All her mother could see was in a lyrical form and it was written as...
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GRIEF AND PAIN
Verse:1
When you ain't sober
You're trippin' beside it
Crying for a call
All your wishes
When don't fly high
But ruthlessly fall apart
Chorus:
Eyes half wide open
But blur for the motion
You feel the weight &
Scratch through your head
Post-chorus:
But afraid to show cause you care
& then hide your face
So nobody can see your tear
Your pillow knows the way you lie down broke
Verse:2
You lie down broke
You cry and sob
As the sadness blooms in your life
The pain bleeds through your eyes
But your heart always deny
& turns you black and blue
Chorus:
Eyes half wide open
But blur for the motion
You feel the weight &
Scratch through your head
Post-chorus:
Lying broke on your knees
Holding tight to your feet
Your pillow knows
The way your eyes bleed
Bridge:
Seeing you the way
I feel the same
But gravity isn't working
Tears already dried up in my eyes
The pain that my heart bore
Went deep rooted in my veins...
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This reading made her hands trimble and she was almost broken from inside. Her Nia knew what she felt but never showed and she
always acted as she was happy and always tried her best to keep her family happy.
She now got to know and understand her Nia deeply, her child was the one who felt her pain everyday and was helpless to help her. Inside, she was ashamed of her for not being strong.
Then the door bell rings, "Mama we're home!". As she heard it she rushed to keep her dairy at the proper pace and acted as if she didn't do anything which would reveal anyone's secret, she preferred to keep that secret a secret.
As she opened the door she hugged both her girls saying, "Mama missed you so much".The moment she hugged Nia, she felt something deep,"I'm sorry my girl, now onwards your mama won't cry",it was a thought that came from her mother.
Nia came to know that her mom read her dairy and the way her soft arms hugged around her soon became firmly saying,"I love you mom" in her mind.
After that moment neither her mother cried for her husband nor she found that dairy again.