Chapter 16 - Big Brother Shen

I run to my brother with another red spirit stone and whisper "Show daddy how to do it when no ones around."

"Shen what—" Shen quickly gives my dad a look and my father lets the matter go.

"Daddy, Mommy!! Do you like Shens magic trick." I try to deflect their attention.

Shen: "Mother look Little Shin'er is awake hurry have the doctor check her."

Akira: "Shinah why are you out of bed! You've been unconscious for two weeks now, you should lay back down."

Huh I was unconscious for two weeks? What happened at Aunties?

My mother pulls the doctor forward .. to examine me.

When I notice Dr. Lin Xavier I freeze.

My hands clench tightly and my body shivers subconsciously.

He's Duke Lin's youngest son. Politics nor Combat being his strong suit, he enrolled in Bright Future Academy at a young age to study Medicine. At thirteen he became the youngest apprentice under The Gao Sisters who are medical genius's. Then got recommended to work at the castle at Seventeen becoming the youngest Imperial Physician.

Dr.Xavier smiles as he walks closer to me.

Ughh.. all I can think about, is how disgusted that fake smile makes me feel. It reminds me of that time ... when I felt his hot breath against my face, while his legs pinned me down forcing himself into me. I remember scratching and biting him fighting my hardest ...while he gently smiled down at me and continued to choked me till I couldn't fight back.

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I start breathing hard. I feel so uncomfortable I want to throw up. Don't let his disgusting hands touch me. I look at my mom my eyes pleading ..Don't .. Don't let him touch me!

Why can't I say anything... why can't I move.. say something bite him.. fight back... don't let him touch you again.

Before Dr. Lin reaches me a arm coved with red spirit energy blocks his path.

"Back up Sir, my sisters uncomfortable with strangers. Let me." Shen picks me up noticing my discomfort.

He looks at me with confusion in his wide eyes before he grabs my hand releasing my clenched fist, rubbing the faint indents my nails made.

I stare past him, glaring at Dr.Lin Xavier. Memories flash to the front of my mind.

During my darkest time, only one person held out their hand to me. When Tenshi kidnapped me and held me underground, Dr. Lin was the only one who secretly came to check on me. He worked in the castle and took care of me as a child for many years so it was nice having a familiar face to talk to.

That first week felt like years, and the only thing that made it less unbearable was him. He would bring me food and clean water. He would check my condition and talked to about escaping together.

Feeding me hope in such a desperate situation he said he'd help when the time was right...

And when the time was right ...he was the first one to come for me. He stole the key to the spirit energy restricting chains I was wearing and we started to run. He told me to try using my power when we were chased by wild spirit animals.

I didn't think twice about it... knowing he couldn't use spirit energy well..but I couldn't project any element or spirit energy. I fought back with my bare hands until he laughed at me an struck me from behind with his blue spirit energy. He told me he had been feeding me medicine that stripped me of Qi and I could no longer cultivate. He bound my legs and wrist in rope and dragged me back to the underground room.

When my sister caught up to us, she introduced all the men she brought with her. She told me they were there to violate me and...Sir Lin got to go first.

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My head hurt with all the recapping, I felt suffocated. I can't breathe .. his smile taunts me even when my eyes are closed, I feel his hands choking me .. I can't breathe. I squirm in Shens hold..Don't! ...I can't breathe let me go!

Something inside me breaks ... I have to kill him. Or I'll never feel safe. I have to kill all of them. I look up at my brother urging him to help me kill.

"Sorry dad, Shinah just woke up and his ghastly appearance startled her. I'll take her back... Let's go Asui!" I feel myself being tucked into my brothers warm embrace before falling against gravity as my brother jumps out the window.

I clutch on to my brothers robe vaguely aware of my brother landing on Asui's back before we hit the ground.

I feel the cold wind hits my sweat covered back while my brother continues to direct Asui to the border of the forest near the back of the castle.

"It's okay, big brothers right here." He shields me with a warm layer of red spirit energy from the wind.

We stop at a cliff right over the river that leads to the Eastern Coast.

"Go ahead, nobody's here." Shen rubs my head and jumps off Asui looking back at the castle.

I look at my brothers back and finally let my tears fall.

I release all my pent up rage and sadness.

I cry louder when my brother turns to look at me.

The sympathy in his eyes makes me cry uncontrollably.

I burry my face into Asui's fur. I feel so ashamed how could I do nothing while he approached me, how could I just freeze up like that, I didn't want him to touch me but I let him near me! I feel so disgusted with myself I need a bath I hate feeling this dirty.

"It's okay just let it all out, Tell me how did he hurt you?" My brothers cold voice asked while he pats my back gently.

I flinch as if his words electrocuted me.

'how did he hurt you' echos in my heart.

How does he know?

Will he believe me if I tell him the truth?

He believes me already to an extent...

I feel my stomach turn as I think about what Dr. Lin has did to me in my past life, how can I tell my brother that! I feel disgusted all over again.