Submitting to you

I always thought I was wrong for having fantasies, Fantasies of me getting tied up and smacked around. I didn't think I was normal. All of my partners I'v had in the past always wanted vanilla sex. Never wanted anything outside of the norm. Maybe it was because I started having sex at 14 or maybe I just never found the right one. You know? The one that truly understands and gets what I am wanting. Sometimes I just feel ashamed or embarrassed of my fantasies, when I am talking to my friends about their experiences they always talk about how romantic it was. But my romance and theirs are completely different. They like kissing and fucking and hand holding, I mean don't get me wrong I like that stuff too, but I guess for me being intimate is more than that. Real intimacy is having your partner completely dominant and have control over you, to trust someone that much, with your mind and your body. That's real intimacy.