I've seen this before, my mind kept repeating. I closed my eyes and blurry things started to appear again...
'You see, things don't work like that. You have to tell about your relationship with him to your mom.' A woman said to me.
Things appeared too blurry that I wasn't able to see anyone's face.
'Sarah!' A man screamed from behind me.
And I suddenly found myself standing somewhere else. I turned around and that man said,
'This isn't something you can let go, just marry him. For God's sake, he loves you a lot.' He was smiling.
All voices which I heard in those fractions of seconds when I closed my eyes, sounded very familiar. I started to think more and more about this beach on which I was sitting, that smile I saw, and those words I heard from Mr. Niall. I started to think about why all these looked so familiar. But my condition didn't support me and I ended up screaming due to my headache.
I again covered my head from either side with my hands and just screamed,
'Ahh!!'
Mr. Niall suddenly got worried he held me by shoulders and started asking,
'What happened? you're okay? Sarah!!'
I could hear him but it felt like he was screaming from far away. I was not able to react cause this was the worse headache I ever had. With some deep breathing, I said in a small whisper,
'I've seen this somewhere.' And suddenly I felt warm hands around me. Mr. Niall had hugged me.
He caressed my hairs and said,
'Stop thinking. Calm down and-' He stuttered.
'Just...Let's leave this place.'
I nodded lightly while digging my head gradually in his chest. I couldn't feel a thing due to fear, pain, and frustration.
He hugged for the next some seconds and then suddenly stood up. He then held my one hand and said,
'You need to rest, come I'll take you home.' I nodded while a tear rolled down my eye.
I knew there was something that I had forgotten two years ago after my accident cause I don't even remember how I ended up in the hospital. The last thing I remembered from those days was just the moment when mom came to meet me. All the memories of before that were like erased from my mind.
I also knew that the doctor, Lisa, and everyone is hiding something from. Something about my past but why? Since the day I first saw Mr. Niall I was shocked.
He looked just like someone who appeared often in my dreams but blurred out. The outlines of his height, his hair, those green eyes everything about him looked just so familiar. I always wondered why he looked so like someone who appeared in my dream.
My dream of roaming around somewhere holding hands with a man whose face I don't remember, my dream of looking at him and smiling while he smiled at me. Before I always used to wonder why I had those dreams. But now I wonder if Mr. Niall is that man who appears in my dream. Now I wonder if Mr. Niall is someone whom I have forgotten after that accident.
But, on the other hand, Mr. Niall never showed me any kind of feelings which could tell me if he knew me earlier it not. It was quite puzzling. And it was making me go crazy.
While walking towards the car I looked at him from time to time with some questions in my mind. He looked extremely worried and so he was walking faster than ever. I wasn't able to match is speed said,
'Can you slow down a bit Mr. Niall. I don't have much energy to walk that fast.'
He suddenly looked at me and said with expressions which I was not able to explain,
'Can you even walk up to the car?'
I nodded slightly and smiled slightly.
He then slowed down the speed a bit and we finally after walking ten minutes the beach ended and we reached the car.
We sat in the car and silence took over the atmosphere...
****
I was worried, did I made a mistake by taking Sarah to the beach? Did I act up foolishly just defeat Jeremy? Many things took over my mind while I drive Sarah to her house. As I turned around towards her I saw her sleeping.
I didn't wake her up cause I knew I tired her up a lot. I shouldn't have taken her out all of sudden when she was just discharged from the hospital. I looked at her, she looked too calm while sleeping but still, deep furrows marked her forehead.
I rested myself on the seat and looked at her. It was like after decades I was able to see her face. Her long eyelashes her dark brown silky hair which rested on her shoulders. Looked just as they used to look back. The black scarf of hers which was left with me the day of the accident looked beautiful just on her. I could never think about anyone else wearing it. It was the only scarf made in this world and only busy for Sarah.
Back then, she was the only reason I used to smile. The only reason why used to wake up every morning. And now I guess that reason has again occurred for me to live my life further.
I was looking at her with a smile when she suddenly started to shiver, thinking that she might be feeling cold I took out my jacket to cover her up but she woke up, screaming,
'No!!!'
I got startled by her such reaction and looked at her. There were some beads of sweat on her forehead and her neck. She was panting and gradually her breathing came to a normal pace. She closed her eyes and bent her head. I looked at her while she just covered her face with her hands and said,
'Of my faded memories which part is this?...'