I don't think I can keep this up any longer until I breakdown in front of these people, this is much more like my past life where my father invited me for dinner and always slandered me straight on. I feel terrible just hearing his words resonating in this tiny little head of mine. I just want to go back to my mother's arms full of warmth and love, I had somewhere to return to and that was to my mother's arms.
Whenever she hugged me I smiled and my tiny fingers would intertwine with hers, her hair was always on my face as if it was longing for a child like me. Her eyes always sparkled and twinkled when she smiled at me she smiled so tenderly at me and my father, but once she passed away, my father started to go out and drink and he lost complete control over himself. This is why I don't always blame him for what he did to me when mother passed away, because at some point I also would've done the same with the stress inside me.
"Father, May I be excused?"
"Alright."
"Thank You, May you have a delectable dinner," I say, he remained silent and pierced his eyes through my head, I sincerely don't know what mother saw in this bastard. He's a genius what else does he ask for? He's the richest person I've ever met, he has maids protecting him 24/7 hours and he basically has his own dining hall. He probably sees this as a weird behavior for Louise to have but I'm not Louise, she's dead, we must've switched bodies at that time. I slightly lift my dress and close my eyes bowing down to him as a 'thank you' for the dinner. I walk off waving my hand at Adelaide and she nods walking slightly behind me. Once we walk out those doors I can hear all of the maids snickering and disappointment, I almost want to smirk. I feel so relieved that I can take out all of my rage and sadness on those poor pathetic maids. Well not sure about 'poor' but still, since they're here they're being pathetic.
"Lady Louise, What've you been up to?"
"I was just simply tired of their snickering and bullying."
"Bullying? Snickering? You never told me this."
Oh yeah. hehe, I guess she is a complete dunce, isn't she? Well, She never noticed because I'm guessing she thought we were playing around since they're maids, but she is a dunce since she came from a mean family that literally gave me the gift of a person. I like her consideration for others and the consideration she has for me.
"You know what Adelaide, you need to pay attention to others' reactions carefully not just mine. I'm still a child yes but I can still control my emotions, unlike the maids who only gossip for high society and gain."
"Louise, you shouldn't be so worried about that at this age."
"I'm going to grow wrinkles no matter what Adelaide, there are no exceptions."
"Sigh, Alright but you need to tell me when you feel sad or if you feel angry, I'll help you right away Lady Louise."
I turned around in shock at what she said, no one has ever told me that, I smiled at her happily and nodded right away, she makes me feel so comfortable when she talks so nicely like that. No one in my past life talked that way with me, everyone just shrugged it off as if I were a living robot with no humanity inside of them. I'm going to have to protect this dunce from everything I have! I won't let her be injured in any way! I won't let the things that belong to me bow their head down to someone else. She's MY nanny. hehe.
"Oh regarding your studies Lady Louise, well, the chancellor has decided to take them to the next level. Is that alright?"
"Oh, yeah, yeah. What's my schedule?"
"Breakfast at 5 a.m-"
"Gah!!!"
"Is something wrong Lady Louise?"
"N-No keep going.." I have never heard of a 5-year-old waking up at 5 in the morning to have breakfast and then got back to studying and learning etiquette! never in history have I ever heard of it! What is wrong with that idiot of a father! I'm just a child! Oh...But I'm HIS child.
"After breakfast, you'll be going to the studio to learn the art from Lady Marielle. After the art class you'll be learning sword fighting from Sir Anton, After sword-fighting you'll be taking etiquette with me, and after that, you'll be taking a dance class with the countess Elizabeth, and after that, you'll be taking history classes with the chancellor. That'll be the end of your schedule."
"W-Wha..?"
"Lady Louise? Are you alright?"
"Adelaide I think I'm dying..."
...
"Lady Louise!"
"Is that seriously my schedule for every day of the week?"
"No, you have vacations on Saturday and Sunday." Oh my lord. She says that as if she's been through this and it was normal for someone my age to start studying like this. I don't know sword-fighting I have never fought in my entire life I promise you that I'm going to die after sword fighting, I have a weak frame and the chancellor expects me to learn sword fighting at this age? I'm not a boy in this society! Just what is wrong with these people, does he really want me to turn into the first female chancellor after all or is it because he doesn't have anyone to succeed in his house other than a girl? I really don't want to wake up on a Monday and do all of this hard work when I could just be sleeping in.
"Alright then, it's late so you should start heading to the bath Lady Louise." We walk to the bedroom doors and once I enter I stand there frozen in shock. Is this really my room? I can't afford this back in Korea! not even after I retire!!!
"....!!!!"
"Louise?"
"Adelaide are you sure this is my bedroom?"
"Ah- yes I didn't think you would recognize it since the chancellor changed things up a bit, the wallpaper isn't the same, he ordered it to be painted the color pink as you said."
"P-P-P-P-Puh-Pink?!!!!!"
"Y-Yes, Is there something wrong?"
"N-no! it's just so beautiful! the color is nice and smooth I definitely didn't expect it to be so nicely colored." Was what I said, but in reality inside this tiny little head of mine, WHY the hell would he give a 5-year-old such a big and expensive room?! is he outta his mind?! Wait again this is not like in Korea so I'm guessing this was his plan all along to convince me to grow up and be a bigger child like the day he lectured me for not having proper table manners which lasted an hour and Louise was rude enough to fall asleep while he was lecturing. She was even snoring! For god's sake! what the hell is wrong with this family?! and Adelaide's reaction to this is so normal even after seeing this expensive room!
"It's already late lady Louise, you should head inside to choose your clothes before taking a bath."
"Yes, Adelaide."
I chose a white nightgown without a problem since all of them were white, to begin with, and then Adelaide bathed me in the other room inside of mine. There was literally another door inside of my room and two other ones, but we didn't go in since I know what's in there. Louise's memories tell me exactly where everything is and what to expect, but everything she's done is evil. Even for a 5-year-old! I'm 28 and I know exactly what I should and shouldn't do, this girl was extremely intelligent but she didn't put her brain to good use, So I will put her brain to good use!
Woah the scrubs they use for toddlers here are so soft and nice, they're so smooth it feels as if I could fall asleep in here ah~
The water is so hot and warm too, Adelaide you should've washed me in warm water instead of hot water I'm about to fall asleep.
"All done Louise," Adelaide said, I opened my eyes and she seemed to already be holding a towel, she carried me out and dried my entire body with a few other maids. Then she placed the towel on a maid's arms and grabbed the nightgown I had chosen, then she started to place it over my head and into my slim and small body.
"There. All done Louise."
"Thank you, Adelaide. Now please help me to my bed."
"Of Course Lady Louise." She carried me all the way to my bed and I fell fast asleep, Adelaide closed the doors and walked away whispering, Good Night, Lady Louise, and I fell fast asleep.