Kimia's POV 🖤.
I moved to sit on the bed and Damien came into the room.
He stood in front of me and then he kneeled.
" Mia please!, Talk to me."
" Damien what are you doing?, Get up." I sighed.
" I'm not. Not until you forgive me."
I got up from the bed and walked towards the door but he pulled me back.
" Mia, I'm sorry." He said holding my hand but I snatched it back.
" Sorry is not gonna cut it."
" I know. But I don't know what else to say!, I don't know what to do! Please just talk to me!"
" Kimia I don't regret what I did. But I will apologize because I know how much getting Mario meant to you."
" Dami-"
" I was scared okay! Mia I was scared. Ever since that night at the hotel you haven't been yourself. The guilt was weighing you down. If I had let you go with them to catch Mario you would have done something you'll regret for your life. You might think that getting revenge might help but trust me, it won't."
" How do you know that?"
" I understand how it feels to have someone die instead of you. My first partner, the first partner I ever had took a bullet for me. I felt so guilty. The pain cut me so deep. So I went and I got revenge for my partner. I killed his killer. That was the first person I ever killed. I killed him hoping that the pain would leave. But it never left!, Mia the pain never left."
I could see the tears shimmering in his eyes threatening to spill.
" I didn't have to kill him to get my revenge-"
" Kimia that's not how it is with these kind of criminals! Mario is a cold-hearted criminal and you know that! He would have never surrendered without a fight. With criminals like him it's either kill or be killed."
" I know how it works Mia!, I've seen it happen way too many times. The guilt never leaves! Instead it continues to haunt you. Every single day! The guilt isn't easy. It changes people. I've seen it happen to several agents, I've seen it happen to my parents. It has happened to me. And I didn't want you to experience that. You have so many scars already, you've been through so much pain. I didn't want you to add that to your list."
" But why did you bring me on this mission if you knew all this was going to happen? Why did you ask me to come in the first place?" I challenged.
" Because I was selfish. I wanted you! I didn't know you but I wanted to know you. I wanted you Kimia. I was selfish. For once in my life I wanted it to be about me. I had been selfless for so long I wanted to know what it felt like to be selfish! And I'm sorry for that. You didn't deserve that.
I'm sorry for dragging you into this mess! I'm sorry for making you lie! I'm sorry for making you feel so guilty! I'm sorry so for making you go through all this pain! I'm sorry Kimia Aubrey Reynolds. And I hope you can forgive me."
He finally stood up and moved towards the door when I pulled him back and smashed my lips on his.
He was surprised by my sudden mood swing. A few minutes earlier I was closed off and now I'm kissing him like my life depended on it. I grabbed a fistful of his tee and pulled him closer. I didn't care if I ripped it I just wanted him closer.
He seemed to catch the drift and pulled me closer. We were so close that it was hard to tell where one body ended and another began.
" I'm sorry for not letting you explain." I said quietly as we pulled back out of breath.
He rested his forehead on mine and caressed my cheek.
" I'm sorry for not telling you. Can you forgive me?"
" Only if you forgive me." I said and he smiled.
" Why didn't you tell me all this before?"
" I just never knew when. I didn't know the right time to say it. I didn't know what to say."
" You and I have both been through a lot." I said and he ' hmmed'.
" I'm scared of losing you." He said all of a sudden.
" Crazy right?, I know I've only known for two months now and I'm scared of losing you."
Me too Damien.
Me too.
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" Still want to go out?" He asked and I shrugged.
" If you want too."
" Come on let's go."
He drove us to a park with one hand while holding my hand with the other.
It's dangerous kids, don't try this.
Ever!
Unless you're a trained Agent.
Then I'm guessing it's safe.
I mean I didn't die.
But you might , so don't try it.
He got out of the car and made his way over to my side and he opened the door.
" M'lady." He said with a small bow.
" Why thank you kind sir!" I exclaimed with a curtsy.
" Shall we?" He asked sticking out his bent arm. I hooked my arm with his and smiled.
" We shall."
The park was nice and sunny. And I was feeling happier than I had felt in days.
" Give me a moment." Damien said then he ran over to an icecream cart.
He came back a while later with two ice-cream cones.
" Blueberry cheesecake with chocolate sprinkles for the lady and plain vanilla icecream for me."
" What kind of idiot prefers plain vanilla icecream over the other thousand kinds of flavours out there?!"
" This idiot."
" I honestly don't know why I'm still with you."
" Because I'm awesome?"
" Wrong!, Try again.
" Because of my charming personality?"
" Wrong!, Try again."
" Because of my good looks?"
" Hmm, part of it but keep going." I said and he playfully glared at me.
" Because I buy you icecream?"
" Ding! Ding! Ding! And we have a winner."
" It's heart breaking to know that you only keep me around because I buy you icecream."
" To be honest, icecream has always been there for me."
" How comforting." He said sarcastically.
We walked around the park until I finally got tired.
" Dam can we sit down for a bit?, My legs are already tired."
He crouched down in front of me and I raised an eyebrow.
" Hop on." He said.
" No way!" I protested.
" Mia come on, hop on."
" What if I fall?"
" You won't, I'll catch you even if you do. I promise."
I got onto his back and he picked me up. I put my chin on his head took in a deep breath.
Ahhh,
Apples.
" Did you just sniff my hair?"
" It's not my fault they smell like apples."
We continued our walk but I finally got down when I felt strong enough to walk again.
" Come on let me take a picture."
" Sure!, How do I look?" I asked adjusting my clothes.
" Perfect. Now say Damien is amazing!"
" Kimia is awesome!" I said instead and he rolled his eyes as he took the picture.
" Let me see!"
He gave me the phone to look at the picture. I saw something or rather someone in the background and zoomed in.
" Who is this?" He asked.
I looked closer at it and gasped.
" He's here."
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Cliff hanger 😉.
Kimia finally realised that Damien also had his scars😔.
I hope you liked the chapter.
Stay safe 😷.
Bye!