After 8 months:
I'm screw up. This system is against my goal. Moment I become friends with my caretakers, they switch my place and a new group caretakers comes. This sucks.
I succeeded in my two goals but couldn't accomplished the last one because the working system of nursing home works to prevents such a situations. Still, I think I made a few big steps in my new life.
Firstly, I CAN walk. Hahaha finally, I can walk. It's such a exhilarating feeling that being able to move without restraints or restrictions. Additionally I said goodbye to embarrassing situations thanks to walking. Now there will be less obstacles on my path.
Since I can walk, I changed my first goal to explore my new home. And this is I did it. I even searched the unreachable place and corners and gardens. To walk is such a bendy ability. You realize this when you can't do it or lose the ability. Oh my good legs, please keep good work always. Whatever, my previous room was about 10 square meter but now I live smaller room that is about 8 square meter and we can go out to the garden to play now. We have an enormous garden that includes a park, a sand pool, a flower field and an orchard, a small pond, a rocky hill and a grove. You can do anything here. We can meet the older children in there but we aren't allowed to go their place. I tried to be friends with them, still they are immature so they are happy go lucky people. I don't expect much from them anyway. And the total number of children also decreased from 20 to 15 in our room. I would say it's a worrisome matter on my part because I don't know the reason of disappearance. Children are being children and don't notice any difference in environment but I feel I can't go on like them. I noticed this after the third child disappeared in my room. From then, I took extra notice of our routine life and any changes that could happens and I realized that they disappeared after they went to the feeding room with one caretaker. It freaked me out. I tried to ask caretakers about them but they said that 'they went to complete their life mission and they are happy.' It's a confusing answer and since they didn't expect me understand, they didn't elaborate. This incident caused me to focus my attention on the feeding room and gave me nightmares. It was different from normal and there were magic people in that room. Is it an experimental room? Am I like a lab rat? I didn't know and couldn't seek answer because I would draw unwanted attention that could make me a dead person or another dissappered child. So I began to develop fear against that room unconsciously. It's a dark and unknown path that I don't want to delve deep in now.
Secondly, I learnt the language of them. Hooray, to power of communication. I learnt daily life language but didn't try to talk much for now because I don't want attention. The reason for this is the tales and teaching of the caretakers. They tell and teach us how we are born to serve the divinities, their messengers and the royalties. We should be happy to do it. Life is an exam that direct us towards purpose of our life. I think I'm in a religious group or a cult.They emphasize the loyalty and importance of obeying the orders the children. Being a 1 year-old child, I won't question much now but I will bug them with why questions see how deep are their understandings of their beliefs.
When I asked about the food to them they just answered that that's your special meal so don't miss it. Additionally it's creepy when someone watch you while you're dining. They always give vague answers. It's a dead end. But I learnt that we belong to a branch of Divine Panthera Order. As for what kind of order, they didn't give details even when I bug them with questions. They just said it is our family and all.
Annnd, I learnt that everyone has magic power but we don't have ability to use it freely because we are weak now. So we aren't allowed to try to use magic because we can't control our powers. It seems they will teach about more after we are 6 years old.
But I picked some clues from things. Wristband of children has different images and additionally I saw the name tags on the collar of people. They were different color, different writings and different images. The name tag of the chef guy is yellow color and there are a wheat and a sunshine picture on it while the name tag of shiny guy is green color and there are three books pictures in a raw, on it. I have also the same picture on my wristband. So we must be the same type, right? Hehehe, I can imagine myself shiny and sparkling. Whatever, the name tag of the writing guy is also green color but there are teeth and hands pictures on it. The name tags of caretakers were all orange color and they had also books pictures on them but I didn't see anyone of them using magic so I will set the shiny guy to my example model.
That's all for now. Next, will be my new goals:
1. Exercise and become stronger. (just in case I might need to)
2. Learn writing and try to find some books. Learn about the order and it's members, hierarchy and system of the order and daily life of other people.
3. Make a name of myself in caretakers but it shouldn't stand out much. Learn tolerance level of caretakers.
Ok. That's sum up of my current situation. I hope I will be in a good group and my delusions and nightmares won't come out true. Time to work and accomplish my goals. Shhhh, being a child is very hard job.