Why do I feel like the world doesn't want me to lived? Like here I am, I'm doing nothing but it feels like I am carrying the whole world, only with my two hands.
At first, I can still manage all the hardships and suffering that I experienced. I even trying to be optimistic just to keep myself being positive all the time. But now, it seems like it's too much. It's too much for me to handle.
I tried. I tried my very best not to give up in this cruel world but I can't. I really can't. Even those tears that escaped on my eyes won't help.
Why do I have to exprienced all of this? Why can't I just die. People usually call me useless, liar, why do I have to live when I can just die?
Sometimes life was being unfair. Only those who are on the highest part of the mountain can see the light. While those who's here on this dirty world can't even saw a pinch of it.
I'm starting to lose my faith on those wishing stars. When I was a kid, my grandmother told me that wishing stars are real so I believed in them. Every night before I sleep, I'm wishing the best for me and for my family.
Everything went great not until my grandmother died because of an accident. And because of that, I lose my one and only treasure.
She's the only one that I had but now she's gone and my faithfulness was also gone with her. Now, I'm planning to be with my grandmother so that I can't experience this hardships anymore.
Standing here at the rooftop, watching at the violet sky full of stars, a tear escaped from my eye as I tried myself not to cry.
"Grandma, please take me with you. I missed you so much that I wanted to be near you and held by your arms. Please grandma. I can't live in this cruel world anymore. I give up."
Crying, sobbing and my body's trembling because of too much sadness and pain that I felt inside me.
When I was about to jump, I saw a falling star that passed through the whole city. I smiled. Not because I saw one. But because I remembered all the fantasies my grandma told me. I used to believe in that. But now I realized that fantasies are never meant to be real, because they aren't real after all.
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. I already decided to jump in this six storey building but I stopped from jumping when I heard something that striked into a stainless metal thing. I don't know what was that.
My body's trembling and I got back into my senses and stopped myself from jumping. I took a deep breath and go there to check what it was. I was hesitant at first but my curiosity tells me to check what was that thing until I saw it. It was glowing, color yellowish with a hint of green.
I tried to touch it. It moves and fly that made me jump because of shock.
Then I realized that it was the falling star I saw from the heaven.