Day 3 in the nursing home:
'I just realized that this is not the Earth. Because they have MAGIC power! You would see magic only novels, mangas, animes or cinemas but here, there is the real magic. Or I think so. I don't know it's logic but there must be.'
I had plenty of time to be depressed over reality. So I started to get over. Since I can't change things and this is reality, what I must do is firstly learn and analyze my situation.
'I think I'm in a room of childcare center. There are 20 children in my room and 4 caretaker. Tree of them wear white clothes while one of them wears green clothes. From things so far, I can say , I am an orphan. But I remember I saw a woman before. I didn't see her anywhere. Was she my mother? Did we run away from somewhere or someone? Then where is she? Did she abandon me?... Let's not think deeply about it.
Then, what am I? I don't think I'm a livestock because they take great care to look after me. From caretaker's figure, I can say I resemble a human and I am a girl, I think. I don't sense anything that can be movable down there. So I should be a girl. How do I look like? I don't know. There is not any mirror here. I didn't see myself but my arms is white and chubby. Other children are all good looking and fairy skin babies but they have different hair color and eyes color. Only similarities are that we are babies that are smaller than 12 months, we wear similar clothes and we each have a wristband on our left hand. I don't have teeth so I must be smaller than 7 months, that If we consider the human life cycle in the Earth. This is not Earth so the life cycle could be different.'
'Caretakers are intelligent and they do their jobs consciously. I don't know language. I couldn't pick up any word from their language yet.I can't utter anything yet but just cooing. Maybe I didn't develop enough. I have everything that a normal baby should have but I can't walk or crawl yet.'
'My daily life is like every baby's life. I wake up. I make noise. I pee on my pants. I try to move my body parts on every opportunity. If I must say, only difference is the feeding time. They feed us on a special room and always some other people watch us while we are drinking our food. And I don't know why but food always taste different. Sometimes, it's too sweet, other times it's bland, sometimes it's bitter, other times it's delicious. And this is the only place that I can see the magic because only people that are in that room use magic.'
'Magic is being magic. All I saw that a man used yellow magic to create some vegetables and another man shined in green lights and some images appeared on the air. That's all I know so far. Even so it was a mind-blowing experiences. I stayed stuck there and spaced out a long time. Those shiny colorful lights, those beautiful images, those mysterious people. I am awestruck. I am hooked. My imagination run wild and I was on cloud some time. What is my magic like? Will I fly, beam, create,...? I am eager to learn this.'
' But for now I need to what I can do.
And these are:
1. Strengthening my muscles.(so I can walk)
2. Pick up the language.(so I can gather intelligence)
3. Engaging with carers, make temp love me.( So I can have a little statue in the group)
That's all for now. Too much goal would make me distracted. 3 number is the best for now. '
' Aaaaaa, being a baby gives me mental damage because these changing/cleaning time are too much. It's embarrassing. I don't need this kind of memories. Normal babies don't remember these because their consciousness and memory didn't develop yet but I will remember probably :$. Yavv, I am sleepy again. Being a baby is hard job. I need to sleep frequently…'