November 5th, 20XX
Hey buddy, I don't have many words for you anymore. I haven't been able to pick up my journal to write to you. I think this is me finally accepting what happened to you. I think this is my time to say goodbye to you. Finally, and at last. I've dwelled in guilt for so long, that I think I have to say goodbye if I ever truly wish to be ok.
I don't have a good way of doing this, so I wrote one last poem for you.
Round and Round By: Zeke Jensen:
It seems as if I can't ever get you out of my head.
It's because you've never really left my mind.
And it's driving me insane.
I want to move on but, it seems to me like I can't let you go.
Or it's just you who won' t let me leave.
You're the one restraining me.
It's not that I don't care about you.
We're just not good for each other anymore.
We haven't been for a while now.
There I said it loud and clear for you to hear me.
We can't keep doing this to each other.
All we ever do is go around and around in circles.
I need to walk in a straight path to both find peace.
As much as I hate to admit it, I need to put this to an end.
I need a fresh start so I can truly be happy, for once.
So why fight for something that keeps dragging me down?
As much of an asshole I may appear, I'm doing what is best.
I'm ending this because there is too much negativity that I don't need.
Nor do I need it in my life, not anymore.
Even I know you'd see it my way if you could.
As sad as it is I must continue on with this.
It breaks me to say this but, this will be our final goodbye.
Since I can't continue to stand going round and round in circles.
Especially with someone who doesn't bring a smile to my face anymore.
And I'm truly sorry it had to come for this.
As I promised that nothing would happen between us as I journey onto a new adventure.
I broke that promise and I'm truly am sorry for hurting you.
But, I need to let go, I can't keep going in circles anymore
Going round and round in an endless loop.
This is my final goodbye to you.
Zeke,