I started to feel a bit sick and cloistered, so I transformed into a lynx and escaped through the window. I saw the landscape of the outside world and how the snow slowly melted and turned to water. I ran as far as possible from the hut until I got to Hegel's house, I needed to see him, he was the one I most appreciated within the tribe and I had taken care of him since I met him, I felt that when I saw him so shy and innocent he was, my fears would go slowly.
I went back to my human form and knocked on the door.
-Oh, little girl, what are you doing without clothes standing outside in this cold? - Hegel's mother opened me, and that's when I noticed that I did not come out with extra clothes. -
"I'm sorry, I left my house very quickly," I said as the lady gave me a large leather cape to cover my body. The cape was a bit too large on me, but to my surprise, it did not look excessively large.
- You have grown a lot, it seems that that horrible experience took five years of your life, you look like a girl of ten. - The lady commented with sadness in her voice.
It may sound absurd, but only then did I notice that I had aged so much and that I was no longer the little girl of that time. It didn't make me sad or anything, I was in my twenties by the end, so I didn't want to look like a little 5-year-old girl
- Is Hegel there? I would like to play with him. -
I decided to tell her my reason for arrival, I already imagined how I was going to bother her for not visiting me all the time I was ill.
"He ... my little one ... died," said the lady while crying bitterly.
That information left me shocked. Did he starve for the winter? Why hadn't anyone told me?
-It was because of the cold ... - I could only whisper those words.
-No dear, he disappeared, we think he went into the forest to look for you with the rescue team and never returned. -
He died looking for me ...
I did not know what to say at that time, I could only remain silent while the tears ran down my eyes, I knew how horrible that forest was, how much I suffered to survive, little Hegel ... he has no chance.
"We have to go look for him, there is still time, maybe it is not too late," I said desperately.
-No one is going to look for him, he is not important to the tribe and the situation is very complex. I looked in his room and I found this, I think he made it for you.-
The lady gave me a small carved stone, it did not have a clear shape, but you could see the dedication made in the small work. I could only assist my head and leave slowly while crying bitterly.
Little Hegel died because of me ...
He is dead…
For me…
I am the evil that came to this tribe ...
I do not deserve to be praised, I have only brought destruction, everything is for me ...
They saved me and that caused so much damage ...
NO
I can't go on like this, it doesn't matter anymore if I go back or I can't go back to my world, these people have given too much for me, I must pay them for everything they have done.
From now on my life will be to help improve the quality of life of the people of the tribe, this will not happen again ...
Katherine has died, my name is now Enya ...