Ridhima tries her best to sleep but is not able to for a long time. Then she finally give up on sleeping and decided to do something else. She goes into the kitchen to eat something but on her fridge, she sees her mini vision board. On this, she posted a pic of her dream house. Also, she posted a picture of Italy and Spain. Then she sees the photo of the model which are very beautiful.
There are some other pic and quotes too. But seeing them she feels sadness. She can't travel the world in one year. Neither she has money and now nor time. She also doesn't have a perfect body and talking about the house....she just laughs coldly.
The house she is living in right now, is nearly 40 Lakhs, for buying it she spends all her savings over ten years. She also needs to take a loan for this. But still, this house is nothing to compare with her dream house. There is no way she can complete her vision board in one year.
She looks at the last picture, It is a picture of a bride. She wanted to get married with her love of life. She remembers when she makes this vision board she is very excited and happy. That day, her boss praised her a lot for her work and they also have dinner together. It is not like only she is invited. But she feels too special.
She likes her boss for a long time. Maybe it is more than ten years. But she understands their differences. But still, there is nothing wrong with having a big dream. And that day, when her boss praises her, she feel a little hope that might one day her boss might like her.
She understands it is just her wishful thinking. Still, when she returns, she watches videos about the law of attraction and the power of the subconscious mind, so when she posts this,she visualizes, she is marrying her boss.
But now....this is impossible. Even if someone wanted to marry her, she didn't have the heart to marry someone. Anyway she is going to live for only one year, what is the point of such a short time of marriage.
She can't help but look at her whole life; she now only has this home in her name, and few thousands in the bank and this job. There is nothing much has achieved.
She is not the best person; she doesn't have many friends. Yes, she has Ram, but more than best friends, they are people with the same mind who help each other in their work and other things. She to be honest, uses people including Ram. And he also has his problems, so she don't have anyone with whom she can share anything.
She once again remembers the words in the book. Ridhima, one of the employees of Sunrise Group, is very jealous of the female lead. She is cunning, selfish and self-centred.
Ridhima laughs at these words. Why will she not feel jealous of the heroine, Samira? She has everything. Samira's father is an upper-middle-class person. If Ridhima remembers correctly, Samira doesn't even have good marks or anything in college. It is not like Ridhima looks down on people who are bad in academics. But the thing is, Ridhima struggles a lot even being so good in study to complete her education. The only reason is her family background.
Her father is a supporting actor, but sometimes, he cannot earn much. But Ridhima is a bright student, so she gets to go to the best school in the city. There she doesn't has any other option but to work hard to maintain her scholarship. Some people bully her and insult her for her poverty. But she outgrows through all this.
She struggles a lot to get admission to a good college as her father can't afford that much money. She takes a loan from the bank, for which she must work. Thankfully her boss at that time announced a scholarship for poor students, and she got it. This is also one of the incidents of her life which makes her fall in love with her boss.
Then after college, she started to work in her boss's company. Here she began to work at the ground level and reached one of the top position, where she work with others who graduated from prestigious colleges and some even from abroad. She can say that she is here with all her hard work.
So why can't she feel proud of herself? Why can't she have a little ego? Why can't she be a little selfish with the privilege she gets? Maybe for others, it is just a job, but for her, she works so hard to reach where she is. But expect this she doesn't have anything. She only has this job in her life.
And why does she not get jealous of the heroine who gets her boss's attention just by a kiss, while she, Ridhima, has been working hard for so long? And now she doesn't even have a life? Why can't she get jealous of the heroine?
Now thinking about all her life, she realised that she has no reason to hold on to her life. Like for whom and what should she live? There are not many people who will even cry for. She does nothing remarkable in her life.
She once again ended up crying for a long time. And while crying, she falls asleep in her kitchen. The next day, when she woke up, she realised it was too late. So she decided to talk with that voice later. Anyway, she can still not determine what she wants from her life. She is not even sure what she will do Next.
Thinking about all this, she reaches her office.