I was a child born between two people who really loved each other. My mom would always call my dad a silly man but she couldn't hide the love in her eyes as she told him this. My dad was someone who would do anything to make himself worthy to be called her husband.
I never really understood it but it seems like my mom's family didn't approve of my dad or me. They cut off ties with my mom and refuse to see me as their grandson. It didn't really hurt my mom that much and took it like it was nothing.
I also noticed as a young child my mom would look at someone else with love in her eyes… It was a really beautiful woman. I always got all nervous around her and would often leave gifts of dead animals to show my affection, this would end with me getting a slap on my butt and a long lecture. My mom couldn't hide how much she cared about that woman and how much she hated that man.
I wonder if in another life would she have married that woman? I would have been okay with that since I really didn't like that man at all. He would always give my mom rude looks that I didn't like at all. So I would pee on him anytime he was forced to hold me in his arms. It made me happy seeing how ugly his expression would get at this.
Even though I hated seeing this man come over to my home, I knew that it meant I got to see the beautiful woman. She would always scratch behind my ears and rub at my tummy. She was never without a smile on her face.
She had tried to make me get close to her son that was around my age but I didn't think much of him. He smells too much like that man and they seem to have the same face so that really didn't help to get a friendship going. I would often leave dead bugs in his hair and smile when he would cry due to this.
I slowly noticed that the woman's stomach was getting bigger and she was looking weaker. I would give her stuff that would make me feel better when I was sick but she just sadly shook her head. I couldn't understand what was going on with her.
She would always ask me to listen to her stomach and ask me what I could hear. I would always tell her it sounded like a happy heartbeat and for some reason that made her smile so happily.
When she didn't come over anymore and I would see my mom crying silently to herself I felt an odd sense of loneliness. I knew she was gone and that I wouldn't see her again. After the woman was gone my mom ended up leaving me with my dad for different amounts of times.
When she would come home her eyes would look so sad and she would only give me an empty smile when I asked what was wrong with her. My dad said I would understand when I was older but I wanted to understand now.
One day when my dad wasn't paying attention I decided to track where my mom was. I ended up at a big house that was filled with different people who were wearing work uniforms. I didn't know why my mom was at a place like this since we did have a lot of money due to my dad and what he did as a job.
I decided to just follow the scent of my mom and found her in a room with the door half-open. I wanted to greet my mom right away but she had an upset look on her face. That's when I noticed a young girl who looked younger than me, probably by two years or maybe more.
She was on the ground sobbing loudly and wouldn't allow my mom to touch her. She was just curled up into a ball on the ground. For some reason she looked just like the woman from when I was younger but… She is so different from the woman.
Why is she so upset? It was so strange to see that on her face when the woman always had a bright smile on her face. I just stood silently outside of the room my mom was in until she came out. She was surprised when she realized I was here and scolded me for leaving the house without my dad.
I wasn't fully listening to her, still stuck on the little girl I saw in that room. I can't get the sounds of her pain-filled cries out of my ears. It felt like it was echoing inside my head. She looks just like that woman but… Not the same personality…
I would always remember the little girls during the years as I grew up. It was rather annoying when I woke up in the middle of the night due to a dream I had of her and the woman crying together. I couldn't understand why it was affecting me this much.
Maybe it's because I don't feel comfortable seeing the girl who looks so much like that woman cry like that? I decided to accept that for the reason why it was bothering me this much and it did help the dreams of both the girl and woman to settle down for a while.
I remember when I met the little girl again but she wasn't so little anymore. I snuck out of my house again and showed up at the place my mom worked again. She only let out a sigh as she allowed me to stay. I followed what she was doing for a while before I eventually grew bored with what she was doing.
I walked away when she wasn't looking and went to explore this huge house by myself. I eventually got to a door that was closed and for some reason, I wanted to head in there due to a nice scent that was coming from it. When I open the door it feels like I open a door to a whole new world.
Her eyes were cold as she looked through the book in her hands. She looked just like the woman but she wasn't the woman. When she made eye contact with me, my heart nearly came out of my chest. I got that same nervous feeling as I got with that woman. This had to be love!
She spoke coldly to me for the first time but it only made me like her more. When my mom found me with her and tried to take me away I had to grab onto her legs. It was such soft legs….
That was when I decided I would become a servant to this beautiful girl. My mom gave me a doubtful look but I ignored it, I had to stick by this girl's side so that this feeling will last longer! The beautiful girl, whose name I learned was Aurelia, gave me a cold look before leaving me alone with my mom.
My mom kept asking me if I was sure about my decision and that just because I was attracted to her doesn't mean I should work for her. I couldn't understand what my mom was concerned about and just wave off what she was saying, ignoring the looks she was giving me.
When I went back home that day and went to sleep I had that dream again with the woman and Aurelia. I couldn't understand why it was happening again but I tried not to think too much about it.
During my training to be Aurelia's servant I end up realizing that I have no idea how to tell the difference between salt and sugar. It was so embarrassing looking at Aurelia's expression as she forced herself to swallow the bad tea I made for her. She could have gotten pissed at me but she just told me to look more carefully next time.
I made sure to practice in secret for a while and I ended up realizing I was really good at baking. I wanted Aurelia to see that I wasn't a screw up so I went to her room to give her the dessert I made. It went I met that annoying little childhood friend of hers.
He was looking at me with eyes that looked like he wanted to attack me. Aurelia didn't seem to care that much about her childhood friend. Well… It seems like she didn't care for a lot of things. I know that she really cares for my mom but I don't know what she thinks about everyone else.
She was really not like that woman who was always so close to everyone else. I wonder why she was like that and not just like that woman. For some reason the more I thought along those lines, Aurelia and the woman in my dream would keep on getting closer to each other. To the point, it looked like they would combine to be the same person.
I remember the day where I found Aurelia sitting in the flower garden with a peaceful look on her face. She didn't look cold, distant, or sad. She just looked so at peace with herself. It was at that time I didn't compare her to that woman, I only saw her as Aurelia…
When she asked me why I wanted to be her servant. A servant of someone hated by her own family. I could see that she wanted to cry but forced herself not to. I wanted to hug her at that moment but I knew that it would be the wrong time for that. So I tried to comfort her with my words, it didn't seem to help get rid of all her worries but she looked a bit warmer in my eyes.
I felt really happy when she agreed to me being her servant. I decided that I would be the best servant she ever had and that I would be so great at making hot chocolate. It was a nice experience working for Aurelia. I got to be around her a lot and learn her habit.
I also pick up habits of her that I think she doesn't even know she does. Whenever she was feeling concerned about something a wrinkle between her eyebrows would appear. When she was feeling happy and wanted to smile the corners of her eyes would curl slightly but not for a long time. When she was feeling angry she would dig her nails into her hands until blood appeared on them.
Using those as hints I would always figure out a way to make sure she was always in a happy mood. I felt like she wanted to let her guard down around me but she would always get cold faced when she thought we were too close.
I couldn't understand why she didn't want to trust me fully… It was painful and I couldn't help but be upset for a while. The woman was always letting people get close to her and trusting them without hesitating. It felt strange that Aurelia wasn't like that either.
I knew she did care for me in some way since I saw a shadow servant that I knew belonged to her following me during a party. I felt like she was doing this in secret so I didn't bring it up with her. I couldn't understand why there was this distance between us….
She wasn't like that woman who always had a smile on her face… I couldn't understand if I liked her or I like how she looked like that woman. Was I only trying to replace the woman who was already gone with her daughter? I felt like a dick when I thought about it in that way.
I felt like she was slowly letting down her guard after she decided not to see her family for dinner anymore and she was showing a lot of care for my mom openly. I kind of wish she didn't tell me she saw me as an older brother, really not something you want to hear from someone you are attracted to.
It even seems like she may even get light back into her eyes but of course, her family has to mess it up. I can't understand how one family can even hate each other… Aren't families always supposed to love and care for each other? Why is there so much hate to the point of wanting to kill each other?
I saw a side of Aurelia that I really didn't want to see. It was the side of her that didn't want to live anymore, the side that didn't care about anything anymore. I didn't want her to be like that. I just wanted her to be happy.
When she went missing and no one could find her it felt like everything was going wrong. My mom wouldn't stop crying and I felt like I was going to have a panic attack from all the fear I was dealing with. I felt happy when I picked up her scent in the air and went to her side quickly.
But she wasn't okay at all. Her eyes were vacant and her body was giving off cold air. She looked like she wasn't even paying attention to what was happening to her. She looks like someone who may end up fully cutting herself off from the world.
I can't let that happen. I didn't want her to do that. I didn't want to lose her and make her leave my side. It's not because she looked like that woman anymore. It was because she was Aurelia and I wanted her to be happy. I wanted her to see that she was cared for and loved. I didn't want her to feel like she didn't belong.
It felt like a relief when she finally cried and let out everything that was kept inside of her. She was letting her guard down and I was able to see who she really was. Just a young girl who feels so lonely and scared. A girl who wants to be loved so badly.
I felt at that moment I wasn't thinking of that woman or how they were alike. I was just thinking of Aurelia and only Aurelia. She was the only thing in front of me and the only thing in my mind. She didn't have to be like anyone. I felt happy with her alone.
I still felt a bit like a jerk for always comparing her to her mother in my mind. I couldn't help but feel like maybe I should wait things out and see if the feelings I have for her are more than just admiration.
But I knew I wouldn't leave her side at all. I will always be with her no matter what. Even if everyone hates her I will still be with her, always telling her that she is loved and cared for. She is someone no one could really forget…
I can't wait to see what she becomes as she grows. Hopefully light will come into her eyes and she will be able to smile with nothing holding her back. Aurelia is someone who deserves everything and is such a gentle person who cares so much about the people who are the closest to her.
I will make sure to always help her out from now on whenever it feels like the world is on her shoulders. I want her to know that no matter what she can come to me for help and that I will always take her side. I am her personal servant and whatever my lady wants I will do it for her.