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Chapter 6 - Chapter 6 I LOVE YOU BUT YOU WON'T KNOW IT

Amelia left for another country without William having to tell her that he had already fallen in love with her.

"Mother, I'm leaving, Henry and I will visit Harry at the Hospital," said William.

"Hello! William, where are you?" Henry called.

"Just leaving."

"Okay, let's just meet at the corner streets."

William and Henry arrived at the Hospital but Helena was not there.

"Poor Harry, I hope he recovers soon, not for himself but mostly for the sake of those loving him, especially for Helena," said William sadly.

"William, Henry, you're here!" said Helena who just arrived.

"Hi! Helena, how are you?" said William.

"I'm fine thank you, William."

"Helena, how are you?"

"Hi! Henry. I'm just passed by to see Harry. I'm a little bit busy with my painting exhibits in Makati gallery."

"Really?"

"Yes, that's why I often visit Harry because of my profession."

"Is that so?"

"By the way, William, I heard that you just put up an auto parts and service business, how is the business?" said Helena a little bit curious.

"Well, the business is somehow profitable."

"But, shouldn't you have inspiration for your efforts? For example family? I mean a wife and children to care of? Hasn't anyone devoted your heart and mind to that matter?"

Helena's questions to William were not immediately answered, as there were things that troubled his mind and heart that Helena did not know it or she was just pretending.

William was shocked and he just smiled at Helena, because what he wanted to be an inspiration was the one in front of him, but only in a dream, there was no fulfillment.

"I don't have anyone yet, why? Do you know someone in your mind that I could be my inspiration?"

Helena just smile and did not answer William's question but instead, she invited them to see her paintings exhibit at Makati gallery.

"By the way, I have an exhibit next week in Makati. I'm inviting you to see my works."

"All right, Henry and I would go there, we will not miss that event to see your beautiful artworks," said William.

"Of course, I'll just wait for your presence there."

"Helena, we are leaving, take care of yourself, always," said William seriously.

Helena thought of William such a person with thoughtfulness, something that touched her feelings.

"All right, thanks for the visit, I'm leaving too, I've just passed by to see Harry."

"Then let's go together and have some snacks if it doesn't bother you."

"No, it doesn't, so, let's go."

Outside the Hospital

"Helena where do you want us to have a snack?"

"It's up to you, William."

"Okay"

And as they were eating, William's gaze was fixed on Helena. He noticed that Helena was as energetic now as she was before. Maybe it was because of her profession.

"Helena, I've noticed something about you today," William said.

"What's that?"

"You look more beautiful and cheerful and your smiles are inspiring. If Harry could see you like that, he would say the same thing to you."

At what William said, Helena seemed sad. Suddenly the twinkle in her eye disappeared.

"Helena, did I say something you didn't like?" out asked William.

"It's nothing, William, I just remember Harry. I used to remember that we were always together, like this, we ate happily, talked happily about our lives. But now, he is sick, serious, he is alive but in comatose, you can not talk to him, even if I do he does not answer. Our happiness then semed endless, and now I feel like I'm losing hope as if our happy life back then will never come back," said Helena sadly.

Helena could not continue what she was going to say because she was carried away by her emotion and seemed to be crying, so she slowly stood up.

I'm sorry, I've got to go ahead."

"Helena, we will take you to your destination," William offered.

"It's okay, William, I'm just going across the street."

"All right, Helena, just be careful."

"Thanks, William."

That was all they talked about and left William and Henry feeling sad for Helena as well.

"Now, William, won't you still wake up to the fact that Harry was the man who can give Helena happiness?"

"Henry, do you believe in our destiny? I, myself, believe in destiny, what was destined for me is what will happen. If Helena and I were for each other it will happen without a doubt."

"But, William, you know that it's unlikely to happen, is it? Harry was just sick and in the hospital."

"Yes, but my heart tells me to wait, what am I going to do? I'm confused, I just don't know."

"Okay, let's change the topic. Shall we go to Helena's exhibit in Makati gallery?"

"All right, we'll go there and Helena might think we have no support for her."

"I'm going now to my shop, we'll split up. How about you?"

"Well, I'm going to the office."

And as William was on the bus going to his shop, he thought of Amelia. He could not deny to himself that somehow he had a love for her. It's just that Helena still weighs more in his heart. Helena who is only a dream while for Amelia there's no hindrance to love her," William asked himself why Amelia leave and decided to stay in her Aunt abroad and will never return to the country.

Due to William's intense thinking, he didn't notice the bus he was riding overtook him when he supposes to got off, so his voice got a little louder when he told the driver that he was about to get off.

"What's happening to me and I feel like I'm not with myself. I just went beyond what I was going to get down," William whispered to himself.

*****

As William slept he carried the memory of Helena to his dream.

"William!"

"Oh, it's you, Helena, how are you?"

"Here I am getting more beautiful ha! ha! ha!."

"Helena, can I ask you something?"

"What is that?"

"Do you believe in destiny?"

"Yes, I do, why?"

"If you and I were meant for each other in the future, is that destiny?"

Helena would have answered but someone called her out of nowhere and she suddenly disappeared.

"Helena! Helena! Wait, I'll ask you a few more questions."

William's dream was shattered when his mother woke him.

"Wiliam! William! Wake up, you have a nightmare."

"Mom, it's you, what a bad dream," said William.

"Why? What did you dream about?"

"Nothing important Mom, I'll just continue my sleeping."

A nightmare for William. A nightmare that he must wake up to the fact that they were not meant for each other.

"Son, get up and you'll go to your shop early," said William's mother.

"Yes, Mom, I'll just get myself ready."

*****

William arrived at his shop early. Many customers are waiting. And as William was dealing with the buying customers, Helena suddenly came. He was surprised then by Helena's unexpected arrival at his shop. He asked himself why Helena was coming.

"Helena, I was surprised by your sudden coming, can I serve you anything?"

"William, I'm looking for something to paint that can be included in my exhibit and I thought of this shop of yours, that is if you will allow me to do it so."

"No problem Helena, you are free to do what you want to do," William said that it was obvious that he was happy because of Helena's sudden show-up.

"Thank you, William, and I'll just be back in a day to bring my the things I'll use for painting. I'm leaving now, William, it looks like you have a lot of customers, sorry, I think I even bothered you."

"No, Helena, you didn't. It's okay for me," said William smiling.

"By the way, how did you find out my shop address?"

"What are you, William? We're computer age and you can search thru the internet," said Helena smiling.

"Ah, of course, I forgot, It's because when I see you, I almost lose myself ha! ha! ha!"

Helena laughed too when William said it.

"Helena, I'll take you to the waiting shed or we can have a snack before you go home."

"It's okay, William, you have a lot of customers that need your attention."

"All right, Helena, be careful, and thank you for making me happy today."

"Ha! Ha! Ha! What are you William, as if you even beat someone who likes expressing love to the one he loves," Helena said obviously that she was also happy to see William.

In Helena's answer to William, for William, it was true that he wanted to express his feelings for Helena but because of the situation he's facing, he was prevented to do it.

What William does not know is that Helena was also falling in love with him, because Helena was losing hope that her relationship with Harry will be formed due to the duration of her endurance. Helena also thinks of her future, her happiness, she wants to have a happy family, with children, just like the happy family she often paints.

*****

When Helena returned from William's shop, she went to the hospital. She cried while talking to Harry.

"Harry, wake up, why are you like that? Why do you not want to wake up? How are our dreams? Will it just disappear? I have been patient for a long time, have mercy on me," said Helena crying hard.

What Helena has said to Harry while she was crying, she did not know that Harry could hear her, but even Harry wanted to speak he couldn't do it only in his mind.

"Helena, I'm sorry, I do not like you to suffer, I want to wake up but I can do nothing, my body does not want to move, I can not move my hands either to hug you and whisper in your ear how much I love you."

Those words said Harry in his mind makes Harry feels so sad.

Helena could not cope with her own feelings due to the sadness she felt, so she left the room and sat outside.

If Helena had stayed longer and watched Harry, she would have seen tears dripping down Harry's cheek as a sign that everything she had said, Harry had heard.

****

At William's shop, William seemed to be not in himself because of the sudden coming of Helena and decided to close the shop and got home.

"Helena, how can I forget you if I always see you and talk like this? What should I do to permanently erase you from my subconscious mind?" said William to himself sadly.

At the house

"William, why are you get home early?" asked his mother.

"Mom, I just don't feel good. I want to rest myself and my mind."

"Okay, I'll just prepare your food."

*****

When Helena returned from the hospital, she went home, unlike before after getting hospital she will proceed to her exhibit in Makati.

A few days passed and William and Henry arrived at Helena's gallery in Makati, they toured Helena's art-works and admired the extraordinary talents of Helena in paintings. The gallery was almost filled with art-loving people.

"William, thank you for coming. Did you like something?" asked Helena obviously happy seeing William.

"Helena, I can't just believe, almost all of your work is beautiful, amazing, and if Harry wakes up and he sees this art-work of yours, I'm sure he'll be definitely happy and will enjoy them," said William.

"All right, just make yourself comfortable and go around and chose what you want and I'll just talk to other customers."

"Okay, thanks, we'll just see around and find one that suits our taste and we'll just bring it to the counter," said William.

As William and Henry look around, one piece of Helena's work got their attention and it was a painting of one of the sceneries in Tagaytay.

"That one, Henry, I like it, I'll buy that one, ask Helena how much that would be."

When Henry returned, Henry told William that the one he has chosen is a gift for him.

"William, how nice is Helena, she said you may just take it, it's a gift for you."

"Really? Well, this would be a nice gift I ever had," said William with a smile in his face.

William had chosen the painting because it reminds him of Amelia. And when he arrived home, he immediately displayed it and as he watched it he remembers Amelia. The beautiful woman, Amelia, that he has learned to love but she was gone, gone forever, she'll never back. A sad thing for William.

William was in the situation of thinking Amelia, Henry called him up over the phone.

"Hello, William, what are you doing now?"

"Just relaxing, why?"

"I bought a bottle of long neck wine. Let's have a drink, I'll go there."

"That's a good idea. What time will you arrive here?"

"An hour, just wait for me."

"Okay"

And when Henry arrives, William immediately pulled out a bunch and while they were drinking, Henry notices the painting hanging in the wall.

"That painting is beautiful, I like it, it reminds me of our three-day in Tagaytay with Amelia and Vicky, it''s memorable."

"Yes, Henry, you're right. That painting reminds me of Amelia. Amelia who just left without even said anything to me that she's leaving for abroad and she might never return," said William seemed bad.

"I noticed, William, that you always mention the name of Amelia, unlike before it was Helena you'd always came out in your mouth, do you love Amelia? Or it's because you're already drinking too much wine?" asked Henry who was also a little bit drunk

"You're right, Henry, not because I'm drunk, I've learned to love Amelia but I was not able to tell her until she left for abroad. I feel now that she's gone, how important she was to me. And for your information, Henry, I was the one giving her flowers in secret, I'm her secret lover. Do you know that? Of course, you won't know it because I didn't tell you that before," said William as he's drunk too much.

"I see now, my friend, just don't lose hope and one day, Amelia will show up for you and one thing you didn't know, William, Vicky has said to me that Amelia has feelings with you and she got hurt every time you mention the name of Helena, did you know that?"

"Ha! ha! ha! You're late, my friend, I knew it already because Amelia gave me a letter and in the last part of her letter she said she loves me and for her being thoughtful she mentioned also in the letter I should take care of myself," said William seemed to be proud of what he'stelling to Henry.

"Really? You, William, taking me for granted, now I know," words from someone who's drunk already.

"No, my friend, you're my best friend, always remember that."

"But, how is Amelia? What does she doing now? Do you think, William, Amelia also thinks of us being friends?"

"I think so because she couldn't forget me, the name William was already engraved to her heart," a drunk William said.

"Well, a friend is always a friend to be remembered.

One sunny day, while William was in the shop, Helena came and brought the things she would use for painting.

"Helena, come in, may I offer you something?"

"Don't bother, William, I'm not a visitor. I'll just find a nice place here outside your shop. I want to have a perfect angle of the whole view so I can do the painting properly."

"All right, Helena, it's up to you and I'll just deal with my customers."

"Sir William, this is not what I'm buying."

"Oh, I'm sorry."

"Do you have this kind of auto part, no. 4563A?"

"Let me see."

As William searches for what the customer is buying, he asked himself.

"Why do I seem to be out of my mind?"

The truth is, William loses himself when he sees Helena.

"William, I'm not done yet, may I put my painting materials in your shop? I'll just be back the other day."

"All right, Helena are you going home? I'm going home too, let's go together and have some snacks. I'll just close the shop."

"Okay"

"What's this? Customers suddenly arrive when I'm about to close," said William to himself.

After a few minutes, William closed his shop and while they are walking they stopped to fast food to have some snacks.

As they ate and chat, their topic of conversation turned to their own feelings.

"Helena, why is it that when we are together like this, I feel even happier, something I don't know to myself."

"William, better not to hide your feelings from me. I know already you've felt with me, even though that you know in the first place we can't be for each other, but still, you do love me, why?"

William did not immediately answer, as if he were a bird caught in a trap and struggling to escape.

"Helena, what you said was true, and I will never deny that I learned to love you even though I know it is not possible because it is forbidden. Now, I will ask you. Should I not continue to love you because you do not feel love for me?"

When William asked Helena, Helena seemed to be caught also in a trap that she herself could not escape due to the fact that the truth was just a secret to herself. She could not tell William the truth because of Harry.

So, Helena insisted on lying to William.

"William, just turn your love for me to someone else because I love Harry."

When William heard Helena's answer, William now escaped the trap that caught his heart. He will be going to release Helena from his heart so that he could also be released from the truth that he suffered for a long time.

And as William and Helena parting apart, to Helena her heart was a painful reality, she loved William but William won't know it.