I wake up one layer at a time. And I know it's not normal, but it's how you come to when put into a trance. This has happened a few times before to me before I knew how things worked here. But this dizziness is new, the room has never spun before and I've never been this thirsty. My thoart feeling like it's on fire and I can't put it out. I'm so scared. What's happening to me? What happened to me?
"Hmmm your awake now. That's good now we ate going to have a nice long chat." The voice is cold and without emotion to it. I can't tell if it's Voughn or Vance but whatever or whoever it is, it's not good for me.
"Water please. " I get out in a raspy voice.
"Not yet. First your going to tell us what we want to know." Now the voice is coming from behind me and it makes me jump. It's still cold and uncaring.
"What do you want to know?" I ask.
"How did you shatter the bond with your bonded husbands?" That voice is now in front of me but I can't see who's speaking and the room is still spinning.
" I don't know. It just happened." I answer honestly because I don't know how it happened but I paid a heavy price for it.
"That's not good enough. Answer the question. " again the voice is coming from behind me. I can't keep up with it.
Now the room starts to spin even faster and the voice is coming from all sides now. Asking the same thing over and over again. While I'm screaming to them to make it stop just please stop. I'm shaking and sweating while the voice is coming closer and closer to me I feel like I'm being attacked. I have no where to go no one to help me I try to stand there and take it but the more I do the more aggressive it becomes.
This has to stop please someone anyone I can't take anymore please help me. As these words pop into my head I see a light in the distance from me and there's a hand reaching out to me. Safety, protection, home and family all those words come to me and the feeling with them all I have to do is reach out and ask them for help. Then this will all stop, I'll be safe and protected in a loving home with my husband's starting a family with them. As I'm about to reach out a small voice in my head whispers,
"Don't do it. It's a trap you can't trust them. They have tried to kill you. Stop don't do it." This voice is soft and sweet like I used to be before them. As I listened to it the cold voice attacks me again this time more aggressively. It's just not a mental push but a physical one too. I'm being brought to my knees with it. My stomach is tied up in knots and I feel sick. What the fuck is this?
I lift up my head to look at the light that beckons me and a feeling like peace starts to settle inside me but again that small soft sweet voice is there saying,
"Their the ones doing this to you. Them in the light, they want you to go to them but their also the ones hurting you. They can't be trusted. Please listen to me don't trust them."
I can't decide what to believe or you to turn to so in the end I crawl to a dark corner and curl up in a small ball placing my hands over my ears while rocking myself for comfort. I don't have anyone to turn to and no one but me...
I feel myself slipping into unconsciousness and I welcome it with a warm embrace.
So so dizzy. Why is the world spinning? Is my thought as I slowly come to. I blink to get the room in focus and it's just the white blur of a hospital room.
"Where am I?" I ask in a raspy voice. It's dosen't sound like me.
"Your in a hospital miss in London. Do you know your name?" The voice asks me. I can't get anything into focus.
"Yes, my name is Lexi Stevens. My father is the American ambassador to England." I say.
"Good, good. We'll inform your father that your here. Just rest now. Your safe."
"Wait. Why am I so dizzy? How long have I've been here?" I ask in a panic. My last memory was of leaving Cathdale through the portal and now I wake up here in a hospital.
" Your dizzy, you say. Well we will have to give you more blood you lost a lot of it. You've been here for 2 weeks on a coma. But you've been missing for almost a year." The doctor tells me and with that I'm sucked under the vortex again.
The next time I resurface is to hear my father say,
"I don't care what you have to do but leave that little slut here. She can make it on her own or die for all I care. She leaves for a year just to come back pregnant. Stupid bitch."
My hand goes to my stomach and I vow I'll love you no matter what well get through this just me and you.
"It's ok Ambassador Stevens, we don't need you or your money thanks for stopping by. You can leave now." My voice is cold and without emotion in it.
My father looks at me with discuss and without another word he leaves me and my unborn child there. That took all my energy and I fall back into unconsciousness again...
The next time I'm waking is with a sharp pain in my stomach. I clutch it and scream for help. My door to the hospital room is thrown open as a nurse comes running in. She see me and hits an alarm next to the bed. All I know is this pain.
I can't lose her, I can't. I've been doing all they say to. I just came here for a check up and my doctor wanted to do some test so he admitted me over night now this. Why?
I'm not crying I'm just holding my unborn daughter to me willing them to stop this and willing her not to leave me here.
"Just relax." I hear as a mask is placed over my nose and mouth and I go under again.
Thia time when I wake up I'm in ICU with a bag of blood being given to me through an IV. I know something is wrong by the way everyone is looking at me. I reach down to my stomach to make sure Shaw is there and ...nothing. As I look up the doctor is there looking at me with pity saying,
"I'm so sorry Lexi, I did everything I could but she died 3 minutes after she was born."
My daughter died I couldn't hold her or comfort her because they put me under to save her. I just turn my head to the side and close my eyes. I don't cry because I to broken to cry. I just want to die.
I go under again and this time I will myself never to wake up again.
When my eyes open again I'm so disappointed but I don't show it. I'm in the mental health ward now in group therapy. They want me to relive everything for them so I can recover from my ordeal. Ha like a person can recover from this. But again I don't say anything I just give them what the want to hear. The I'm fine, I'm moving on it was all for the best. I want out of here I can't stand it anymore.
I look down at my arms and see the light scar on both wrist. If I hadn't been in the hospital when I tried to kill myself I would have been with Shaw by now. Sighing I close my eyes and again I'm gone....
Before the next scene opens up I hear the voice again,
"It's a trap. Don't fall for it please mommy you'll forget me."
And that's when it slams home. SHAW! She's the voice and those Mother Fuckers are taking her from me! Never!
I push through the magic to surface from this trap. I will never give her up never. And they can't have her, she was mine.
"You sorry Son of Bitches are fucking happy now!" I scream at them as I pull myself out of this haze and into the real world where there's pain and nothing else.
As I open my eyes I focus on both of them. They looked shocked and horrified. Is that guilt I see well I don't give a fuck.
"How dare you!? You have no right to do this!" I'm screaming at them.
They don't move but I see someone else move and before I can move out of the way a needle slides into my vein and I'm going under again with Julian saying
"I'm so sorry sweetheart I had no idea but I can't have you this upset you need to rest now."
"No!" Is all I can get out before the world goes black again.....
I'm really starting to hate this....