"Welcome back, Al, why were you ignoring me?" I ignored his question.
'You're dodging the question,'
"You're dodging the question I'm using to dodge the question,"
'..... You dodged me first'
"I didn't, you dodged me from the time you started ignoring me,"
'... Ignoring and dodging are different'
"It's the same concept,"
'This whole rant who led us on is you dodging the question'
"...." I sighed in defeat, "I don't want to break down, so I refuse to mourn for her,"
'It's her death anniversary,' I winced at his words I opened my eyes and stared back up at the sky.
"I know that.... but... that day was such a..." I let my words trail off into silence, drowning in the moonlight "How do I mourn? The common answer is to cry... yet, I can't,"
'.... You pushed your emotions too far down,'
"Maybe so, but I can't help it," I sighed, running my hands through my hair
'If you push it too far down it might burst,' I didn't reply to him 'So you won't even open up to me?'
"I think I have opened up enough and only because you seen everything that happened to me already,"
'Knowing the situation and realizing your emotions are different,'
"I have said enough, so it's your turn. Why were you ignoring me?" I changed the subject, no longer wanting to speak about it.
'I was sleeping'
"Sleeping?"
'Yes,' Did he even believe his own words? He was a soul how could he ever need sleep yet he told such a white lie without a waver in his chilly voice.
"If you don't want to say just say so," I closed my eyes again, my long silver eyelashes hitting my under eyes as I sunk back into my mana core.
'Light magic is very gentle and kind, it also holds a firm sense of justice and a lot of sympathy for individuals....' he trailed off
"Al.... are you telling me?..."
'Take it as you wish,' I sighed I guessed Al wanted to give me a small outlet to put forth my emotion to the light stone, would that work? Can I find the emotion I long lost?
I gripped the light stone tighter, trying to allow myself to drift to my memories. I imagined Erika, my only friend in the Weather Clan, how my foolish younger self frolicked with her in the grass. My mother dressing my wounds, her gentle smile and her sweet singing. I bit my lip reminiscing on the days of abuse, the wounds that littered my body and when my father.... placed that boiling brand upon my skin, engraving him into my body forever like a slave.
I imagined the grief I went through at seeing my mother's lifeless body and how the next time I opened my eyes everyone was dead. All of them, lifeless while I lay in a puddle of blood. It felt so far off now; it was me yet; it didn't feel like myself; it was like I was watching someone else's life unfold before me.
The light magic stone burned in my hand, glowing brightly with an iridescent glow before losing its brightness and cracking in my palm. I didn't notice it, still embroiled in my memories. I stopped thinking of the sadness and instead thought of the burning hatred I felt once I learned of Barnes' betrayal, the helplessness. The rage of the moment and the loathe for Sophie swirling in my heart. The excitement and satisfaction that strung my heart chords while taking my cold-blooded revenge. The black stone glinted, becoming ice cold in my grip on the sleek surface covered with cracks and crumbled in my palm.
'In... In... Indi... Indigo... INDIGO!!" I shook my head, bringing back my train of thought.
"Al, why are you shouting?" I pursed my lips and asked him, annoyed.
'I didn't shout at first but you didn't hear me, you absorbed both magic stones,'
"Huh?" my eyes widened and my mouth fell open in surprise. "I was only trying to absorb the light stone,"
'Well yes, but it seemed your train of thought broke and you started thinking of more things the black stone resonates with,'
"And that is?" I raised my brown in curiosity.
'..... hatred and anger' I nodded at his words it seems when I got side-tracked and started thinking about my hatred for the people in my life... well the people who 'were' in my life the black stone resonated with me.
"So Al, does this mean I can train both light and dark elements now?" I asked, slight excitement laced in my voice.
'Yes,' It seems like my training will be more fruitful now that I could train my light and dark elements.