*WARNING R-18 MATURE ADULT CONTENT NOT SUITABLE FOR ANYONE UNDER 18*
I'm heading back to the room that Alex and I were sharing. Arguing with myself the whole way.
This was not going to be easy. Why did she not just talk to both of us about it, if we needed to end things. Instead it was all on me to hurt the both of us. This must be one of those crossroads, if I keep him then he'll be sad and lonely because I'll be trying to get John back, but if I let him go he'll find the person he's supposed to be with.
I don't feel ready to let him go yet though. I've needed this healing that he's been giving me.
Realization struck me then, I had already let it go too far when it came to my emotions. I felt possessive of him and didn't want to let him go. He was the one who helped heal me from a place I wasn't sure would heal. He has been nothing but patient and caring with me through it all.
I was not wanting to let him go, but I wouldn't really be letting him go right? Just the benefits part.
I walked into the room feeling torn and I froze walking into the room witnessing Alex standing in just a towel around his waist. Fresh from a shower still wet all over his well chiseled chest, his long hair slowly drip on to his skin. It set me on fire inside.
"Hey, hermosa." He said looking in one of the drawers for some underwear for him self. I had no thoughts I just acted. I walked determined over to him and grabbed him fiercely and began to kiss him, a hungry need being portrayed through it.
He returned the kiss grabbing around my waist to slip his hands over my ass and gripped my cheeks and picked me up. I wrapped my legs around his waist never missing a beat in our lips. I couldn't help it I needed one last time with this man. He carried me to the bed and laid me down.
Not wanting to part with him yet grab him back down to me and connect our lips back together. He must have felt the desperation in my kiss. He pulled back and blocked me with his hand.
"What happened? What did she say to you?" He's showing concern and apprehension in his eyes as he strokes my arm trying to coax the answer out of me.
"She wants you to go talk to her tomorrow morning....." I start with the easy part. I blink hard a few times trying to avoid tears forming in my eyes. I clear my throat and continue on when I see his questioning look. "She says we're to end this before the show. That it needs to end for you to be happy. I just wanted to have one last night with you like this, first."
I clutched onto him holding him close, "I'm sorry I know that it is selfish of me to do that and want it. I just don't want to lose your friendship either because I do care about you." I look up into his face and there's a little shock and hurt starting to appear.
He pulled me closer and looked me in the eyes. Emotions were rolling in his eyes like waves on the sand. He took a deep breath and caressed my cheek with his thumb.
"I don't think it's selfish at all and I may be hurt for a little while, but you can always come to me if you need me. Now you know why no one likes her when she's around. Everything she says comes to pass whether we try to avoid it or not, but even with the foresight, it always seems to be painful."
He sighed again. I see why she called her gift a half curse too. She wanted to love and be friendly and have a life too. Just no one wanted to give it to her because of her gift she couldn't control.
"I will you give you one more night, hermosa, like you intended to have with me ." He gave me a smile that hid the sadness behind his eyes and then began to turn red with a blush, "But I want you to.... Well do you trust me enough that I may do something I have wanted to do to you since the first time I saw you?"
My heart was starting to beat faster after I heard him make this request. "You know I trust you."
Alex got up and grabbed a black bag out of his bag and came back to sit by me on the bed. He pulled out a black satin eye covering and placed it on my head smiling as he covered my eyes.
I'm in the dark but as I lay there, my other senses pick up and are heightened. Alex kisses me sensually and starts to remove my clothing, kissing my skin sending ripples of chills as his warm breath hits the bare skin. He kisses my sides, his tongue tracing up to my breast to take it into his mouth. Gripping it in one hand he plays with the nipple, twisting and pinching it gently, making my breath hitch, before placing his mouth over it.
The sensation is sending out electricity all over my body. I can feel the hairs all over my body stand on end as the rippling continues making my body aware of everything.
He kisses slowly up to my exposed neck, sucking on it just enough to make me moan before muffling my sound with his lips. Our tongues danced with each others and I reached for him instinctively. He took my hands and held them gently above my head.
Putting his hot breath in my ear he whispered into my ear, "No touching yet, just enjoy what I'm giving you."
"I'll try." I'm breathless with my response and I can feel his cocky smirk through the cloth.
I smile feeling his smile and his hand comes up to caress my cheek. I place my lips on his thumb kissing it and nuzzling it with my face.
I hear his breath speed up and his lips begin their dance across my skin to pull the rest of my clothes off. Starting from my bare ankles, his lips and tongue move up my leg spreading them open for him to touch me.
I'm melting under his touch, the way he caresses my leg, kissing it as his hands caress the skin.
He's teasing me relentlessly like this, using his hands to get close making my heart beat in anticipation and then pulling back right when I think he's going to touch me where I ache.
"Alex." I chuckled frustrated but enjoying it at the same time.
"Si, hermosa?" His hand was sliding close to my nether regions but never touching.
"Are you really going to tease me all night?" inquiring with a lusty, breathless voice, I don't know how much more I could take before I couldn't keep my hands to myself.
"Patience, mi corazon, I will not tease you all night." He reassured me.
Moments later I felt him move around to lay next to me and caress my stomach making me gasp with a giggle from the ticklish touch.
"Oh Alex....Please it feels like your going to tease me all night." I groaned.
He paused and kissed on my stomach and brought that kiss to my lips kissing me deeply. The smiles still on his lips as he kissed me.
"Ever since I heard that giggle escape your lips, I have loved hearing it when I touch you. You know that?" He runs his fingertips down my side making me shiver and twitch.
My heart was pounding, body yearning, reaching out for him even with my arms still up above my head.
His lips caressed every part of my neck and making me gasp as teeth scraped skin and moan as those lips and tongue licked and sucked the area.
One hand caressed my breast pulling on nipple and then rubbing it with his palm in circles, my sensitive areas were blazing tantalizing my erogenous making them pulse even without direct contact.
He moved his mouth down to the nipple he was playing with spending his time switching between the two of them his mouth milking them while his hand rubbed the other.
The pulse throughout my body was getting hotter my gasps shorter as he trailed his tongue down my stomach peppering kisses along the way.
He clutched my thighs and kissed and licked the inner part of them, making my legs tremble. He had not touched me again in between my legs but I felt everything he was doing was making me pulse in my core.
His warm breath would run across my womanhood teasing it as his lips would caress the other thigh. I'm gasping feeling like I'm I can't take it anymore.
"Alex." I cried out and he bit down gently on the flesh of my thigh sucking it after his teeth released my flesh.
"Oh!" I cried out in surprise, "Do that again." I said feeling shy because a stronger pulse had gone through my body at that moment.
He did as I said and I moaned deeply with the pulse that shocked me to my core this time. He sped up the biting and sucking steadily, switching to the other thigh as he heard my breathing become rapid. I was filled with that warm tingling feeling that made my heart pound faster and my body get tense.
Panting and whimpering wildly, my head tossing back and forth, I felt like I was going to explode. Right when I was so overwhelmed with the pleasure on the precipice of pain, he told me to take off the mask and continued his work slowing down his administrations.
I did and his eyes locked with mine and he could see I was on the edge. He quickly moved over me and slid inside me making me explode and quake all over him. I clung to him as I shuddered and then my breath caught as he began moving inside me prolonging the exquisite and sensuous climax.
I couldn't make a sound I was so paralyzed with pleasure, all I could do was desperately cling to him till when I finally started to whimper he bent down and kissed me deeply, my whimpers vibrating against his lips.
This man is so passionate and it feels so natural the way he touches and makes love to my body.
He wiped my cheeks and I realized I had tears flowing down from the corners of my eyes. I started to feel embarrassed and he whispered into my ear still thrusting into me.
"It's okay, I've wanted to make love to you for a long time." He pulled back from my ear and looked into my eyes and kissed me softly like a sad goodbye.
I held him there and kissed him right back. Caressing his hair and staring all the while into his eyes.
When our lips parted, "To me, we were making love almost every time." I whispered to him.
His eyes gave away the emotional pause and flow in his mind. He sped up his rhythm a new incentive that added to the intensity already being shared between us one last night together for us.
"I don't want to let you go yet, Alex." I cried out as another intense orgasm was building up inside of me.
Alex not missing a beat, "I don't want you too either." It didn't take much longer before we both experienced our la petite mort. (the little death) Clinging to each other not wanting to let each other go. When we finally did and came back to the bed he was sitting up and held his arm open for me to curl up next to him.
"I know we care about each other, Maria, but we both knew from the beginning that we were not going to be able to do this forever. Maybe it's for the best that it happens now, while we are able to end this part of our friendship between us. Thank you for letting me be the one to heal your wounds I know you've suffered with for a long time." He held me close, not letting me move. I realized why after he took in a breath of air. He was crying silently and didn't want me to see his tears.
I held him tighter to me and revealed, "I didn't realize it would take more than just time to heal my wounds. I found that out earlier this evening when I realized I didn't want to give you up yet. I will never stop loving you now Alex."
His body tensed under me and he let me go and got up and went into the bathroom. When he came back out he gave me an apologetic smile and kissed my head.
"So now that we know how we feel about each other, I guess this is going to be harder than we thought." He looked down deep in thought.
"No Alex, it was going to be harder no matter what because I want you to be happy and have a family one day. I can already see a little miniature you running around smiling at the ladies with his charming good looks he got from his father. You deserve a good woman, some one who will grow old with you and I can't offer either of those things to you."
"Now, it's hard only because of we 'have to' do it. We can at least walk away with our friendship in tact like this." I struggling to be level headed. To say the right thing.
"Now, I get why no one wants to talk to her." I mutter as my resolve comes close to breaking.
Alex looks at me, "At least you're not in Lars shoes, you could be married to her."
I crack a smile and laugh knowing I shouldn't but seeing that even Alex was smiling I felt like we would be alright, being just friends again.