"Oh, it's you." I bumped into Lyde when I was on my way searching for the bastard who ditched me.
Lyde only stared at me for a sec, then left without saying anything. "The fuck's his problem?"
I can also go after that bastard and beat him for annoying me too, though something is stopping me from doing so. I lost interest in beating him and the other bastard. Now that I recall, my suspension just ended so I can't get myself into trouble again because I might get expelled. "Tsk, I'll just fetch myself something to eat."
Since I'm done with Lyde, I still searched for a guy who'll be my lackey. But everyone is so busy, and some even ditched me like the guy from before. Everyone is starting to leave my side. And by everyone, I meant the people from my division.
Then slowly, it fed me up 'til I wasn't able to hold it any longer. I had to lock myself up in my room so nothing else will annoy me. I played with my phone to cool off my head, but fuck damn! Even the games were stressing the hell out of me.
"Why the fuck is everything so difficult!? Are they testing my patience or what!? What the hell is wrong with everyone these days!" I threw everything that was in sight, broke a couple of things, and ripped the books in my room that I never even used.
"Shit!" I was still not satisfied, but I was already exhausted as heck.
Then somebody knocked on my door. "Keith? Hey, what's happening in there?!"
"Oh shut up!!"
"Is that how you should talk to your mother!? Open this door right now, young man!" Damn this prying old hag. I didn't bother opening the door for her and made my way out through the window.
"Tsk, I don't want to deal with her bullshit right now." That night, I can't bring myself to go home yet and slept outside. Though it's cold, I can bear with it as long as I have a place I can lay down and sleep.
The park was the perfect place to hang. I was able to lay down at one of the benches and gaze at the night sky. "Now this is peaceful." It was cold but quiet, nothing can bother me here.
I spent my time only gazing at the stars with nothing in my mind. Lately, it's nothing but pure misfortune happening in my life. I only get to have fun for a certain amount of time and be miserable again like this, all alone.
Not thinking about anything is the best I can do for myself. Everything else is so shitty, that I'd like a day that I won't have to suffer like this.
Eventually, I fell asleep and woke up early because I couldn't take the fuckinb cold weather anymore. So I came back home sneaking without waking anyone up. Apparently, I can't fall back asleep anymore and ended up waiting until sunrise.
"Tsk, I'll just sleep at school later." I sneaked my way out of the house so I won't have to deal with my annoying family.
It was still too early to be at school, I made a few rounds walking at familiar places to look at some stuff and buy myself breakfast. I also ended up passing by a group of thugs—specifically those that belonged to the Wild Beast, but from Lexi's division.
I can tell it was them, they were wearing the gang uniform and all of them looked so arrogant and hostile to every person who passes by near them. They really act like they own the place. "Those fuckers…" they haven't even recognized me.
Then before I can tell them to fuck off, I can hear my name being mentioned from a distance. Their voices were so loud that I don't even have to come near to eavesdrop.
"I heard from Lexi that the second and third division leader positions will soon be open. I knew it'll happen soon, Keto's strong but he's clearly not enough."
"The lone wolf, huh. More like a stray wild hound. I've seen him fell with just one fucking punch! Is that how the leaders of the gang should be? Talk about embarassing."
"Y'all think I have a shot for those positions?"
They all laughed it off, thinking it's so funny to talk about someone behind their back. These damned hooligans don't even know that I can hear them right here.
However, I wasn't in the mood to beat anyone. So I walked away with this numb feeling. Rather than being furious, I felt weak when I heard them talking like that.
My authority in the gang is fading, and soon someone else will take my position. If that happens, what will become of me? Are they going to kick me off the group too?
The only thing I'm so proud of right now is being one of those who leads the gang. If I'm not the second division leader, or even if I'm not in the group anymore then I don't know what else I will be. It'll only be Keith Thompson again… just Keith… just a guy born a failure.
Existing all alone as a failure.
"What depressing fuck that is." I didn't realized that I muttered that unconsciously. Those who were sitting next at the same table were surprised to hear me and left to sit at a different table.
I didn't even realize that I'm already at the school library, staring at a book that's upside down. "Shi— I'm really out of my mind right now." They do say that old habits won't die easily.