'Ｗｈａｔ do you want to eat? Its on me'
I asked Daisy while we're waiting in the line for our queue to order. I want to bring her to my favorite diner but, since its a popular eatery, I'm sure customers are piling up right now and I don't want to waste our time waiting for someone to assist us in our seats and getting our order.
We just agreed to grab a bite at McDonald. Yes, very typical and normal place but, it's better than nothing. She seem to like the nuggets though cause she keep on looking at it on the menu.
Daisy didn't answer my question, instead she tapped her phone and using her index finger, pointed the messaging application. I checked my phone and saw that there was one text from her.
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I think it's better this way for us to communicate. What d'u think? Oh! And btw, you don't have to pay for my food. I have money.
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She avoided looking at me and just stared on the back of the customer in front of us.
I leaned in close to her ears and whispered. 'Sound great. But, I'm still paying.' She squeaked and touched her ears while glaring at me with a blushed in her face down to her slender neck. I chuckled because of her reaction. Cute.
Daisy typed on her phone frantically and distanced herself but, I just only stepped toward her while she's busy texting.
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Don't do that again! Geez. Okay, I'll let you pay for now but, next time my turn 'kay?
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My smile widened even more when I read the words 'next time'. Did she mean to say, she wants to go out with me again? My chest burst with so much feeling just by that two simple words.
Are you asking me out on a date? You must really like hanging out with me huh cos you even insists on paying next time.
I replied, looking for any kind of reaction. Her eyebrows furrowed and lips pressed into thin line, instead of an embarrassed expression that I'm expecting of, she just gave me a confused look. Yeah, I should probably get used to it. She is too innocent. Doesn't even know what I'm implying.
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What d'u mean by 'asking you out on a date?' I just only want to repay you. Is that bad?
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I run my hand through my hair then placed both of it on her waist and pulled her closer to my chest. She gasped but didn't flinched so I continued.
'Shorty. It's not bad okay? I'm just kidding about you asking me out on a date. Of course I would be the one doing that. So, just forget about it and lets order our foods yeah?'
My hands on her waist tightened when she pouted her lower lip like a five years old kid and played the seam of my shirt. If we weren't in a crowded place right now, I'll fucking bite the bottom of her kissable lip and suck on it until it bruise.
As much as I want to tease her even more, its our queue to order so, we both stepped forward to the counter.
The cashier looked to us with a wide smile on her face then waved her hand to shorty that is standing in front of me. My hands are still on her small and curvy waist.
Daisy eagerly signed something that the cashier returned with the same energy. Do they know each other? Seems like most of her acquittance knew how to sign language. Except me. I'm thinking if they studied it so that they can communicate with Daisy or they already learned it even before they met her, either ways, I'm glad that they're nice to her and I'm so proud of her for being friendly despite her ineptness in speaking.
'What is your order sir?' The cashier asked.
'Two burger, two large fries, one spaghetti, two dozen of nuggets, two large sundaes and two mcfloat.' The girl behind the counter looked at me like I'm some kind of a weirdo trying to impersonate gluttony. If that is even a person.
'I-is that all sir?'
When I looked down at Daisy to silently asked her if she want to add something, she's already staring at me like I have done something wrong. What?
Did I ordered the wrong foods? If she doesn't like it, I can buy her whatever the hell she wants. She signed again something to the cashier.
'Sir. Daisy said she can pay for her meals since you ordered a lot for yourself. And. . . said, she'll feel bad.'
I tried to process what she just said and then a realization hit me and I felt like an idiot because of my ignorance. I will definitely need to study sign language next time.
'Sorry I didn't know she already ordered for herself. Just add on a burger, regular fries and coke.' The cashier just only nodded her head in understanding and I dig my pocket out in my jeans to get the money before handing it over to her.
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We are almost done eating most of our ordered but, I intentionally chewed my fries languidly just to spend more time with her who seems oblivious because she's too busy slurping her drink. To get her attention and start a silent conversation, I asked her something about the signed she used twice a while ago. If I am going to learn some sign language even if it's difficult, it's best if I start now.
'Shorty what is the meaning of this?' I demonstrated her the signed that I remembered wherein you linked your both index finger together like a pinky promise. She thoughtfully copied my action and I nodded my head.
Using her right index finger, Daisy write something on top of the table and since we're sitting side by side on the leather couch, I swiftly moved closer to her to see what it is. I read the word 'friends'.
'Oh I see. Why did you mentioned that word earlier?' Albeit, I already have an idea what her answer is, I still want to know it coming from her.
I braced myself for the upcoming disappointment but, then tried to think about it in a positive way.
Daisy texted me her answer and I read it carefully.
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Well Sharron asked me if you're my boyfriend which I answered her that you're not and just only want to be friend with me.
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Yeah okay I got it. This precious girl beside me couldn't even took a hint if someone is hitting on her but, I guess it also provide me a sense of relief because, I'm pretty sure if someone try to flirt with her, she will instantly turn it down casually and add the guy on her 'friend zoned' list. I just hope I'm not included on it.
'Hey, do you really think that I just only want to be friends with you?'
Okay. Let's start from zero. Maybe if I explain my true intention, she will have the time to grasp and understand it.
'What do you mean? You don't want to be my friends anymore? I th—' Before she could even finished typing her reply which I already read considering where so close to each other— our arms touching with one another. I placed my hand on her phone to stopped her and put the device on the table.
Then I engulfed her dainty hands with my own. Her eyes followed my every moved without blinking– mouth slightly open and a blushed slowly rising on her cheeks.
'What I mean is. . . I don't want to be just your friend. I want more than that and do you know what's more than just a friend?'
Daisy hesitated, looking anywhere but me then let her hands free from my captivity to typed her answer on her phone then raised it in front of my face for me to read.
'Yes. So do want to become my close friend instead? Like best friend? Megan is already my best friend but, we can still be best friend too.'
I nearly bang my head on the table after reading the text and seeing the innocent looked on her face. She is so fucking cute and precious.
Its worst than I thought though, how can you explain to someone so innocent about how relationship between opposite gender works? It's fucking hard honestly.
I released a sigh and contemplated whether I should tell her whatever the hell I meant about my words, so that she understand it or just let her thoughts and innocent mind wander to her own idea even though it's far from the actual reality.
My different persona which is the bad and good side, fought over in my head. Am I too fast? Yes. Did I give a fucking care? No. But what if Daisy doesn't want to go out with me? Should I take the risk of losing her if she don't want the idea of me advancing on her? Or just take everything in a slow pace until the right time comes?
Fuck it! I'm not gonna waste my chance. Everytime is the right time, it'll not be if I let slip away my chance and somone take my spot.
After swallowing hard and taking a deep breathe, I slowly raised my hands to cupped her face. Our eyes met and I inted to held her captive until she realize my feelings. They said the eyes is the window to our soul.
'I don't want to be just your only friend, close or whatever the hell it is. When I said I want to become more than that. What I mean is . . . I want you to go out with me, like a date or something a couple do. And I also want you to become. . . mine. Do you understand me Daisy?'
Daisy keep her eyes at me and I feel like the world became motionless, just only the two of us moving, breathing. I waited for any sign of realization that would flash in her chestnut eyes.
The only thing that I saw is sadness before she diverted her attention to my chest, her fair skin tinted with rosy pink color. Did she understand me or just refused to apprehend it? Either ways, her answered was already crystal clear.
I dropped my hands on her face and instead put it inside of my pocket. I didn't tried to further elaborate what I meant with those every words. She just silently stayed seated beside me, head looking down her lap.
I broke the awkward silence after a few minutes. 'Even if you don't want to go out with me, I still want to be friends with you okay? I'm sorry if I'm moving too fast and I will not force you into something you're not ready. So uhh. . . Let's just keep whatever you call our relationship for now okay?'
Instead of feeling unmotivated, her rejection only fueled my appetency to make her mine. I could totally wait for her for as long she become willing to go out with me. I'm not going to give up without a fight though.
Daisy's hand touched my arm and she slid down her phone on the table where my my attention was currently focused on. I get her phone and read her replied.
'I'm sorry if I make you upset. I just don't know how to respond. I had never been in a relationship before and I'm still not ready. I'll just probably mess everything up. I really want to be your best friend Bry because I enjoy your company and you are nice. So I hope you're not gonna leave me now.'
She's smiling gently when I tilted my head to her side to looked at her. That smile. It really brings a lot of thing. It makes me happy, contented, desiderate and crave for her. Damn that smile. I heaved a long sigh and turned my upper body towards her and to solely focus my attention on her only.
'I'll take it slow for you shorty. Let me prove to you that you don't have to be afraid of messing up whenever you are with me or anything to go by for that matter because, I will let you experience something you never have done before or make you feel something foreign but exciting. Honestly, a romantic relationship with someone is also new to me but. . . I'm ready to discover more of it if its with you. So just give me a chance please? Besides, who says I'm leaving you, I already dreamed my future you know and you're the star in it so. . . When that day comes and you're ready, help me and let's make it happen. . . together.'
I was only being cheesy for the last part, I don't even know what the hell I'm talking about. No doubt, she crossed my mind and even followed in my dreams but. . . it's just nothing anyway. I chuckled to myself while looking down and shaking my head but, when I looked up to her again. I stopped and just stared.
This time, Daisy imprisoned my whole attention to her and I just realized that over the day and a half time that I know her. I had already learned and discovered a bit of piece about her.
About the meaning behind all of her smile like the gentle one she wore whenever she looked at me, the smile that showed her teeth when she's too eager doing a sign language, the smile that made her eyes formed into slit that held so much fondness when she was doing something she really love but, all of it is genuine and astonishing. And I willed to discover every remaining bits and fragments but, the smile she has right now is my most favorite one because of the unspoken meaning behind it that even spoken words cannot compete. Truly, the eyes are the window to our soul.
'I'll help you make your dream come true.'
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