"If anyone had asked me if I was given the chance to turn back time, whether or not I will take it and never leave my native country. The answer would have been a resounding YES! I hate the the way things are done, everyone seem so cold and distant, no one to talk to, neighbors and eveyone else mind their business! One could be dying on the street and depending on what time of the day, the person may be unfortunate not to have help called. When I hear the All lives matter, I wonder how true that is? Really all lives matter?! If that was the case then why do I feel so suffocated when around so many people?! Is like people look at you but don't really see you! So much tension! For a highly sensitive person like me, my inner antennae is on high alert constantly and this is not without any repercussions! I feel when someone is in pain more intensely than other, I care a lot about other people but why is it so difficult to get someone to care about me?! Am I such a horrible human being that no one wants to be around?!"
Deb Oh continued her inner musings at what she thought was the unfairness of life towards her.
Could she be wrong about her perception about herself and that of other?
Was there a way for Deb Oh to resolve her dilemma and find the happiness that she may be seeking or is this some idealistic dream that is better left unspoken from a jaded person like Deb Oh?