I don't know how long I've been here drifting in the infinite void.
While drifting I just sat there and waited. I didn't question what was happening or why this was happening. I didn't try to make an assumption like I'm meeting God or that I am going to be reincarnated.
I never did believe in god.
No matter how many times I called out to him or prayed to him he never answered. Because of this, I made up my own 'God'. I called them Keepers. Their job is to make sure that everything is happening the way it is without any deviations. I split them up into 3 Keepers. The Keeper of Time, his job is to make sure that time doesn't break. He omnipotent or omniscient, he doesn't even have a corporal body. He doesn't see everything like the past, present, or future all he sees is time. When it breaks he fixes, when it stops he makes it continue, and when it moves to fast or goes in reverse he slows it down and brings it back to normal.
Then there's the Keeper of Space. Same as the Keeper of Time he doesn't have a corporal body. All he does is make sure that space doesn't break.
And finally, there's the Keeper of Matter. As the saying goes, "Matter cannot be created nor destroyed." His job is to make sure that saying says true. He keeps the balance while making sure that it doesn't break.
This is my own idea of 'God' or in my term 'Higher Existences'.
While floating in the void I keep thinking about these existences. Wondering that if they do exist how is it that they stay mentally sane. Repeating the same task that has been assigned to them for all of eternity. Do they talk to each other? Do they have dreams of their own? Are they ever bored with their job? Do they hate it?
Countless of these same exact thoughts keep crossing my mind while waiting.
It wasn't until I saw a light that I realized something was happening.
The light keeps getting brighter and brighter until I realized that I can open my eyes. I didn't question why I have eyes in this void because I know that I will never get an answer back.
Once I did open my eyes what greeted me was a bright blue sky and a giant orange sun peaking over the horizon. It was beautiful. I never really took the time to appreciate the sky. I was always headfirst into my phone either reading novels or watching youtube, but one thing I do know is that it didn't look like this.
Bright blue sky with mixes of red, orange, and yellow perfectly intertwining with each other to create an ocean of colors moving throughout the sky. Clouds perfectly spread out to not cover the beauty while constantly changing colors depending on their position.
For quite a while I just sat there appreciating everything.
Currently, I may seem calm with everything that happening. But I know that my brain hasn't accepted reality yet, while also combing into my ability to just go with the flow. You could call this an amazing ability to adapt but I know it's just signs of mental instability.
After who knows how long passed I decided to sit up and take a look around. After moving my head to look at my body, it was like a bomb went off in my head.
Pain
The same pain I experienced during the time I 'died'. I tried to scream but nothing came out. My best guess is that during the time my car ran me over
All I could do during that entire time was to beg for me to fall unconscious in my mind while the pain just keeps increasing. Luckily my wish was answered and not a second after it was asked I passed out.
...
I don't know how long I was unconscious for but one thing is definitely different. The soul excruciating pain is gone. Along with the disappearance of the pain came along extreme hunger, thirst, and weakness.
I first wanted to try and move my arms so that I would eventually be able to stand up. Struggling to move I was able to lift up my arms from what seems to be after an hour of trying. Afterward, I slowly pushed my arms off the ground allowing me to lift my chest.
I had to pause for a while afterward because the sense of weaknesses became stronger. I was mentally and physically tired just from the simple action of lifting up my body. I decided to take a break. After around 30 minutes I was eventually able to move my legs and reposition myself into a more comfortable position. Surprisingly during the time I was trying to move, I didn't experience any pain.
After finally getting into a comfortable position I decided to obese my surrounding.
The first thing I noticed was that my body was perfectly fine. All the sticking out bones, glass shards, cuts, and tire marks were all gone. All that was left was my perfectly healthy body, major fatigue, soreness, hunger, and thirst. After checking out my body I looked around the place.
Green.
All that filled my eyes was the color green. Trees, plants, bushes, grass, and an assortment of greenery that sent me straight into confusion. The area that I was in looked like a mix of jungle and forest. As a person who was born in the 20th century, this couldn't be more confusing.
'I'm in the wild?'
'That can't be? Even if I did somehow live after getting hit by that car I should be in a hospital, much less the wild.'
'Also even if I am in the wild I should be able to see something modern. Were are the radio towers? the power lines? the skyscrapers? a plane at least?'
The more I thought about it the more confused I got. I was already mentally tired enough might as well not make it worse. So I decided to just forget about it and go with the flow.
*grr* *grr* *stomach sound* *grr* *grr*
It wasn't until I heard my stomach that I realized my situation.
As I looked around for anything that looks edible all that filled my site was more green. I do realize that probably something out of all this green stuff is edible, but sadly I never learned about this stuff.
I thought about just taking something random and eating it, but I know that's the worst-case narrow because I don't want to get poisoned.
"*Sigh*....I...a..m...u...se...le...ss..."
When I tried to take to myself out loud, all that came out was husky words which I struggled to even speak. Welp looks like I'm now reminded of how thirsty I am. *Sigh* how I wish I was able to forget about all this.
You know, I have already died once, and since it seems like I am unable to even exert the littlest of energy. I think I used it all up trying to position myself more comfortably. Well, I might as well start betting which ones gonna kill me first, starvation or dehydration.
5 min.... 10 min.... 30 min... 1 hour.... 3 hours... 11 hours... 1 day... 5 days... 3 week... 2 month
I'm
still
not
dead