Obey less; resist more....
These words started banging inside me, what am I doing? This turned me off completely. I got up, pushed him back and asked him to leave. "You whore, you will be despirate again and then, I'll not let you have what you want. You Remember that you asshole." He said that with a dirty smile on his face and went out.
I went home and I just couldn't hold myself together with this vagina thing. I opened my phone and typed, XXX ....And then placed my left on my breasts, that were rock hard and slowly slipped my fingers inside my panties. Rubbing, the clitoris, my labias vigourasly, this twitching and hip thrusting made me have my orgasm. On MY OWN.
Next, I researched a lot and finally ordered myself a dildo, but didn't used it. Don't know why? Maybe it would hurt, it requires COURAGE; but especially not saving for my first someone, that's pitiful.
I wanted to meet her and like always she wasn't around. After, almost one week, I got to meet mom. She was someone I didn't knew. When I needed her she's never around.
Difference being this time she wasn't radiant.
Lying on bed with a death face, wrapped in tubes and all sorts of beep beep sound in that room. All of anger faded away and I went and sat beside her, holding her hands; they were lighter than feather. Guess this exactly what love makes you do. I infact in the middle of those beep beep, I heard her voice.
"I never wanted myself to be at this stage, I once had this vision, when at the verge of my death, I will be satisfied with what I've achieved. But, here I am just lying with a unaccomplished life I've had. I've been a bad mother, I know that. But I never wanted to be like that, time and situations made me do that. I always wanted to die an accomplished and no regret death. But here I am. "
Her voice cracked in between, she pointed towards the shelve. I went and opened and found a diary, I took it to her. "This is me; real me. I've being a bad mother to you but this diary will be a good friend of yours. At any point of your life, when you'll find yourself clouded by various thoughts, this will clear you up. I was, no one; you are just like me, strong minded and all the bitch inside you. But, what I've learned is that ....". She spitted out blood on her bed sheets. " Miss, you may have to step out". The nurse said. I along with that diary went to the library. The diary was old designed, it was, one side coloured and other, just black. I didn't bothered opening it. I FEAR TRUTH; but CURIOSITY made ME.
As I expected, Obey Less; Resist More, was written on the first page. Next,.......