded gun, I can't contain this anymore
I'm all yours, I've got no control, no control
Powerless, and I don't care it's obvious, I just can't get enough of you
The pedal's down, my eyes are closed, no control
No control
No control
Powerless, and I don't care it's obvious, I just can't get enough of you
The pedal's down, my eyes are closed, no control" we finished strong and walked off the stage. Im so happy, this is amazing and the only other thing that has ever made me feel like this was Harry. "That was amazing oh my god we did amazing I did amazing Louis you did amazing everyone did AMAZING" he was jumping and screaming like a little boy, its the cutest sight Ive ever seen. He kisses me and pick me up twirling me around, how much better could life get?