He apologised but his apology was not going to help us now.
Min Jun's mother fainted on the spot.
"MOM", "Honey" both father-daughter rushed to catch Mr Park.
Meanwhile, I couldn't bear the truth.
'No, you're lying. You are lying'
I don't know from where the strength came inside me. I grabbed the doctor's collar.
"You are wrong. It can't be. You are wrong. " I shouted.
"MISS" "NA-RA" Policemen and old couple rushed me.
"DOC" The nurse shouted. The doctor shook his head to not do anything.
"Let go of him. Na-Ra. It's not his fault" The old women shouted.
"How can it's not his fault? It's his fault for not saving him. His fault. Why he is a doctor if he can't save my Min Jun?" I shouted still grabbing the doctor's collar.
"I am sorry, Ma'am for your loss." The doctor still apologised again and again.
Seeing him constantly apologising me, I came back to my senses.
I unclutched his collar. My whole energy drained down, my legs could not support me.
I fell down.
"Why? Why he couldn't save him? He is a doctor. Why can't he save him?" I murdered.
"No, I can't be"
I looked at him with pleading eyes and knelt before him. "Doctor, please save him. Please, I beg you. Please, he is the only one I have. Please save him. I will do anything. I will give you all the money I have. Just please save him."
I begged him again and again, tears streaming down from my face.
"Sorry, ma'am. I can't do that. I am not a god." Doctor bends down to stop me.
"Please, I beg you. Please save him. If you can't save him. I will transfer him to another hospital. I will take him abroad. take him where he can be saved." I cried, constantly rubbing my hand together begging him.
"Stop it, Na-Ra sis. My brother is not going to come back." Min Jun's sister hugged me from behind to stop me from begging.
"No that can't be true. Mi-hee. He promised me, he will never leave me. He can't leave me here alone." I cried in her embrace.
"Please tell this doctor to give my Min-Jun back. If he can't I will take him to the place where he can come back to me....wahhh... wahhh... Please. I beg you" I cried.
"You have to accept this, Sis. My brother, he..." She stopped to control her tears.
"he...he is no more. Please accept it. Sis."
"No, it can't be...nooooo" I pushed Mi Hee.
"You're wrong....no.. you are talking nonsense. You're lying. Everyone is lying." I covered my ears.
Suddenly, the door of the operation theatre opened. A gurney pushed by a nurse, came towards me and stopped in front of me.
A person was lying there, covered with a white cloth. I stood up to give them the way.
When I looked that covered body, I felt something stopped my heart for a few minutes. My hands and legs froze. Somewhere in the corner, I knew it was him. Lying on that cold table.
Min jun's mother who has already woken up rushed together towards the gurney, start shaking her son.
"wahhh.....my son....wahhhh.....wake up son, Mom made your favourite dishes. Let's go home, okay. Mom will feed with her own hands. Please wake up son... wahh... Min Jun..ahhh" Mrs Park cried.
"No" I shouted.
"He is not Min Jun. Aunty. He is not." I said anxiously.
She ignored me. Heavily shaking him.
"Aunty.." I was about to grab her and say she is wrong. Then, white cloth on his face got uncovered by Mrs Park constant shaking.
Suddenly, my world turned to silence. His mother's crying, his father's sniffling, his sister crying, the hospital noise, everything turned quiet.
There was only me and him, lying there.
I slowly walked towards him, saw his handsome face. His fair face had turned white as a sheet. His lip had lost its colour.
The person with whom I talked 3 hours ago, was lying there unmoving. The person with whom I wanted to share my whole life, is lying here lifeless. The person to whom I want to confess and give my answer was now sleeping, never going to wake up.
I slowly traced his cold face, from his forehead till his lips. I rubbed his lips with my thumb. I so wanted him to get up and say everything is his prank and kiss me. But this was reality, the reality was in front of me.
I couldn't bear to face this cruel reality, slowly my whole body lost its sense, the silenced world vanish and turned blank.
"Sis" "Na-Ra" "Miss" I heard someone crying out for me but I didn't have the energy to face the world, to face the truth. I want to run away from here. I want to run far far away, where there is only me and him.
I fainted, went into my dream world where he is the only one there waiting for me.
When I opened my eyes, I saw I was standing on the beach.
'Why I am here? I was in the hospital and.. yes... Min JUN.. Where is he?'
I circled around searching for him. I called him, "MIN JUN" "MIN JUN"
I saw him standing in front of the ocean, looking at the sunset.
"Min Jun" I called.
He turned around and smiled at me. He reached his hand toward me. I ran towards him to hug, placed my head on his chest to hear his heartbeat.
'He is warm. Not cold.' I thought and smiled.
"Min Jun" I cried.
"yes" He replied patting my back.
"Min Jun"
"Yes"
"I thought I lost you." I cried again.
"How can that happen? I was, am and will always there for you" He rubbed my back.
I looked into his eyes.
"I know, it was just a nightmare...hehehe"
"Really, then what happened to me? Was I kidnapped?" He asked
"No, in that dream, you were dead." I cried again.
"haha.. that means I am going to live longer. Will always be there to love you. Why are you crying? Silly." He laughed.
"Yes ..yes that's right. I am silly" I laughed with him.
"But.. you know Na-Ra." His face turned serious.
"What?"
"If there will be a time like this in future, where I am not present beside you. Remember, always to live on. Okay. Live your life, makes friends, be happy. I know that even if I am not with you, you are more than capable to accomplish your dreams. So, find happiness and move on. Don't linger in the past. Okay," He asked.
"No way, there is no happiness without you. Why are you suddenly saying this?" I shook my head.
"Because it's the truth, I am no more. Na-Ra. Accept this truth. Live life, find happiness, make family, have children. Don't forget, I will always there watching you."
"No..NO...what are you saying? I don't understand. You promised me right? You can't go away from me. Where are you going? I am coming with you." I cried.
"No, Na-Ra, live, fulfil your ambitions" He smiled sadly.
"No, the f*** with ambition. The hell with it, if you aren't beside me." I shouted.
He smiled, didn't reply. Looked at me as if it was the last time.
"I am going, Na-Ra. Be happy, okay. I will wait for you, there" He said, pointing up in the sky.
"No, wait. Wait. Where are you going? Wait" He vanished in thin air.
"WAIIITTT"
I shouted.