It seems like I've go back to the first day of school. I'm alone. Nag iisa at walang kasama. Walang kakilala. Tumingin ako sa likuran but there's no crazy guy na bigla bigla nalang magsasalita. It may sound funny but I already treat him as a friend. A friend na Hindi naman pala dapat! But - - ugh! Damn it! I can't deny that I've missed him saying crazy things, praising himself again and again. But I shouldn't missing shit like him.
"As I've said, today was the submission of your project at this morning I'll just pick 5 students in the class to present their project and everyone should be ready for this.. And mamayang hapon nyo na sakin ipapasa yang Nasa folders. So here's the lucky 5...."
"Lim, Cortel, Acalla, Roihsn, and Zellarde.. Now prepare your presentation." Sabi ng guro tsaka umupo sa likuran
Naunang magpresent yung babaeng medyo maliit at halatang kinakabahan. It was just a 5 minutes presentation- - oo maiksing presentation lang seems like pahahapyawan mo lang ang nasa written which is yung nasa folder. Meaning mas importane ang nasa folder dahil yun ang bibigyan ng grade.
And now it's the asshole's turn. He started presenting. And his face shows no emotions, walang kabang makikita. He speaks and talks lazily but damn! Yeah! I admit, He's too good! Para syang nagpepresent ng isang develop na application - - whatever! But he's way better than the three and even the teacher was impressed. He presents like he recited all of the words written in his presentation. I think tatlong beses lang syang tumingin sa presentation nya at lahat na ay galing na sa bibig nya ang pagpapaliwanag.
But i think there's something behind that looks. The very little thing I notice in his bag in the gym I saw it to someone I met before.
Asshole, who really are you?
"Ms. Zellarde!" Nagulat ako sa sigaw ng teacher at nagmadaling pumunta sa harap. Damn! I'm wool-gathered.
Nang humarap na ako sa kanila
Ay bigla akong kinabahan but I took a deep sigh before I speak. I know wala namang pakialam sakin ang mga tao sa harapan ko kaya inisip ko nalang na nagsasalita ako sa harap ng isang pader.
Ginawa ko ang dapat gawin at ipinaliwanag ang dapat Kong i explain. And I was surprised na nakikinig at tutok sa presentation ko ang mga kaklase ko.
Wow! Mad dogs and Flies were listening to this trash? Srsly?
Nang matapos akong magpresent ay nagsalita ang guro.
"That was impressing too, ms. Zellarde. I'm looking forward to the written. It somewhat interesting." Tsaka sya tumayo at bumalik sa table nya sa harap.
"Okay class, that all for today. If you can't passed me your project this afternoon, later at our subject, 75 was enough. Now, dismiss!"
I get out immediately but while I'm walking, someone cling into me. Srsly?
"Xheann!!"
"You're hands." Turo ko sa kamay nyang nakakapit sa braso ko at agad nya namang tinanggal yun
"Sorry. San ka pupunta Xheann?"
"None of your business." I replied while kept on walking
"Namiss kita Xheann!!!"
"We're just a classmate and studying in the same section"
"Yeah! Yun na nga eh"
"kung Hindi lang.." She whispered but I heard and I don't dare giving a damn care about.
"Xheann sorry.."
"For what? Have you done wrong?"
"Eh kasi - - -"
"Don't say that. I hate it." Yeah! I hate hearing that word. I don't even know but It feels like for me, hearing something like that was may masamang ginawa sayo or what- - I don't know! I just can't help having that thought.
"Sabay na tayong kumain xheann. Namiss talaga kita eh.. Please just this time.." She said in a lieging tone
"Tss! - - ohh sh*t! Just go ahead"
"T-teka bakit?"
"Forgot something." Hindi konna sya hinintay sumagot at tumalikod na ako. Damn it Xheann! Of all the things you could left bakit yun pa?
Lakad takbo ang ginawa ko para makarating agad sa room. And I've seen something worse that made me displease and enrage.
And in an instant, my hand suddenly landed on her face and pushed her that hard.
Damn! They wrecked my project. They ruined it, crushed it, crumpled it and cut its parts into pieces and it was shit! She's so damn shit! My heart beating so fast in anger! I really can't believe her!
"WHAT THE HECK XYRHYLL!!!!! WHAT THE HELL IS YOUR PROBLEM???? HINDI MO BA TALAGA AKO TITIGILAN HA? AREN'T YOU STILL SATISFIED ENOUGH FOR PUTTING ME IN HELL HUH???"
Gigil kong sigaw sa kanila. They were surprised but xyrhyll tried to stand up and pushed me na Hindi ko inasahan and I bump into the chair behind me.
"YOU! YOU'RE MY F*CK'N PROBLEM! YOU KNOW I REALLY CAN'T STAND SEEING YOU AROUND. GET LOST AND LEAVE! THAT'S ALL WHAT I WANT!!"
"Bakit? Naiinggit kaba sakin?" She didn't answer but she close her fist.
"C'mon xyrhyll! I'm just an effin' trash here!!"
"Yeah! You're a trash that I wanna hurt again and again!!"
"You're already hurting me!! It doesn't satisfied you enough?"
"Yes! I'm still not satisfied enough!!!" She said and smirk
"Aaaaaaaahhh!!!" I screamed out loud when Someone suddenly thump on my knee that made me fell and xyrhyll grab that chance to pull my hair and slap me many times that made my face numb
"Aargh!!" Napadaing ako ng sinipa nya ako sa tyan after slapping me. Kaya natumba ako sa sahig. Damn! It f*ck'n hurts! I tried to stand up but she kicked me again.
"You deserve to be hurt like that!!! And that was still not enough! I'm still not done!!"
I smirked.
"Why don't you just kill me? Maybe that was the only thing that would makes you happy. Does hurting me gives you a lot of pleasure? Hahaha! You're pathetic xyrhyll. C'mon just kill me now besides I'm already tired of living."
She smirked at me at padabog na kinuha ang bag nya.
"Maybe next time? I still need a toy eh.. If I could kill you now, then wala ng magpapasaya sakin, wala na akong maipapahiya and wala na rin akong masasaktan. Let's just have a perfect time and place for your death." And she left after giving me a devil smile.
Damn! I really hate this!
I can fight but I can't. And it was so sh*t!!
Pinilit kong tumayo. Inayos ko ang sarili ko at pinagpag ang damit ko. Lumabas ako and it's good, walang masyadong tao.
I tried to walk normally but damn! My knee hurts! pipilay pilay akong pilit umakyat sa rooftop at malapit ko ng marating pero mukang Hindi ko na kaya pang tumuloy kaya umupo nalang ako sa hagdan don at sumandal sa pader and let those sh*tty tears escaped my eyes na kanina kopa pinipigilan.
I put my head on my knees and try to stop myself from crying but I end up weeping aloud.
Hindi ko napigilang mapahagulgol - - - sa inis, sa sakit, at sa galit.
Naiinis ako sa sarili ko dahil hinayaan ko nanamang saktan nila ako.
Nasasaktan ako dahil paulit ulit nalang na minsan ay gusto ko nalang maglaho. I'm tired of living in this world full of shit.
Nagagalit ako sa mundo, sa paligid ko, sa mga taong Hindi man lang ako hayaang maging masaya kahit minsan. Sa mga taong walang pakialam sa nararamdaman ko. Gustuhin Ko mang isumpa at murahin ang mundo pero alam Kong walang magagawa yun!
Until when I would became like this? Nasasawa na ako eh.
Gusto ko namang maging masaya kahit minsan lang, kahit mag isa lang ako oh.
Kailan ba ako pagbibigyan ng mundo?
"I didn't know that a girl who can make a guy's nose bleed could wept this loud like a baby" napaangat ako ng ulo ng may magsalita sa likuran ko at agad din akong umiwas ng tingin and wiped my damn tears with my bare hands.
"Get lost asshole...I don't have time for shits right now."
"Well I'm not here for shits"
"Then what are you doing here? To insult me? Fine! Do it now, hanggat kaya ko pang tumanggap ng pambubwisit nyo!"
"No, I'm here because you disturb me from sleeping" he replied at naramdaman Kong tumayo na sya at dumaan sa gilid ko tsaka naglakad pababa.
"Oh by the way. Here! Napulot ko!" Sigaw nya tsaka nya inihagis ang isang itim na panyo sakin bago tuluyang umalis.
And when he totally disappeared, I picked that hanky and used it to wiped my tears. Amoy na Amoy pa ang mabangong pabango nun and I know that it's not owned by someone else but him. Because there's his name embroidered in it.
Asshole, what the hell are you doing?
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After a moment, I decided to go down, with my knees still hurting. I didn't attended my first subject at kahit Malayo man ay pinilit ko paring maglakad upang iprint ang ginawa Kong project yun nga lang Hindi ko na malalagyan ng design gaya ng sinabi ng guro.
Pagkatapos ay bumalik na ako at breaktime na nila. Good thing dahil last period pa naman ang pasahan ng project nato.
Dun ako dumaan sa parteng walang masyadong dumadaan and from here I saw that crazy guy and xyrhyll talking and I smirk. No wonder, they're both shits!
BRIX POV (CRIJE BRIHXAN)
- pronounce as krayj Briksan
I texted xyrhyll to meet me here and damn it! I'm waiting here for almost 20 mins at ngayon palang sya darating. I saw her from a far with her surly face at nang makalapit sya ay agad akong tinaasan ng kilay.
"What?"
"Let's end this shit." I said directly
"Ahh..so that's the reason why do you wanna talk to me?.." She asked with her brows still up.
"....you mean okay na sayong masaktan ang kapatid mo?"
I smirked.
"Of course not. Why would I let that happen?"
"You're- - -"
"I'm just crazy back then to agree kung kaya ko naman palang protektahan ang kapatid ko without being your dog"
She laugh.
"Fine! Good for you to realized how stupid you are. Now, you're not my dog anymore! You're just NOTHING after all!" She said and rolled her eyes tsaka naglakad palayo.
I already think about this - to be free from being someone's dog. And yes. I'm stupid. I'm coward.
But now, I will protect my sister no matter what. I will do everything to protect her, to avoid her from being hurt and not to loose her.
Xheann's POV(Xheann Uhnika)
-pronounce as Shan Anika
Pumunta ako sa office ni ms. Flean at ipinasa ang project ko at pagkatapos ay lumabas na ako. I don't mind attending my class today. Kaya lumabas na ako ng gate - - or I should say tumakas dahil alam kong Hindi na ako palalabasin ng guard kung sa gate ako dadaan kaya sa pinaka likod ako dumaan at pilit tinalon ang Hindi naman kataasang pader. And I don't know how many second I've spent climbing that one with this hurting knee of mine. And thanks coz finally ay nagawa ko ring bumaba- - -tumakas but damn! The moment I land my feet on the ground ay sya ring pagbuhos ng ulan. Sh*t I'm really unfortunate one. I laugh bitterly.
Hindi ko naman magawang tumakbo ng mabilis because of my damn hurting knee. So I just let myself get drenched. Damn it! Am I in a movie? Am I an actress playing a role? Because if yes, please I don't wanna be one anymore. I'm weary. I'm already sick and tired of these shit!
Because of my wool-gathered mind, I don't know where my feet brought me and my damn tired body just go with it. I roamed my eyes for a moment and maybe my feet brought me in a nice place. In a serene one. I saw no one but trees, birds and butterflies flying over and around those beautiful flowers. I sat and leaned myself on a tree there and watched the surrounding. It's peaceful. I looked at those birds and butterflies as well and I wish I can be one of them, too.
Flying above and everywhere just so free. The only unfortunate thing about being those is that, when someone catches you but you can't do anything to resist in their huge hands for you being so small but there's two thing for you, it's either they would take care of you or just end up killing you but depends of the person. Because nowadays, people are so damn fond crazy hurting other. Imagine you're just a bird, who have done nothing but resting above the luxuriant foliage but someone saw you and suddenly shoot you - - and that would be the end of your life for sure! - - - see? That's how cruel people are!
I closed my eyes while leaning on a tree. This place was tranquil one and maybe it isn't bad if I steal and took this moment to rest for a while.
"Oh! Seems like we're destined to meet here!" May isang nagsalita but I don't bother opening my eyes. Alam Kong Hindi lang sya nag iisa.
"Seems like you fought over someone to look that tired huh? C'mon ms. G'L it's your time to pay and we're here again para maningil.." I open my eyes and looked at them lazily.
Ron..
"Surprise!" Sabi nya tsaka humalakhak
"Masyado ata akong sinuwerte dahil Hindi na ako pinahirapan pang hanapin ka"
Tumayo ako.
"Maniningil ka? Fine! It's your time." He looked at me. Confused. But suddenly a grin flash in his face.
"Mayabang ka parin talaga huh?- - - Hmp!" Gaya ng ginawa nya dati ay sa sikmura nya ako pinuntirya by way of kicking na agad nagpatumba sa sa akin. Damn! Even my body can't screamed how painful it is. Nasanay na rin ata.
"Alam kong tatayo kapa mamaya, kaya dinalhan na kita neto para sulit naman ang gagawin kong paniningil sayo" ngumisi sya tsaka pinakita ang isang syringe at napasigaw ako ng iturok nya iyon sa katawan ko.
I became dizzy at unti unting lumabo ang paningin ko.
Am I dying? Is this how my miserable life would end?
I smiled bitterly and I felt something warm escaped from my eyes before I could totally close it.
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Tumagilid ko at niyakap ang unan na NASA gilid ko. Teka bakit iba ang amoy? I mean mabango pero iba ang bango ng higaan ko. Pinalitan nanaman ba ni nanay - - O.O
Napabalikwas ako ng bangon - -
"Awwwtch!!" Ngunit agad din akong napaupo dahil sa sakit ng tuhod ko at sikmura and
"The eff- - !?" Inilibot ko ang paningin ko and - - THIS IS NOT MY ROOM! O___O
Where the hell I am?? Inalala ko ang nngyari sakin at - -
"Sht!!" Muli akong napamura ng mapatingin ako sa katawan ko at iba na ang suot kong damit! And damn worst! It's the color I hated the most! Ugh! Pink? And what the?- puno ng tatak na hello kitty and sh*t even my undergarments are! O__O No! Don't tell me- - sht! NO!!
Biglang bumukas ang pinto and- - O___O
"Glad you're awake" sabi nya ng pumasok sa kwarto at sumandal sa pintuan at deretsong nakatingin sa akin ang mga asul nyang mata. Kaya dinampot ko ang unan at binato sa kanya at napamura naman sya ng tamaan sya.
"WHY THE HELL AM I HERE? THE EFF- - DID YOU DO TO ME??!!!!'' Sigaw ko
" F*ck! You really don't know how to thank?" Kunot noo nyang sabi
"AND WHY WOULD I DAMN THANK YOU???"
"Because I rescued you from those goons when they inject you something with that syringe and before they could bring you inside their van, this freaking damn handsome good-looking guy came and saved you!!"
"And why are you doing this?"
Damn! Funny but he saved me twice.
"Because I ....."
"What?" Tinitigan ko sya but he stares back at ako ang unang umiwas ng tingin. Sht!
"...yeah! I was damn curious why didn't you fought back when one of the goons kicked you when the fact is you can punch them even with that tiny fist of yours!!"
"And now, you're thinking that I've did something to you? Bakit akala mo ba ni rape kita? Well....pwede rin naman kaya lang wala ka nyan.." Sabi nya tsaka tinuro ang dibdib ko at humalakhak. Sht!
"DAMN YOU! F*CK YOU ASSHOLE!!! MANYAAAAK!!!"
"Damn! Fvck! Stop throwing me that pillow kung ayaw mong totohanin ko ang iniisip mo!!..."
"PAKYU! THEN WHY I AM WEARING THIS SHITTY ONE?"
"Because you're wet! AT INUTUSAN KO SI YAYA NA PALITAN KA. Don't worryi I DON'T HAVE A BIT INTEREST ABOUT YOUR BODY!!"
Damn! How could he sounds like he's insulting me? Yeah! I'm not fat and I'm not thin as well. And my body was fine! I'm not really that flatchested, and I have a nice figure too! But damn! Why am I explaining this one!
"..but....." Muli akong napalingon sa kanya ng magsalita sya.
"...I'm the one who bought that shirt you're wearing right now even your UNDERGARMENTS..." He said while giving an emphasis to the last word at tsaka humalakhak.
And damn! Naramdaman Kong biglang uminit ang muka ko sa sinabi nya. Damn it! Damn you asshole!!
Dinampot ko ang isang magandng alarm clock sa table at binato iyon sa muka nya nakailag sya kaya sa pinto iyon tumama, sira.
"Hey! Stop! Wag mong sisirain ang gamit dito!- -"
"WALA AKONG PAKIALAM!!!! LAYAAAAS!" Sigaw ko tsaka dinampot ang lamp shade at handa ng ibato sa kanya pero wala na sya nakalabas na at dinig ko padin ang halakhak nya
"AAARGH!!! DAMN YOU ASSHOLE!!!BWISIT KANG ASUL KA!!!!!"
....
Dinampot ko ang bag ko at nag madaling lumabas ng kwarto kahit masakit parin ang paa ko pero Hindi na ganoon kalala.
At nadatnan ko syang nakatayo sa labas ng pintuan habang nakangisi at taas baba ang kilay.
"DAMN YOU!!" Kahit pipilay pilay ay pinilit ko syang sipain but damn I failed at muntik na akong maout of balance sa ginawa ko. At tinawanan naman ako ng king ina.
"Don't try hard babe! You're still lame!" He said and chortled again
"Pakyu!!!!" Sigaw ko at tsaka nagsimulang naglakad but damn Hindi ko alam kung saan ako dadaan kung liliko ba ako sa kanan o sa kaliwa but I ended up chosing the right one.
"Hey! Hindi pa tayo kasal kaya wag ka munang dumiretso sa kwarto ko. The way downstairs was in the left one!!"
Napapikit ako sa inis na gustong gusto ko syang sapakin at durugin ang bibig nyang walang magandang sinabi! You shitty asshole!!
Bumaba ako and damn this house was effin huge!
"Want me to bring you home?" Napahinto ako and I clenched my teeth when I heard him.
"Umalis ka sa harapan ko!"
"But I'm behind you..."
"F*CK!! GET LOST!!"
Nagmadali akong bumaba at lumabas ng - -
"DAMN! PUT ME DOWN!!" He lift me at binuhat na parang isang sakong bigas na nakasampay sa balikat nya
"YAYA!!! I'LL JUST THROW THIS TRASH. I'LL BE BACK!"
"ANO BA! IBABA MO AKO!!" sigaw ko habang hinahampas ang likod nya
"F*CK! STOP THAT! WAG KANG MALIKOT KUNG AYAW MONG SA KWARTO KO KITA IDERETSO AT HINDI SA INYO!!" tsaka nya ako pinasok sa kotse at nilock yun
"Wear your seatbelt or I'll do that for you?" He asked while smirking
"F*ck you!" Sagot ko and I rolled my eyes.
....
At nang makarating kami sa bahay ay agad akong bumaba
"Do you have something to say?" Tanong nya habang NASA lavas ako ng kotse at hawak parin ang pinto ng kotse nya
"I do have."
"And what is it?" Ha! You think I would thank you? As if!
"Well...DAMN YOU ASSHOLE!! PAKYU!!" Sigaw ko and I slammed the door tsaka sinipa ang kotse nya at Hindi na sya nilingon pa.
At pagdating ko sa bahay, there's another shit ang bumungad sakin.
Jae....