Although, I am not happy to learn that Joseph has a crush on Sherwin but later on I realized it was a blessing in disguise from my end because of the situation I was caught on between him & Sherwin. I became a bridge for them and because of this I became closer with Sherwin and can protect myself from being discovered by the latter that I have a crush on him as well. However, there is a saying "that do not play with fire unless you are prepared to get burned."
Joseph has always something for Sherwin. Chocolates, cards, candies, sweets – everything! And he always asked me to give it to him in different ways as long as Sherwin would not able to find out who was his secret admirer. We sometimes come very early in the morning and make sure that no one is in the classroom yet so that I can able to leave it on his desk. Sometimes, after class I have to chase Sherwin and carefully follow him behind and sneak in the gift to his bag pack. Sometimes, during our break, I will approach Sherwin in the canteen and give him the gift and I ran quickly as I can so that he wouldn't get the chance to ask me who gave it to him.
Frankly, it is not very easy to do these because there were times I am being misunderstood and our classmates are making assumptions that it was actually me who has a crush on Sherwin. And every time I caught in that situation I am making up names. I have fellow classmates who are also like Joseph who are open about their sexuality and they kind of enjoy it when I do that.
Sherwin is a smart person and one day he stopped asking me question anymore and I can tell he already knew who was it and we can just at look each other's eye and already have an understanding about it. Of course, I never admitted to him who was his admirer.
One morning, my brother & I woke up too early. We woke up not because of the alarm clock but because we heard our parents are arguing in the next room. I don't like my parents fighting, it ruin my day a lot. Ariel and I decided to go to school very early. When we came to the class, almost every body is already inside the classroom. There was something in my desk, cupcakes! I counted them and there were four cupcakes. Because I was very hungry for skipping breakfast that morning, without second thought I opened them all and gave Ariel the other two cupcakes and we ate them. While chewing the two cupcakes all at once, Joseph whisper to me and said, "Huh, that cupcakes are for Sherwin!" Then I look at Joseph with fierce and said, "I don't care!" Joseph was shocked with my response and said, "Aww, I think I'm going back to my reading."
I am thirsty so I turn my head around and see whom I can steal a drink from. I need someone very close to me. Instantly, I saw a bottle of drink from Sherwin's desk. Like a master, I demanded Sherwin's seatmate to pass me the bottle and like a slave he handed me the drink without asking Sherwin's permission. I drank the water and consume everything inside. I put back the cover of the bottle and quickly BURP very loud. The whole class laughs and I was so embarrassed of what I just did.
We are in our midmorning break and we are having our meals. I am quietly eating my food and trying to enjoy it as much as I can because I am still very much affected about what happen this morning in the house. In the other table, one of Sherwin's friends shouted my name and said, "Hey, Toni do you have something for Sherwin today?" and they all laughed except for Sherwin because he felt a little bit embarrassed of what his friend just did. Joseph and I stared at each other and I decided to answer back and said, "Actually, I did but it is already in my stomach!"