You think coming out is hard? Well you are right!Â
Right now am sitting down on my least favorite couch and my mum, dad, and sisters are right across from me.
' Alright Seon you can do this… just breath… in-out-in-out… phew… oh my god am actually about to do this? Am actually about to do this?! '
" alright… mum, dad, sisters I have something to tell you… " I started with that. I have practiced on how and where I should do this but all that practice didn't even enter my mind after those words.
" what is baby-bo? " mum says
" Go on " dad says
" Hey Seon, whatever it's you know that we will always love you no matter what right? " my older sister by three years Leah says and my younger sister Kris by a year nods.
" Yeah I know that " I whisper back. I don't know why I whisper, maybe my voice is finally leaving me when I need it the most? " ok so am BI. "Â
After saying that my eyes shut themselves and my body rolled in itself like it's preparing for a blow to come but none of that blow came only silence. One second, two seconds, three seconds… twenty seconds. I slowly opened my eyes.
" Oh dear " mum says crying then gets up from her seat and comes to me and gives me the biggest-bone-crushing hug I can ever imagine. My sisters and dad also join in afterwards.Â
After the hugging moment I wipe my eyes and look up at them, my family.
" Thank you " I say, still crying but smiling too.