I'm still waiting for you
My beloved, lost kin
I was once your favorite
Tainted by misery to leave
Pain dripping through us
A sieve of time leaking
It hurts, oh it hurts
But I have learned to
Eventually, live with it
You pieced yourself together
And I'm waiting for the last stitches
To garner our paths side by side
Once again, to our forgotten comradie
I have risen to build an empire
In your desolate absence
And I have caught wind that
You too have risen above the mire
What need have I an entire kingdom
If I cannot meet you but in memory?
So long as I shall breathe
I vow to reign evermore as Queen
My subjects will spread across the lands
Reaching even to the corners
You bide your time amongst
By this decree, you will catch word
Of whispers in the dark
That boast of a faint familiarity
Nagging at your subconsciousness
Refusing to let you forget me entirely
I am willing to wait centuries if needed
Pride is of no consequence
Scars are more than alright
A warriors' welcome awaits you
For the moment when you return
The day you lost yours, was the day I lost two
My world crashed and burned yet again
So soon after I stood strong for my people
The news broke me but no one can claim that visage
You alone, were allowed entrance
Because you above all others deserved that right
I will not touch what doesn't belong to me
But I will share anything that helps another
The burden of a lost soul or the burdens
Of the remaining ones left behind
Even the skewed allotment of attachment
To what's 'better off forgotten'
What claim could I make to my throne
If I couldn't even support my loyal subjects?
You mirrored what I wouldn't say for their sakes
And now I'm waiting for your reflection to face mine
I'm leaving my mark on this world in hopes
That you will stumble across it one day
I still don't want any comfort, I'm doing ok
No one should worry, because my life has a purpose
All I wanted then, and still seek out now
Is someone who would simply understand
And you, my kin, did that more than anybody else around
I know you have kin of your own to defend
And the possibility of me ever returning
To be a part of that are slim to none
You chose to shut me out, and I wouldn't change that for the world
Painful reminders are best left to the past
But I won't accept defeat that easily
I continue to grow and cultivate my followers
So that one day your gaze will have no choice
But to see the me of here and now
Something along those lines at least
Our minds may hold the sadness of the past
Recognizing the bits of each other we long to let go of
The broken pieces we still remember letting loose
I could be persistent and eventually win you back
We were close once, but when we were weakest
We abandoned each other and all communication
Though that would solve but little
Some people need to completely start over
When their entire worlds shatter as ours did
I gave you my last send off because I understood
As long as you remain healthy, doing better
I allowed myself to utter that goodbye
Kin is just as important from one to the next
Our kingdoms deserve our full attention
Anything more than tribute will become a hindrance
For us... For you... I know how fragile you still were
I would never put myself above your happiness
If the past searches you out, it will cause nothing but pain
As long as you can smile and laugh
These thoughts haven't gone to waste
I would never sleep again if I ruined that chance
I just cuddle my inner strength and hold on to my dream
I will see you again, on your turf
You will have finally sighted my mark
Just know that I will not chase you, my kin
Waiting for you to face me is enough for now
Losing someone this special hurts
So I don't plan to do that twice
It may be from afar
Or in close range that you appear
But one day we will be able to
Meet each other's eyes and smile for real
Turning to walk away without any regrets