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Blake's POV
She was lying I just knew it. I knew she felt something for me but the fact that she kept denying it was making me furious.
I had to keep reminding myself that she was lying.
But I just couldn't take it anymore, all I wanted to do was to be with her and I couldn't understand why it's so hard.
Getting girls has always been easy for me, until now. I should have known that this wasn't going to be easy. Nothing with Kylie has been easy. She even told me when I met her that she didn't believe in love, I was just hoping that maybe I changed her mind.
I knew she cared about me, and maybe if she stopped lighting it she would realize that she might actually love me.
I never wanted something more in my life.
My heart was breaking every time she denied it.
I was just hoping that after denying it a few times she would realize how much she loves me and then just be with me.
I screamed something hurtful at Samantha, and I could see her flinch at the harshness of my words. I regretted it for a second, but then the anger consumed me once again and I stormed off, leaving Samantha there alone.
I didn't even think about how dangerous it was to leave her there.
I just got on my bike and just drove in the other direction away from home, needing to get away and to just think.
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Samantha's POV
"So I'm not going to ask you any questions, but I just want you to know if you need to talk im here to listen." Trent said as he drove.
I appreciated him picking me up, and I was really thankful that he wasn't pounding me With questions.
The Whole way home I just replayed the scene with Blake over and over in my head.
I was broken from my thoughts, when the car pulled to a stop in front of my house.
"Thanks again Trent, I really owe you." I said.
"No problem and I'll think of some way for you to repay me" He said with a smirk.
As I got out of the car and walked up to the front door I waved bye to Trent, and he pulled away from the curb driving off.
I really wanted to glance over next door but I just couldn't, it would cause me too much pain.
I got inside and Kiefer was sitting on the couch watching television.
"Hey Sam, are you alright?" Kiefer asked.
I thought about lying and just going upstairs and crying myself to sleep, but I couldn't. I just didn't want to hold it in anymore, I felt as if I held it in any longer id explode.
"No..." I finally said as tears poured out of my eyes.
I walked over to Kiefer and sat with him on the couch. He just held me as I cried into his chest, and rubbed my back comfdrtingly.
He didn't ask me any questions, he was just there for me and that's what I needed.
I woke up the next morning feeling empty, cold, and alone.
Outside it was grey and cold; storm clouds were filling the sky. I could tell it was going to rain. The weather was as miserable as I felt.
I held no emotion, I was just emotionally drained.
I couldn't think about Adrian, or what happened the day before.
I threw on Kiefer's grey hoodie, a pair of skinny jeans and my converse. I had my iPod in the pocket of the hoodie.
I put the hood up over my head, my earphones in my ears, and blasted the music, intending on blocking out the world.
Kiefer sent me questioning looks the whole way to school, I just ignored him.
When I reached-my locker Aya and Adam were there waiting to hear detail by detail everything that happened yesterday. I was in no mood to tell that story, so I just shook my head, got my books out of my locker and continued to my first class. They got the point and didn't push me to talk.
I took my hood off but kept my earphones in, ignoring every word the teacher said. I wasn't even listening to the song that was playing; I just needed something loud enough to keep me from thinking.
Blake didn't come to school today I wasn't shocked, I wasn't expecting him too.
3 days passed. Each day I would put my earphones in and avoid the world, and each day Blake's seat was empty.
I could tell Kiefer, Aya, and Adam were getting worried. I could also tell that the rumors were spreading about me and Blake, but I ignored them.
On the fourth day I was planning to continue blocking out the world as I got into Kiefer's car. .
When I noticed we were going in another direction from the school, I looked at Kiefer questioningly.
"What are you doing? Schools that way." I said as I took the earphones out of my ears.
"I know that. But were not going to school, were picking up Aya and Adam and were gonna have fun." Kiefer said.
"What? No! Kiefer come on take me to school!" I shouted.
"Listen Sam, something's been up with you the past few days and I haven't bothered you about it but im sick and tired of you moping around and acting like this. I know it has something to do with Frost, and it's killing me that he is the one responsible for this. Come on, think of it as a celebration for me not killing him." Kiefer said.
I knew he was right. I haven't talked to him or anyone else about what happened, they just assumed it was about Blake, and they were right. I also knew how angry Kiefer was, and I had to give him credit for not forcing me to talk and for not killing Blake. Maybe if I did this and started to act like a normal person they would just leave me alone, even if I had to fake a few smiles. So as much as I didn't want to do this, I knew I had to.
"Okay Kiefer, I guess missing school one day won't kill me." I said with a sigh.
Kiefer's face immediately lightened up with a smile.
"Operation cheer up Samantha is in effect!" Aya screamed as she sat in the back seat with Adam.
I glanced over at Kiefer who was looking in the mirror smiling at Aya who didn't even notice.
I knew there was something there between them, and i was going to find out what.
I nudged Kiefer's arm with my elbow, to tell him I saw him staring.
He smiled at me sheepishly and went back to facing the road; I could see thee blush on his cheeks fading.
"So where are we going?" I asked.
"It's a surprise!" Kiefer, Aya, and Adam screamed in unison.
"Oh great, cause you know how much I love surprises." I replied sarcasticany
Kiefer just chuckled, because he actually knew how much I hated surprises.
The last time he tried to surprise me, he almost ended up with a black eye.
After an hour drive we pulled to a stop.
I looked out the window to see we stopped at a carnival.
"A carnival? Really?" I asked trying to hide my smile.
"Surprise one." Adam said as we all got out of the car
The truth was I actually loved carnivals, I thought they brought out the children in all of us. I haven't been to a carnival in so long, and I was glad they took me here
I stood outside the entrance to the carnival just admiring all of the lights on the rides, and the laughs of the children inside.
"We have to-" I began to say before Kiefer cut me off
"Go on the ferris wheel, and the merry go round, you can't go to a carnival and not go on them." Kiefer said imitating my voice.
"Oh shut up!" I said pouting.
"Come on let's go!" I said grabbing Kiefer's hand, Adam and Aya following behind.
We paid the guy at the entrance, and all got neon yellow wrist bands.
I dragged them 3 all over the place. We went on the ferris wheel, and merry-go-round. Then we went and ate cotton candy, funnel cake, and corndogs.
We went to all the booths with the games and tried to win prizes. Kiefer even won me a giant blue stuffed animal dog, by throwing a ball and knocking over all the bottles on the first try.
After a while I forgot all about Blake and what happened. Carnivals did that to me, it took my mind off everything.
"Come on Sam, surprise number 2" Kiefer said dragging me to the exit.
"Aww, but I don't wanna leave." I said in a baby voice, pouting at him.
"You're going to love the next surprise." He said.
"Alright." I said following him out to the car.
In the car on the way to the next surprise, Kiefer blasted the radio.
Call me maybe by Carly Rae Iepsen came on and we all started to sing, loudly and off pitch.
Hey I just met you
And this is crazy
But here's my number
So call me maybe
It's hard to look right at you baby
But here's my number so call me maybe
We all looked over to Adam who was dancing in the back seat along to the song, and all started to laugh hysterically.
All I could think about was how good it actually felt to laugh, and have fun.
"Were here." Kiefer said as we pulled up to a little shop in the middle of nowhere.
"Grandma Sues Sweet Sweets" I read on the sign in front of the shop.
As soon as I stepped inside the aroma
of chocolate surrounded me. I made my way down the glass encasing staring
at the many different treats in the window.
"How may I help you?" Asked a little old lady behind the counter.
"I'll take everything" I said without thinking.
The lady behind the counter and everyone behind me chuckled.
"Excuse my friend, she's chocolate crazy. We will take 3 of the sampler boxes" Kiefer said.
I ignored Kiefer and went around looking at the store.
When I went to the register I had sour gummy bears, a huge jaw breaking, and a big chocolate kiss.
Kiefer looked at me like I was insane. "What?" I said innocently.
As I was about to get my wallet, Kiefer shook his head.
"It's on me Sam." Kiefer said as he played the lady at the counter.
"Thanks Kiefer." I said with a smile as I grabbed the bag of candy.
"Come again." The lady said.
"Don't worry I will." I said with a laugh, and followed Kiefer, Aya, and Adam outside.
"Last Surprise!" Adam shouted as we entered the car.
"There's another one" I tried to say with candy stuffed in my mouth, which made it come out like "Tereshothbubanun."
Kiefer glanced at me and laughed.
"That attractive, and yes there another one." He said.
The last surprise was a drive in movie. I knew we must have been far away from home to be at a drive in movie.
I always told Kiefer that I wanted to go to a drive in movie like you see in all the movies and shows. I was amazed at how you turned to a certain channel on the radio and you heard the movie just like that.
Adam and Aya laughed at me because I was so amused by everything.
"Hey! Don't laugh at me im from the city there is no drive in movies there." I said.
We ended up watching Ted, and ended up crying in laughter.
On the drive home I leaned my head against the window and drifted off to sleep.
When I woke up I was being carried, I slowly opened my eyes to see that Kiefer was carrying me to my room.
"Thank you." I said in a whisper. Kiefer looked down at me with a smile. "No prob Sam."
"No, thank you for everything. Today was amazing, I had so much fun." I said.
"Im glad you had fun. I was so happy to see you finally smiling." He said as he kicked the door open to my room and laid me down.
"Night Kiefer" I said as he put the covers over me, and lightly kissed my forehead.
"Night Sam." He responded and walked out of my room.
I closed my eyes and was immediately pulled into a dream.
I was sitting beside my father at his car. It was just like I remembered it, before the accident.
My dreams were always filled with my dad covered with blood and the car crashed in a tree. But tonight I was back with him, where everything was perfect and there was no evidence of accident anywhere.
"Honey, we need to talk." Said a voice that I missed more than anything.
"Dad..." I said in a whisper as he came beside me.
Hes handsome, just like I remembered. But he looked more happy and peaceful.
I could feel the tears filling my eyes, and the ache in my chest needing his arms around me, telling me everything is going to be okay. I wanted to get up and run to him, but something told me to stay in my seat.
"I miss you daddy, im so sorry for leaving you and not being there for you. I blame myself every day for what happened to you!" I said.
"I miss you too so much. Don't blame yourself baby, it wasn't your fault. You did all you could and I love you for that, but everything happens for a reason. I don't want you to ever blame yourself and feel bad for What happened to me." He said as he came and sat on the seat across from me.
The tears were pouring out of my eyes.
I've waited so long to hear his voice say that to me.
"I've been watching over you baby girl, and I am so proud of you. But I came here to talk to you about something else."
I just nodded my head unable to form words in my mouth.
"Don't be afraid to love. I know your scared because you've seen love fail so many times, but don't be. Love has risks and you have to take them, but in return you get the most amazing feeling In the world. The risks are worth it. I don't want you living your life avoiding love, you deserve to give and receive love."
"But he..." I started to say before he cut me off.
"He loves you. I've seen him and he really does. Let yourself love him, open up to him, and I promise it's going to be okay. Love sometimes doesn't work out, but you'll never know until you try it. I know you've built walls up trying to keep anyone from loving you but that's no way to live honey. I regret not taking more chances with love after your mother. Don't make the same mistake I made."
"But dad im scared, I don't know what im going to do without you." I managed to get out between the tears.
"Honey you have so many people in your life that love you, and will help you with everything you do. I know you miss me and I miss you too but you're very lucky to have so many people who care in your life. It's okay to let them in and to let me go and be happy. I'll always be watching over you and helping you, don't worry honey."
"I Iove you and always will. I promise you honey everything's going to be okay..." He said as he slowly faded away.
"No dad, please don't go, please dad!" I cried out.
"Samantha! Samantha are you okay?" Kiefer asked as he held my shoulders.
"Kiefer?" I asked.
"Im here Samantha, don't worry. It was just a nightmare" He said as he held me in his arms and rocked me back and forth.
"No bobby, it wasn't. I saw him... my dad." I said in almost a whisper.
"Really?" He said surprised.
"Yeah. He told me not to be afraid of love, and that everything's going to be okay." I said
"He said it wasn't my fault what happened to him, and she doesn't blame me." I continued.
"That's wonderful." He said
It really was, it was wonderful.
Throughout the whole day I thought about every word my father said to me in my dream.
Some people would think, it was only a dream. It wasn't my father, it was just my imagination. Maybe it was all the candy and sugar I ate. But I knew in my heart it was more than that.
He told me it was going to be okay, and that I shouldn't be afraid of love.
He told me that it was worth the risk.
'He loves you. I've seen him and he really does. Let yourself love him, open up to him, and I promise it's going to be okay'
'He loves you. I've seen him and he really does.'
'He loves you.' He.
I knew who he was, and I knew now what I had to do.