After the show I get changed and leave out the back door alone without saying bye to anyone. I need to be alone after that. As I'm walking down the empty streets I look up to see Big Ben keeping time and notice it 11:30 pm. Wow time does fly when your having fun. I smile at that thought but the moon catches my eyes and I feel my smile fade to nothing. It's a full moon but not just any full moon a blood moon. Oh shit. I think and I feel myself start to shake. No wonder I have been caught up in the past all day, the fucking portal is opened. Ugh. Since I've been to Cithdale aka Wonderland I'm more in tuned to it. And it does affect me. Not many people who have been there ever come back. I'm one of the few. It's because your body changes on a DNA level and you need the energy of Wonderland to maintain your life force.
I know a bunch of bull but it's actually not. I get the energy I need from the audience and that seems to maintain my life force but on times where nature moves I feel a pull to Cithdale and every time that happens it's harder and harder for me not to jump down the hole.
I sigh again and continue to walk down the streets. I let my mind wonder where it may for awhile. I'm just tired of keeping it under control and the effort is starting to give me a headache.
As I'm caught up in the past I feel a signal tear come down my cheek. God how I wish I never met them. As I bring up my hand to wipe my tear away an accent catches my attention. One I haven't heard in 5 years. The accent is like upper class British style with a melody that's like old Irish. It's a nice accent but it sends shivers down my spine and not in a good way.
I move my head a little to the side a see I'm by St. James park. Oh Fuck. There's a passage way here. Before I start to really panic I take a deep breath and continue walking like I don't have a care in the world. I almost make it pass the park when I hear.
" Well isn't this my lucky day."
Oh what god did I piss off. I swear I didn't mean to. But I just continue to walk. That last about a half of second before I feel a heavy hand wrap around my arm and pull me into the park. The trees block the view of passersby if there was any. Then I feel the tree slam against my back. And as the wind gets knock out of me I gulp for air but I manage to look up into the empty eyes of Zack St. Thomas. I'm going to die. This I know because this man will kill me and enjoy every minute of it. Nothing like getting him court marshaled and in prison for trying to rape you to make a man hate you.
Yup fun times.
But I will not let this SOB know he scares me. Screw that! So with that thought I smile and say,
" it's been a long time Zack. Too bad it wasn't long enough for me."
I can see it in his eyes when he gets mad. His eyes aren't cold but hot and deadly. He would have been a drop dead gorgeous man but his attitude and his habits of sexual abuse just makes him look like a troll from Harry Potter.
His laughter is rich and full and sends spikes of fear to my heart. Oh this isn't good.
"I see you still have your since of humor my love." Zach says as he takes one of his hands to put a piece of my hair behind my ear.
I'm frozen. Honestly I don't know what to do or think or say. I can feel my mind shutting down and the fight or flight response is starting to take over. Still keeping eye contact I start to shake. And I know if I can feel it then he can too. As we are looking at each other his smile gets bigger and shift's oh so slightly to creepy.
" Mm. Now what do you have to be nervous about my love. I have missed you so much."
He slowly takes my hand and places it on his hard dick. I gulp and snatch my hand back as if I was burned. Zach gives me a wink and starts to laugh again.
" God I've missed that fire. All the others don't fight me which gets boring after awhile. But that's not why I'm here." With this my shaking increase and so does my fear.
" Why are you hear Zach?" I ask. Because I know that's what he wants and if I can give him a little of what he wants I can get the information I need and hopefully live long enough to out think him and watch as he slowly dies in my world. Well that's the plan let's see if I can see it through.
" My my look who's being a good girl now. I wonder why. Only if you where being this good girl a couple of years ago I wouldn't have been kicked out of the red army and you would have been mine. I would have spoiled you not sent you back in disgrace." He pauses and then goes on
" You would have enjoyed it. Everything I would have done to you. You would have begged me to fuck you. Now we will never know. All because you wouldn't open your uptight little legs to me and spread them wide so I could have been the one fucking you. "
I'm so scared now. I had been a 17 year old virgin and wasn't ready for sex especially with a man 10 years my senior. I had been frightened and over welmed and Zach took no as yes and stop as playing hard to get by the time someone heard my screams and came he had ripped my dress off me and slapped me around quite a bit. And he still has himself convinced that I wanted it. How disgusting can one be.
" Zach, we can't change the past and I sure has hell don't want to. So now are you going to tell me why your here."
I make my voice sound unaffected and causal but on the inside I'm scared shitless.
" So impatient my love. I guess it won't hurt anything to tell you. You see your my ticket back into the red army and into my officer's position as the 9 of hearts. And before you ask. I made a deal with the Queen of Hearts that if I kill you I can get my rightful place back. You see my love your husband or should I say husband's want you gone they have moved on and want to make it official but you know the law's of Cithdale. One or all of you must die to be free and since there's two of them and one of you guess who drew the short straw. " he said all of this with a smile and a mantic look in his eyes.
I feel like I've been punched and betrayed all in one go. How could they? I trusted them and damn it still loved them even if they kicked me out of Cithdale and left me to a half life without them. I gave up everything for them and now they send someone to kill me. But you know what, I won't make it easy for him. I decided right there that I was going to fight. So with anger and yes fear going through my body I bring my knee up and knee Zach in his balls as hard as I can. I feel his hold loosen and watch as he crumbles to his knees in front of me. I don't stick around, I push myself off the tree and start to run. But I made a mistake in my running instead of going to the streets I run straight into the park where there's nobody around.
From behind me I hear Zach roar
" Bitch. Wait until I get ahold of you I'm going to make you suffer."
That just spurs me on even more and I increase my speed. I don't know how long I've been running for but it's not that long until I trip on a tree root that's sticking up out of the ground and I fall face first into the ground.
I hear Zach laughing a split second before I feel his hand in my hair. He tighten his grip and pulls me up by my hair. I'm breathing heavily as he turns me around to face him.
" I'm going to enjoy this very much princess. But I imagine you won't. "
That's all the warning I get before I feel this first slap as the back of his hand makes contact with the side of my face.
After the first couple of blows my mind kinda checks out. I know at some point I end up falling to the ground again where I feel him kick me over and over again. But Zach gets bored with that and grabs my hair again and hauls me up. I know my lip is split and I can feel one of my eyes swelling shut and the way it hurts to draw in a breath I can guess one of my ribs are broken. The pain is all over and it's overwhelming me. Its getting hard to stay awake but I try.
" mmm you have gotten stronger over the years your still awake. How nice for me. I'm not going to take it easy on you anymore love. You will die tonight by my hands. Are you ready for more? I know I am."
We both know I can't answer and Zach doesn't want one he just wants to torture me some more. Again after his little speech he continues but this time it's not slaps and kicks it's all out no holding back.
At some point I pass out. But I'm aroused from it when I feel intense pain on my scalp and I feel my body being dragged forward. I have a brief thought that he's going to throw me off of something but then a few minutes later I feel the engery and the pull of magic. Oh god he's going to throw me down the rabbit hole.
" We're here my love. This is how you die and this is how I prove that I killed you. Your going back but only in piece. "
And with that he pulls me up to my feet. I take a moment and then I open one eye and smile at him.
" That's where your wrong Zach. I'm going back but just not in piece." I hear Big Ben start to chime midnight perfect by the 12th stoke I'll slide into Cithdale and he'll be stuck here to die.
I reach out my hand and grab his interlocking rings and before he has time to react I fall backwards into the rabbit hole.
I feel my body weightless as I let the darkness take me.
My last thought before I pass out is, God help me I'm going back to Wonderland.