It still hurts. It's as if she could never get that day out of her mind. She was betrayed. Two of the people she loved, treasured and trusted left her side. It was as if her heart had shattered into a million pieces, never able to heal itself again.
At that time, she was only 18 and was young and naive. She was innocent and saw the world as a place where happiness ruled. That fateful day opened her eyes to a world full of betrayal and sadness. Her only friend, Amelia, had helped her through those though times. Amelia helped her with her studies, helping her learn the chapters she had missed out while she was still weak. Now that she was stronger, she silently promised herself that she would do anything to help her dear friend.
***
Her phone rang, bringing her away from her memories. She looked at the screen. An unsaved number? She had never given anyone her number except her close ones. Perhaps it's a scam. She accepted the call just to give that scammer a piece of her mind.
Before she could say anything, she heard a familiar arrogant voice.
"My dear friend, how are you?"
Just hearing that voice made her have a headache and she held back her tears as best as she could. "What do you want? And stop calling yourself my friend. That title has been striped two years ago. Just get to the point and stop beating around the bush."
"Oh OK. I called to tell you Ryan and I are engaged. You are invited to our engagement party. I will send you the details later. Bye."
As that "friend" hung up, she could not hold back her tears anymore. Being invited to your ex boyfriend's engagement party is the last thing you want, after all. As the dam broke, she could not help but to sing her favourite song. It was what had gotten her through the break up. The song's meaning had inspired her not to give up on life. And to live on as if they were non-existent.
Like a small boat
On the ocean
Sending big waves
Into motion
Like how a single word
Can make a heart open
I might only have one match
But I can make an explosion
And all those things I didn't say
Wrecking balls inside my brain
I will scream them loud tonight
Can you hear my voice this time
This is my fight song
...
She sang this song over and over again, drowning herself in its melody, till the tears finally came to a stop, and forgotten about the past, especially him.