First Kiss
"What are you doing? Rapist ka 'no? Rapist!!" binato-bato ko siya ng unan na nasa kama niya. Inilagan niya iyon ng braso niya.
"F-Fuck! Stop it Fion!" he said while laughing.
"Hayop ka! Hinagis mo pa 'ko sa kama mong hayop ka! Lumayo ka sa'kin! Gwapo ka pa naman!" we both stiffened. He slowly put his arms down, grinning at me, teasing. My cheeks flushed, pero galit pa rin.
I stepped back when he started to walked towards me. My heart doubled a beat. I shut my eyes when I felt the cold room's wall. Damn, i'm trapped.
He locked me with his arms both on my sides. He slowly cocked his head on the other side, lips parted. I looked at it, and unconsciously licked my lips. I looked at his eyes again, and caught him staring at my lips naman. His presence was really suffocating.
"Keoz.." he was started to move his head closer to me. I panicked so I nervously dodge his d*ck with my knees. I covered my mouth in shocked, because he was really in pain! Dinaluhan ko siya kaagad at paulit-ulit na humingi ng tawad. Hindi ko alam kung anong hahawakan ko! Kung yung mukha niya ba, katawan o yung alaga niya! Ewan!
"Sorry, sorry! Ano ba, masakit ba?" kinakabahan kong tanong kasi sapo-sapo niya yung alaga niya. Masakit ba talaga 'yun? Sabi nila nakakabaog daw 'yon kapag laging ginaganun. Diyos ko, 'di ko naman po gustong hindi siya magka-pamilya, nataranta lang ako kasi muntikan niya na akong halikan! Gosh, never pa akong nahahalikan kahit yung boyfriend ko!
"Fuck! It fucking hurts Fion!" he shut his eyes. Namumula na rin 'yung dibdib niya maging ang mukha. I held his face, my worried expression still remains.
"Keoz! Ano? Nagdi-deliryo ka na ba?" tanong ko. Inalis ko 'yung kamay niya sa gitna ng hita niya. Nakita kong may umbok doon, I swallowed hard.
"Oh my god. Ano? Hihimasin ko ba?" he quickly open his eyes, stare at me. Shockness was evident in his eyes, kahit ako ay hindi rin makapaniwala sa nasabi ko. I shake both of my hands in front of him, binabawi ang kasasabi lang sa kanya.
"Hindi. Hindi. Joke lang," i nervously said because he still stare at me.
"Please?" he said. Kumunot ang noo ko sa kanya. At inis na tumayo.
"Ano ka chix? Himas-himas ka diyan! Napakaswerte mo naman!" Tatalikuran ko na sana siya pero pwersahan niya akong hinatak pabalik sa kanya na nagresulta para pang-ibabawan ko siya at magdampi ang labi namin! My eyes widened. He just stole my first kiss! His eyes closed as his lips started to move.
Hindi ko na namalayang tumugon na ako sa mga halik niya. He held my waist as our kiss became deep. He push his tongue inside my mouth when i open it. Nang gawin niya iyon ay parang may pumukpok sa ulo ko at naisip ang nangyayari ngayon sa amin.
I stop kissing him and stood up. He slowly open his eyes, mapupungay pa ito. I heavily sighed and held my forehead. Nagpabalik-balik ako ng lakad habang tinitingnan niya lang ako rito. Ano 'tong nagawa namin? Naghalikan ba kami? I looked at him, he's finger was touching his red lips, siguro'y nagulat din sa nangyari.
"What did we just do?! Bakit hindi ka man lang nagpigil?" I annoyingly ruffled my hair. Naiiyak na.
"Why are you only blaming me? You gave up yourself in our kiss!" he fired back. I sat on the edge of the bed. I covered my face with my hands, i'm so frustrated right now. We should have not done that! I have a boyfriend. Yes we're complicated but i just disrespect our relationship! Nakikipaghalikan ako ng kami pa ni Jerico!
"Alam ko kung pa'no pagtaksilan Keoz. Kalimutan mo na 'yung halikan natin. Our kiss doesn't mean anything to me," I stopped talking when my phone beeped. I took it out of my pocket and look who message me.
From: Jerico
Can I visit you in your house? I miss you babe :(
I texted back.
To: Jerico
Okay. Four o' clock.
"Sinong ka-text mo?" he seriously asked.
Tumayo ako mula sa kama at hinarap siya.
"I'm going to the tailor shop. Don't party tonight," i didn't answer him before storming out of the room.
"OMG! Is that true? Ang swerte mo girl!" I looked at my friend, shocked. Hindi ba dapat siyang magalit kasi may jewa ako? Bakit parang tuwang-tuwa pa siya? Napasapo na lamang ako sa noo ko.
"Why are you still happy? Bakit hindi ka nagagalit eh may boyfriend ako?" I asked. She rolled her eyes on me and crossed her arms over her chest.
"Ah? May boyfriend ka pala? Parang wala naman akong naaalala," she even acted like she's thinking. But yes, she's right. Parang wala akong boyfriend na nag-e-exist..
"Pero kasalanan ko rin naman.. pabaya akong girlfriend hanggang ngayon. Tingnan mo, ni hindi ko siya makamusta kahit sa text man lang or call," i said. She looked at me then held my hand.
"Kapag wala ng gana.. humanap na ng iba," she said. Bigla akong naluha sa sinabi niya. Alam ko kasing si Jerico ang tinutukoy niya roon, kahit ganoon siya kababaero, parang ako pa 'yung nasasaktan.
I saw her glared at me, "Oo nga pala, may hindi ka ba sinasabi sa akin?" I looked at her, confused by her sudden question.
"Anong hindi ko sasabihin sayo?" I asked. Humalukipkip ulit siya, mukhang naiirita sa akin.
"Wala kang sasabihin sa'kin tungkol sa nangyari sa inyo ni Jerico sa car park noong last kita ninyo?" I shut my eyes and massage the bridge of my nose.
I sighed, "We had a little fight lang naman.." palusot ko kahit sobrang takot ako ng mga panahong iyon. Noong gabi ko lang na iyon nakita ang kakaibang Jerico sa nakikilala ko five years ago.
"'Wag mo ng itago sa akin Fionna. Kinuwento na sa akin ng mga kaibigan ni Jerico. Nagkita kami noong isang araw. So spill the beans"
She just kept listening at me as I tell her the whole story of what happened between me and Jerico at the car park. She gasped when I told her he scared me so much even when his friends approached us then Jerico denied to his friends that something wrong was going on with us. But Max felt calm when I tell them that I had the right timing to escape when Jerico's friends help me out to run away from my boyfriend.
"He's a jerk for giving you such a harsh experience! I mean, you were his girlfriend and he has to respect you as a girl! A woman! He's too immature!" she keeps ranting until the time strikes at four in the afternoon. I stood up. Max looked at me.
"You're going back to Markeus unit na?" Max asked. I shook my head, her eyes narrowed. Getting a little clue na. Namilog ang mga mata niya ng makaisip kung saan ako pupunta.
"Don't tell me.."
"Max, we will just have a few talk," she held her waist.
"Fionna! Hindi ka pa ba nadadala? Masasaktan ka lang ulit niyan!" I sighed before I calm her down. She breathed in the exhales.
"Sige ganito, kapag hindi maganda ang nangyari sa akin ngayon.."
"Ano? Makikipaghiwalay ka pero marupok ka kaya babalikan mo rin?! Tanga ka ba?!" she yelled. Pinanlakihan ko siya ng mata.
"Ang ingay mo naman, tumahimik ka nga," her eyes rolled, "So ganito na nga. Kung hindi maganda ang mangyari sa akin ngayon, makikipag-break na ako sa kanya. Promise. Pero give me one week muna bago ko gawin yon," she glared at me.
"Napaka-hmm! Nanggigigil talaga ako sa'yo ha!" she playfully pulled some strands of my hair.
"Aray. Ito na nga! Kapag naging maganda ang pag-uusap namin, 'yung chill-chill lang, magii-stay ako," she stre at me for a few minutes before she let me to have a talk with Jerico.
"Where will you meet?" she asked.
"Sa bahay ko," natigilan siya at hinarap muli ako.
"Sa bahay mo? Bakit doon pa?" I just shrugged at her before I walked out of the shop.
Sana maging okay ang pagkikita namin ni Jerico.