We have been shearing a bed every night it feels nice just to lay with him.
I have been thinking a lot about what he said to me. It's not to uncommon for women to become men, or men women in the world today. Although there are still many that are close minded. I have thought before about not really feeling like a girl but I hadn't thought much about it. I really don't think I would miss this body. Had I really been born a boy things would have been easier. But do I really want to go through all the work in pain and money to change something that I don't care about....
It's time for my day with my family.
Tony is going with me.
I put on the dress then I put the hoodie over it and basketball shorts. The dress is totally hidden. We are going to my mom's house first then to a restaurant.
I've never seen how my family acted around someone who spoke Spanish so until we get to the restaurant Tony is going to act like he can't speak English to test their reactions.
I introduce Anthony to my mom and explain that he speaks Spanish.
It's cute my mom is talking to him like he is hard at hearing. Talking slow and loud.
It takes everything I have not to laugh.
"I'm going to get ready." I tell my mom as I go to the restroom and take off the shorts and hoodie.
"mom can I borrow some shoes? I didn't have any that went with the dress."
I hear my mom yell from the other side of the house. "YOUR WEARING THE DRESS!!!"
She came running to me taking me to her room to pick out shoes. She has like 100 pairs of shoes.
She gives me a black sparkly pair of heels.
"how do I look mom?"
"like a perfect little princess."
"I am wearing this for you."
"oh I know your so beautiful though. I'm surprised you got a boyfriend with looking like a boy all the time. Speaking of that. You said he only speaks Spanish, isn't it hard on your relationship, did you learn Spanish?."
"Woogle translator. mom makes it easier"
"well if you are serious about this young man you should learn Spanish to communicate better with him. I am assuming you're serious since this is the first boyfriend I've ever seen. You know I don't bring them home."
Well mom passed the test. It didn't last long.
"I love you mom." I say laughing while I gave here a hug.
"Where are my two favorite girl" dad called
"in here" mom said.
"My little girl all grown up. Look at you!"
"thanks dad"
"so I met your boyfriend on the way in."
"and" I question
"And I need to brush up on my Spanish. He was being very polite but I couldn't do more then introduce myself."
"I love you dad" I say hugging him. "since we are all here let's go."
once I get down stairs I tell Tony " my parents are awesome. They think the only problem with you speaking Spanish is that we don't know enough of it. "
"That's nice so I can speak English now?"
"yep"
Tony looks at my parents.
"you can always count on a phycology major too play mind games. Sorry for miss leading you, but my father does only speak Spanish. People can be really mean about it. So James here wanted to test your reactions with me."
"so are we getting to meet your parents." my mom asked excited.
"In time Mom, I haven't met them yet."
I laugh, Something seems to be bothering Tony. I'll ask him about it later.
We car pool to the restaurant.
We enjoy a nice meal together. My parents really seem to like Tony. We head back to mom's house where we play cards and hang out. I change back to my comfy clothes as soon we return. It's nice to see my family smiling together. I wonder if it would be the same if I was a man? I wonder if my family would care?
"what if I was born a boy?" I ask out loud. as soon as the words leave my lips I'm suddenly nurves. My mom and dad don't respond I don't know if they heard me right.
"well I would be gay then." Tony said.
"Let's not talk about that." my mother said. Trying to but a end to the conversation. I ignore her social cues, I want to know.
"What if I become a man now?" I ask.
"Then I would have two sons." My father smiles.
"your not a man your a woman. God made you like this for a reason, Now it's getting late I'm going to call it a night."
"I was just curious mom. no need to freak out." Sigh
"Tony let's go I'll drive you back." I say taking his hand walking to the door.
I can hear my parents argue as I leave.
Before I leave my dad comes out and gets in to his car. He waves goodbye, and does the sign language for I love you. I drive back to the dorms.
I don't talk much on the way. Once in the dorm.
"I'm going to shower now."
"alright, just so you know if you need to talk Im here" Tony replies.
I cry in the shower. I don't know why. Why did what my mom said bother me so much? It's not like that's something I had decided to do. I've just been thinking about it. So why does it hurt?
"it no big deal. I wasn't going to do it anyways." I tell myself out loud. " I'm happy with my body"