... Cass's POV...
We've written a letter every day to Elena... and we have received two back. She seems to be responding better to Thietian through the letters and likes that I don't bring them up when I am with her. I love her so much and if it takes till the child is born or older to have her accept the both of us .... I will endure. She's worth every second.
I've been concerned over Sin though. After she read that file she's been crying a lot. We warned her that it was going to be rough to go through it though. The disgusting pig that the file is all about is a Turkish mafia boss, Emir Kaya.
Notorious for his hand in not only the drug trade with heroin, but also kidnapping, human trafficking, black mail, extortion, and murder. Worst part, no one can seem to touch him. He's been helping supply the heroin that was being used at the lab facilities to put into prescriptions.
Not only that, he would rape and mutilate woman, even young girls. The reports shows ages as young as 4.
4 years old little girls..... It's fucking disgusting what this man has done. That's why it's so important to completely eradicate this insidious thing masquerading as a human.
Sin was preparing herself to end this mans existence and I knew this was just a stage. I always worry she is going to have a mental breakdown like she did three years after John died.... My hair is standing on end just thinking about it.
Everyone was her enemy when that happened. She didn't recognize anyone or anything. She just fought like a wild beast against everyone. I have the scars to remind me too. She used a plastic fork to stab me one day when we went to the private hospital that we had to put her in. She was heavily sedated and suddenly lashed out using her fork from her lunch to wound me. It took some tough love and home videos and her personal recordings she had saved on her computer before we saw her coming back to us. Painfully.
She doesn't remember much of her time there. Just the bits where she came back and later released. They wanted to keep her on psych medications but we tossed those out the window the second we had left the grounds. Those things were just as much poison to her as lead makeup was centuries ago. I don't think she would be pushed to that extreme over this case, but the doubt and concern still way heavily at the back of my mind. Thankfully at the time, I still had mum and dad around to help me with keeping her on track since I didn't know what to do really. Neither did Thietian.
We got through it, just like we have made it through every other situation that is thrown our way and will continue to do so. If she could make it through all that, I can make it through this with Elena.
I'm almost finished with another letter to her when I get a text from Elena asking me to come over. I finish up and let her know I'm on my way. Thietian swaps places with me to snap us to Elena's and immediately lets me take back over our body.
I come out of the restroom where I've been snapping to so Elena isn't alarmed by Thietian's appearance. I see her on the couch, touching her stomach with a look of awe on her face.
She looks up at me and motions for me to join her. I go to her and she takes me hand and presses it to her stomach.
"Come on baby, your daddy is here. Move. Let him feel you for the first time." She coaxed her womb but nothing happened.
My momentary excitement quickly dissipated as I told her it was okay. I would feel it eventually.
She pulled my hand tighter into her stomach moving it down farther closer to the hem of pants. "Try here."
I'm not feeling anything and then suddenly there it is the slightest of movement against my hand. Shocked and in awe I look up at Elena as she smiles back at me.
"That's our baby." I tell her, immediately feeling stupid, of course that's our baby. Flushed I look back down at her belly where I am touching and press a little more firmly to let it know I am there and I feel it again.
I'm laughing as it responds to me. She looks at me with tears in her eyes full of joy.
"Come with me, it's better if I'm laying flat down." She gets up and leads me to the bedroom and lays down and directs my hands to the right spot.
Nestling my ear against her belly too, I listen for the movements as I feel them with my hand. I take a deep breath and realize that Elena smells so good. I smell her skin again and kiss her stomach, immediately raising goosebumps all over her and a visible shiver runs through her body.
"I love you Elena." I whisper to her watching her face and the emotions that fill it. I notice a look that I haven't seen in a while cross her face and sit up.
Desire is there.
"Cass kiss me." She whispers reaching for me and I oblige.
Taking her gently into my arms and I am kissing her with all the passion and desire one could possibly try to convey through a kiss. My hands roam down her sides back to her stomach as more shivers run through her.
She grabs my hand and moves it down and pushes it into the top of her pants.
I pull back from the kiss to look at her a little shocked. She just grabs me back down to kiss her as she moves her hips up to move against my hand.
Shit.... I think I can take a hint.
I begin to touch her moving my fingers down to press and rub her clit making her moan in satisfaction and yearning. I slide a finger into her wet folds and moan myself. It's so warm and inviting I have to take these pants off of her.
I unbutton them sliding them down to toss them to the floor trailing kisses up her legs and across her stomach back to her mouth and gently slide my hand back down to where she aches for my touch.
I'm already like a metal pipe restrained in my own jeans as I continue to pleasure her with my fingers and kiss her letting her give me this much right now is more than I could have hoped for.
Suddenly she's reaching for my jeans as well and releasing me from the cramped quarters. I let her slide them down somewhat and she clutches me in her grasp.
"Fuck." I grunt. It's been so long since she's touched me I think I might already explode.
She takes the opportunity to whisper to me.
"Cass I want you, make love to me."
You don't have to tell me twice, I pause and remove my jeans and quickly crawl up in between her legs letting my erection glide into her as I gaze into her eyes.
"I love you, Elena." I tell her as she takes a deep breath in and moans feeling me inside her.
I devour her touch, her kisses, her sounds as she lets her actions tell me she's not pushing me away anymore.
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"Wow, that was intense, mio amore. (my love) I didn't realize how much I'd been making you suffer." Elena was wrapped around me and I around her afterwards.
If I could I'd be purring like a satisfied, happy tiger that was belly up, sun bathing, right now. That's exactly how I felt with her in my arms and our intimacy restored.
I kiss her forehead, "It's worth the suffering as long as it's you that I do it for." I smile laying my head back and close my eyes perfectly content at the moment.
"Cass, let Thietian know, I appreciate the letters and him trying but he can stop. I don't want him, I want you." She says it quickly and I can tell it's been eating away at her to say something.
I wasn't expecting that at the moment.
Well there went my content mood.
I groan in frustration. "Okay Elena, he won't write anymore letters. He knows you only want me. But that's why he was writing them to you. IF we can't be separated, if we are stuck like this for life, what then? I'M not asking you to love HIM specifically but at least form some kind of acquaintance with him. Please?"
I'm begging her to please see reason because other then becoming separate again, which may or may not be even possible, I don't know what else I could do.
Sometimes I wish I had been able to keep it a secret. I'm glad Sin and John know now though.
She rolls off of me and begins to pout. I roll my eyes but wrap my arms around her pulling her close to me.
"Elena please don't be upset, if there was something I could do about it.... It would have been done already."
She starts to sniffle and then a sob breaks loose from her lips and I sigh. I pull her closer to me and just ask myself WHY?
Why me?
Why is she being so irrational?
What can I do?
"Elena, what can I do to help us get through this? Please..."
"There's nothing you can do... I just need to work through these emotions..... being pregnant doesn't help. Every thing is like a roller coaster ride, I feel dizzy even laying down." She rolls over and caresses my face.
"I do love you, Cass. I'm sorry, I can't help it sometimes. I will try though." She snuggles her self against my chest and I wrap her back up.
.................
'Thietian, what the hell are we going to do?'
'Cass, if I knew I would have said something by now!'
'Damn, no need to shout. What's got your mental panties in a bunch?'
'Nothing.'
'Come on man, we know each other better than that. Is it because of Elena not wanting to receive letters anymore?'
'Cass, leave me the fuck alone. I do not wish to squabble over it. She has made it clear time and time again that you are the only one she wants and will accept. Okay? I will not bother with this issue anymore.'
.................
Even as a mental conversation I can feel the heartbreak in him as well. That's the number one thing about us sharing a body that we wish didn't happen. We share our emotions between us.
Now I am silently shedding tears like she just rejected me again. Soon I can't mask the sob that escapes me and she looks up at me puzzled.
"Why are you crying, my love?" Elena asks me gentle cupping my face between her hands.
"Elena I need you." It's my voice but Thietian said it not me. I mentally tell him to knock it off.
Elena smiles and begins to kiss me... well kind of. Thietian is not morphing to himself but he's using my body like it was his own.
'Thietian what the fuck are you doing?!' I yell out now angry.
'I'm in love with her too, I need her too. If I never morph back into myself again, I'm okay with her loving us both and letting her think it's just you.'
'Thietian that's not right and you know it!'
'Would you rather lose her if we can't be separated?'
This makes me pause... 'No. But it's still not right.'
I get nothing in response as he begins to make love to Elena using my body.
He completely ignores me .....
DAMN IT!
I know it's not the first time we've done this. Now she knows though and doesn't want Thietian, she wants me.
'THIETIAN! ENOUGH ALREADY!'
I regain control of my body but it's still not under my control as Elena holds me down as she rides me.
Thietian comes back and takes control.
'Cass, I understand that it is not right, but, if this is a way we can make it work and not be emotionally divided on two opposite ends of the spectrum, why not?'
I watch as Thietian flips Elena onto her back carefully in one swift move and takes her hard and deeply dives into her.
'Be careful!' I yell at him.
Elena is starting to cum and god she's beautiful to look at.
Sweat glistening off her body.
Her perky tits bouncing with every thrust.
Her mouth open as she gasps in pleasure.
I take control back over as she climax's hard practically squeezing my orgasm out of me by brute force.
"Mio amore, il modo in cui fai l'amore è mozzafiato. (My love, the way you make love is breathtaking.)" Elena sighed breathless.
I could not help but feel slightly hurt. It was not me making love to her, it was Thietian.
She couldn't tell the difference? Just because our faces were the same doesn't mean we make love to her the same. I closed myself off internally the way Thietian and me used to when I was younger completely locking him out of my inner thoughts.
I had to find a way to fix this problem. I was not about to continue to deceive Elena and betray her trust that it was only me when we are together. Thietian will just have to come to terms with the fact that this was my body and she is my woman.
No matter what.
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