CHAPTER 6
You shall not breath, if you don't live
- Unknown
Night passed and so morning rosed with a yellow glow on the horizon, I were waiting for my strongwilled brother on our home's poarch, it was around 06:44 am by my astimut it. I couldn't even tell anymore were I afraid or with a numb soul, my worst fear at the moment came to pass in my thoughts!!I couldn't tell even if it was the fear or my inner-self talking no more, or did they become one person now, ( Maybe Nev my borther won't come when I needed him most) , I started staring the rising glow upon the horizon showing off the sun rising as the earth moved in orbit around the sun and it's own axis.
Tears ingulped my Eyes, I wanted to cry, the feeling of earthquakes erupted and breaked apart my heart ( I could of sweared it felted like one of those times I needed a life-jacket) ... A white Audi car come to park infront of our home, I must of prayed a couple of hundred times. I wouldn't know what to do if he didn't show, hoping came to feel like those were the only things I could of done. The door opened so I couldn't see who the person were at first as she/he stood up and climded out the car.I weren't even optimistic as I feared for the worst will came to happen in the thoughts giving me by my mind, feminist was something that come with a price I have always believed I didn't need nobody, a women is enough.
The door come to open with a chubby but quiet healthy man, my younger brother Nev Collins. He's a well accomplished Chęf in his own right and it showed literally off. Nev made me so proud that I could count on him in my time of need, my little brother opened the gate and approached me. Sara long time no see, an exhausted expression reached my sister's face as she seemed to be exhausted of it all ... yeah Nev. How long has it been since we seen each other now ... Six long years! Did you get any of my letters. My sister face were flustered with an guilty expression. Nev you idiot, I said to myself, don't make her feel bad now of all times.
I saw all the pain written on a expression on my sister's face ... Sara has always had to be there for me and helped me out by paying my chef classes and more. The bill was R15 000 the first and every year after that it increased with a R5000.I learned for 3 straight years.I knew she didn't need to be just strong, My sister had the biggest loving and strongest heart even knowing that. It's hard being a good hearted person in this world. Nev no matter what be there for her for an change. Sara were trembeling and afraid, she has always hated being weak like back then with dad ... may you rest in hell I know you will be happy their.
My sister's eyes wondered to grond, (I was just not ready to face someone yet even if it was my comforting brother Nev). I felt warm arms snake around my body as Nev were overly to kind holding me.Sara were far to strong to ask for help so I decided, I would give a hug even if she didn't ask it, it just felt like at that moment she needed a hug. Even only hug is all i could do her, I would do it 1000 times for her. Sara held to tightly as if her life were going to end if she didn't, I felt Sara's emotions as she gripped to tightly to my white- topped T-shirt as her pain reacted to my body negatively, injected Goosebumps with only her emotion breaking through my skin. I felt to afraid to know what she were feeling, I never felt pain like this.
Damn you Sara ... I hate making promises. I'll protect you with my life. I heared a soft voice to low and faint but I heared it, ( Thank you ). My sepressed tears I couldn't hold back no more as they chased down my own face. I have never knew or even seen my sister to cry like this since back then.