Jennifer of the 1940's Entry #7
Today... Jennifer told me something that bothers me. I don't know if it's just a trap to fool me or if it's what she really feels. She told me that she didn't want to be a supernatural anymore. She wants to be a normal being, the reason why she's in a school, living like a normal student. She wants to experience a life that's not being chased by exorcists, like me. She even asked me if I know a way to turn her back to a normal being... But... I can't just let her go like this... It's against what should be done. I'm aware that someday, I'll have to make a choice.
I learned something from her. She has a part time job. Her boss/land lady also praised her for being hard working and diligent. It's not that it's actually relevant to her being a supernatural... just want to write everything about her.
Our classmates are starting to tease us. Annoying. They are amazed about how much Jennifer knew about supernaturals and our classmates started teasing us. They said that we should work together in looking for supernaturals. They even made an issue about how close we've been. I... I just don't want my to family know about this... Too annoying.
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After that conversation with my father, I became too busy because of our exams and clearances. I wasn't able to visit Jennifer for a whole week that's why I'm quite nervous. Is she still alive? Is she doing well? I don't know.
Since today is the last day of our exam, I was finally able to visit her. But... I was devastated when I saw her state.
"J-Jennifer?" I asked at her, looking at her frail figure.
She didn't move. Not even a flinch. No response from her.
I quickly went inside the barrier and walked to her. I gently tapped her shoulder, no response.
"Hey... I'm here..." I whispered and gently nudged her shoulder once again... but sadly... she remained still and quiet.
Am I too late? D-did I let her die alone? Tears started to form in my eyes as I ask that question to myself.
Annoyingly, after minutes of sobbing and constant apologizing... I heard a soft giggle.
I immediately stopped as if time froze. I slowly looked at her and just observe her and in an instant, another giggle was heard.
My sobbing expression quickly turned into glaze. This dummy.
I harshly poked her head which made her laugh.
She slowly turned around and laughed loudly.
"I hate you." I whispered.
"What a cry baby!" then she sat up as she continued laughing, "are you worried that I'm already dead?" I turned my head away, trying to avoid her serious gaze.
"Don't worry," then she giggled, "I made sure that I can see you one last time before I die." I didn't respond.
"Anyway, what happened? It took so long to visit me..." I slowly turned at her, she seemed weaker... almost fragile.
"Finals exam..." I simply replied. After that, a minute of silence passed. She just stared at me and I just stared at her.
What are you thinking about? I asked myself as I stared at her.
"Hey... is there a possibility that Derek can visit me before I die?" she asked.
"Do you want to know the reason why he left?" she just tilted her head and stared at me.
"Never mind." I whispered then she lied down on her bed.
"Are you disappointed that I'm not yet dead?"
"What? No!"
"You might be..." she whispered, "just like everyone else."
"But... I'm not."
"Even if you're rewarded with something?"
"I don't care about the reward..." then I stared at her, looking at her eyes, "I'm just scared that I let you die alone..." she stared at me at burst out a loud laugh. Then she slowly sat in her bed whilst laughing.
"Don't worry! I do not believe in such thing." she replied in between her laughs, "No one dies alone, I believe that when a person is about to die, it's either his conscience or regrets will be with him until his last breath."
"Then... what's yours?"
"Well... I don't feel bad for the things that I have done in the past.... So, mine is regret."
"Is it related to befriending Maximus?"
"No..." then she shook her head "... it's just... I wasn't able to fulfill my own heart's desire... and that's my only regret... which is quite ironic cause that's what I used to do..."
I sadly looked at her... unsure of how I can comfort her...
"How about you?" she asked.
"Hmm... I think both... if that's possible..." she chuckled at my response.
"But... why?"
"Knowing what my ancestors have done... my conscience will surely forever hunt me... I also have a lot of regrets... and I wish that I can still change it, but I can't... well, not anymore." I sighed as tons of thoughts started to flood my mind.
"Sucks for the both of us, I guess..." she mumbled, "... but it's not your fault though. Their decisions aren't yours. It's not like your opinion was heard back then."
"Then I wish that you'll think that way too."
"Maybe... Anyway... Please take care of my scythe... I'm hoping that either you or Derek will take it."
"T-the scythe?" I asked, then she nodded.
"Why? You don't like it?"
"It's not like that... I just thought that you didn't know that it will be rewarded to your last companion."
"Of course I'll know it, it's my weapon after all... It's just that, I'll be very annoyed if it is given to someone who's not deserving..."
After that, a moment of silence enveloped us.
"Hey... wanna join me after all of this ends?" I asked her then she confusedly looked at me.
"Join you?"
"Yeah... you know... join me live a normal life once everything is over... once we're finally free from the chains that binds us... another chance to start over... for us?"
She seemed dumbfounded by what I said.
"I want to know more about you, I want to learn more about you..." I continued.
"Sure... that's a good idea," she replied, "pinky promise?" I chuckled as I looked at her waiting for me to intertwine my pinky finger with her.
"Pinky promise."
"Then, I'll look forward to that promise of yours." I nodded at her reply, "when everything is over, I'll show and tell who I am."