Aurora's P.O.V.
One Year Ago
High school can be heaven or hell!
It all depends on how you experience it. It can be sweet but also sour, fun but also painful.
Well for me it's all been the later.
It's been hell, sour and painful for me. With the hurtful words, glares, whispers, ridicule and body shaming from all my classmates and colleagues at school.
The funny thing is, even those who knows nothing about me not even the real me. They all assume they know me just because of the rumors going around in school.
So yes, high school has been terrible.
It doesn't really make it any better when even my own parents don't have time for me. My mom was a supermodel before she married my dad. They met in France when he travelled for a business trip for the expansion of "Fleur Du Mal Clothing and Lingere". Their love story is kinda simple I mean they were already in a romantic country and they both grew madly in love with eachother. Dad said when he met my mom she was the daughter of his business associate and they were freaking rich since they pratically belonged to French royalty. The name "Loraine" is quite a dignified and a classy family name, so technically my mom was unattainable to him back then, since he had just started out in business.
The Loraine family opposed their relationship. But they still eloped and got married in secret, so they were accepted anyway. My dad's company was named "La Rosa Del Diavolo" Which means the devil's rose. Quiet sexy and sassy right, it an Italian word and was the brand name of my father's company. But after his marriage with my mom and they had me it was changed to "Fleur Du Mal" which means flower of evil.
It's just describes the relationship my dad has with mom. She was the forbidden fruit, he wanted and desired. And wanting something that's unattainable can be dangerous and scary. That was what he normally told me. A lot of things went down before he was able to tie the knots with my mom.
Well they had me, the result of their union. But it seems I wasn't what they were expecting.
I know, it's crazy how a child could say that about their parents but it's true. It's definitely hard to live up to the expectations of others isn't it?
Am constantly faced with a look of disappointment and sighs from my own mother who musters "Poor thing, wasn't even lucky enough to have a nip of my genes".
It's sad right?
But it takes a lot of getting used to.
My mother doesn't look a day old, she still looks as young and radiant as ever. Even my dad is drop dead handsome for a man his age.
I can't help myself.
I'm just born this way!
Infact am just made this way.
Fat and ugly.
I'm so much of an embarrassment to my family that no matter how rich they are. Even if they rank 2nd place as the most richest business tycoons in the world. I'll forever be a hidden secret, an abomination.
I attend Preston high school an expensive academy. My mom says she wants to offer me the best education but why do I feel she just did that to get me out of the city and into this town from prying eyes.
Maybe she doesn't want everyone to know "Dominique Carmen Loraine Ferrero has a fatso as a daughter".
I don't mind living without them tho, it's not like they were ever around." Sighing out loud in fustration and berating myself for thinking out negatively. I stare out the window thinking about what other bombshell Nicolai and his goons are going to drop on me .
Yet again!
To me he's a scumbag and a very ugly vengeful scum.
Hell who am I kidding?
Nicolai is the hottest guy in school but he's a terrible big bully who finds joy and laughter in making my life miserable in this school.
It's like he's out to get me.
Like my name has been incribed on his wall of revenge.
You know most of the times I can't help but curse myself for being in this situation. I mean no one would even want to be in my shoes at all . Am just a weak , fat , spineless ,and ugly girl and am reminded of that well known fact every single day because that's what I am and I'll probably not be anything more .
I mean no one cares about me except my "Nana". She's taken care of me, infact she's been the longest closest employee I've had. Normally once a month my mom would change my "Nana" but now it seems that cycle dosen't fit in her schedule anymore. They barely even come see me in the very penthouse they abandoned me. Although most of the times I just stare at my "Nana" and think she just tolerates me just to get paid.
In my family am considered the crazy one, the girl no one believes , being the only child of my parents made things ten times worse.
Since I pratically failed them all.
I'm the girl who is always silent but screams in her sleep, and can't bare to look at her own reflection, without feeling disgusted or self conscious.
Mom and dad are always too busy to stay home with me, they tell me it's the business trips that makes them travel a lot but I just think they enjoy each other's company. Without me being a part of it I mean am sure travelling around the world expanding the clothing brand is much more important and better than staying at home with me with the look of regret on their faces as they curse the day I was born.
Mom says am not what she expected, that I'm not the perfect daughter she had always wanted , my own mom sees me as a disappointment could you believe that?
Because I do....
I get the vibe that she doesn't like the sight of me, there was a time in my life when I hated them. I then realized that I had bad parents.
I mean no parent would hate their child just because they don't turn out fine. Parents are meant to love both the flaws and imperfections of their children.
But mine are different....
I wonder how they can be so madly in love with eachother but they can't seem to share that same love with me .
They are parents that are too ashamed to show their child to the world.
I can't even use my father's surname in school because my parents think it's best to stay low profile. So I use her surname "Loraine" it does stands out but am sure no one would think a loser like me would have supermodel Carmen as her mother.
Pathetic right?
As a newborn I never knew the big expectations they had planned for me but unfortunately as always , I was a big failure to them ,and the company.
My parents told me when I was just a baby I looked chubby and a bit on the fat side and she found it real cute at first but when i got older she was disappointed.
It seems the older I got, the more I added more weight, And she became distraught That's to show you the expectation my mom had for me, For a fashion icon and a model with a perfect face with a body of a 17 year old. Well I think she expected more from me, she has the same dreams for me and has already planned out the things I would do. She wanted me to become a model and international one at that, and also become the face of our company and for the new make-up line. But i kinda ruined the whole perfect plan with being a fatso I ended up becoming what she feared most.
So technically my parents are ashamed of me there's no denying that, am not allowed to attend social gathering with them or even step out in public with them .
My story is kind like a Cinderella story but with just one tiny bit problem.
Am not a pretty maiden waiting for her prince!
Am the ugly pumpkin.
My parents bought a penthouse in town for me so they kinda should I use the term "abandoned" me there to live with my nanny , who does her best to make me feel loved , Happy and protected. Sometimes I catch a look of pity in her eyes and it makes me super uncomfortable. I sometimes feel like a burden to everybody
It's sick being my parents dirty little secret and I hate it, I hate them for making me turn out like this .
Broken...
OMG is that our chubby little whale thinking."A familiar deep baritone voice drawled sarcastically.
Oh crap!
Grunting I spun in my seat spotting Nicolai and his terribly handsome face pulled in a deep smirk with his hair looking damp from the rain after playing football.
Leave me alone Nicolai"I say a bit fustrated and not ready for yet another fight.
Isn't a girl allowed to think?" l said huffing and angry that I'd been snapped out of my thoughts of misery .
Last time I checked you aren't a girl and I think the whole school would agree on that. He said with a funny grin on his face.
Uh hu.
I know that look, that damn look. He's cooking something sinister.
Nicolai or should I say Nic always push my button he's like a demon from hell, he's always in my way spoiling even the little fun I could ever have.
Like telling the whole school that i have STD which i know i don't have since I've never even had sex before, he has practically ruined prom, and the school homecoming dance for me that's if anybody was going to ask me as their partner anyway.
Guys avoid me thinking they will contact some dreadful disease from me.
Me!
Like am the least person to have STD. I mean it's not possible, but everyone seems to believe that. Both the transfer student that knows nothing about me and the new ones all assume the rumors are true.
Nicolai grabs my wrist and pushed me out of my seat to the wall and that's when i noticed his best friend Jace and both of his gang members and probably the whole class were staring at us and listening in on our conversations, i feel so embarrassed and humiliated.
You're just a big fat bull".He said then he pushed me to the other side of the class I could hear them laughing at me, pointing their finger at me an snickering.
Why do you hate me so much , i don't really know why you're doing this , I mean we are adult you are about 16 the same age can't we like talk instead of you guys causing a scene."I say tiredly.
Whoa guys she wants to talk, okay I heard you'll be travelling to France and staying there for a year right"Nicolai asked I felt shivers rolling down my spine.
How did he find out?I thought panickly.
Yes"I mustterd timidly feeling nervous and terrified.
Why am I such a weakling. With a boldness i didn't know i had, I stared right at him and said:
I will be staying with my aunt in France and since today is the last day of me coming to school today am going to enjoy every last minute of it , and there is nothing you can do about it."I say in a rather weak voice.
Oh really, you think so. He says smirking.
I know so ,just then my subconscious mind starts to panic and ask questions. What the heck is wrong with you? don't you know this is Nicolai you are talking to gosh you're in a big
Trouble."I thought praying they aren't cooking yet another horrible prank.
I knew it was stupid for me to stand up for myself but I want to be brave just one time, it sickening and horrifying with the way am being treated.
I know am seen as an easy target!
Ahhhh the fatso has taken some brave pills , am scared "he faked a girly shriek mimicking my voice.
Okay i admire your bravery, but let's see how you handle this."He whistles saying ."Guys is what we prepared ready.
Yes, his best friend Jace says.
Ready!
He screams.
Fire!
All of a sudden their were eggs thrown at my direction, each hit hurts as the shells cracks on my skin. I tried to use my hand to block some of the eggs but it's no good trying to block the eggs being thrown at me by using my arms, no teacher in sight to even stop them .
Why don't we use our punching bag one last time before she goes ehh"Jace hooted.
Everyone in class then took some eggs to throw at me, I could feel the painful tears threaten to spill out of my eyes ,then I heard him saying.
we don't need you in this school you dirty slut!
"Sobbing and crying my eyes out!"
I ran into the school hallway only to be stopped by the school bell, meaning class was over and this hallway will be filled with students.
Rushing into the school's pool for the swim team.
Hey fatso wanna go for a swim or would you prefer a shower because it looks like you've been in an egg Apocalypse. He says with a sinister look etched in his face snapping me out of my thought .
Yah you think," I say sarcastically, preparing myself for what they've got next.
He stepped out of the hallway heading towards the pool jingling some keys in between his hands.
Wait that not just any key , that's my car key."how did he get that.
How did you get that ,i ask foolishly knowing he can get anything he wants, God knows how I hate him.
A little birdie told me you drove to school today and since it's your last day in school why don't we have some fun" everyone cheered, seems everyone is having fun except me . I mean am the object of their sleazy joy.
What kind of games are you playing Nicolai?
What's wrong? I just want you to have some fun"He says feigning an innocent look. It then dawned on me that I did run into the school's swimming pool Its one of the best attributes of our school for the swim team.
Oops my hand slipped.
Just then I heard a splash, you didn't just do that"I screamed as I watched him drop my car keys.
Um last I checked I think I just did.
Looking around i see the whole school watching the scene"some smirking , laughing while other giving pitiful looks but wouldn't dare to defend me, well thankfully I know too well they won't help me .
Why don't you take a dip into the pool.
In your dreams, I stepped past him matching forward looking into the pool if i can just find the key"I muster as i bent down and dipped my hand into the pool looking for the key. I then grab it.
Laughing out in victory.
Um that was too easy, I mean way too easy and Nic never does easy, just then i find my self being pushed inside the pool . I should have knew he wanted to push me in. Resurfacing from the water thankful am a bit of a swimmer I swam to the other end i stared up looking directly into those pure deep blue eye that makes me drowsy .
I snapped out of it , and stepped out of the pool feeling cold and embarrassed hearing all the school laugh at me i began to run but was stopped by Nic.
Don't go yet the fun isn't over just then he yelled; "Who wants some popcorn and Carmel? Everyone then shouted.
yes!
We've got to give the people what they want don't we Jace?
Okay then ,he pressed a button and popcorn was poured all over me like a shower, was he this sick enough to dilligently plan all this wasting food and snacks just because he wants an epic prank.
Then he said;
why don't you top that up with some Carmel
It gushed upon from my head to my toes I could feel my (toes) curling from embarrassment .
I ran away with the crowd dividing like a river of laughter as i approached .
I saw my car in the driveway opened it and drive out of the parking lot from the school I could still see Nicolai's face staring at me with the look of contempt through the side mirror of my car .
Speeding away and parking inside the garage of the building. I run past the lobby not caring the kind of looks I got from people and punched the floor number to my penthouse. I then ran inside the living section , i saw my nanny waiting with her arms outstreched and open for a hug .
I crumbled in her arms and cried for what felt like hours, too weak to stand .
I pulled my jacket then rushed into her arms for her motherly hug.
Seems like my Aurora had a hard time in school today, why don't you go freshen up and i will prepare hot milk for you. She says
Sneezing, I then whisper"Thanks nanny what will i do without you.
I rush into my bedroom and took a step towards the bathroom but then felt dizzy willing my legs to move I sat at the edge of my bed but blacked out feeling exhausted