I'm now back stage waiting for my que. I have a habbit of pacing before I go on it helps me with the stage fright. Yes I have stage fright and a fear of public speaking. One of my earliest teachers seen what an invert I was and steered me towards drama to help. Well it help with me making friends but it didn't take away everything still to this day I'm grateful that Mr. Shi took the time to notice me. But tonight it's just a little bit more. The pacing isn't helping and none of my peep talks are. I'm all alone back here waiting to go out and preform.
I look down at my costume and give a little sigh. When it was time to work out the costume for the character's I went again for a big fuck you. My costume is a white 19th century militery officer's. But I modified it. Instead of the long pants I add a doll like skirt that's really short. I have on thigh high white and gold stockings that you can see the garder belt that holds them up and on my right thigh I have a red belt that holds a short dagger in it. With ankle high boots of white and red that add 6 inches to my height. And on the top is a tightly fitted coat of white with red and gold trim with a belt that shows off my tiny waist and on the left side I have a sword hanging there. I don't have a hat I just go for my hair being piled on top with curls coming down all over the place. It's a sexy messy updo. And to top it all off is the makeup very dramatic with gold and red to highlight it. All in all it one of my favorite costumes I've come up with. But again I just stole this from the real Queen of Hearts.
I feel the memories coming back and I shake my head to dispel them. As I reach up I feel the chain that's around my neck and sigh. But before I have time for anything else I hear the lines coming from the stage.
" Are you sure I have to go to the red court?" Alice asks in a simpering and sweet voice. The actor that plays her is older and still thinks talking like a little girl is sexy. I roll my eyes and wait for it. I'm getting excited I can feel the character taking over and this time I don't fight it I give myself freely to her and wait. I hear Troy, who plays the mad hatter answer her,
" Why yes my sweet Alice you do. But remember to watch your manors or else." I wait for the answer. Now I'm so impatient to get on the stage. I can feel it inside of me the excitement and the adrenaline spike. It's better than any high out there but just as addicting.
And then the last question
" Or else what Hatter?" Alice says and I smile silently and raise my voice which is gentle as a light breeze and say
" Off with her head!"
I wait for a moment for everyone to look where that came from and instead of going out on stage I take the side exit and end up at the bar which I take a sit and no one notices yet.
ALICE: " Hatter what was that? What did you say?"
HATTER: " That wasn't me my Alice."
ALICE: " Then who was it?"
Me: " Why Alice it was I the Queen of Hearts. I got tired of waiting for you so I came to properly greet you and Welcome you to Wonderland. But I say it is bad manors for you not to come to me yourself. I now wonder about your up bring."
I say my lines and then turn around on my stool with my legs crossed and wait for the guest to realize I'm behind them. It takes them a couple of minutes but the I hear the gasps. And the look behind you at the bar and with that the spot light leaves the stage and hits on me. I slowly stand up and look around with my most distasteful look and speak to the audience.
ME: " I guess no one has been taught good manners now a day's. What a pity. Oh well it looks like I'll have more heads to collect for my mot."
And with that the audience interaction starts with the show and I get so caught up in it that I stop thinking and just act.