CHAPTER NINE
She is very excited. She looked so snappy just wearing a white collared polo shirt that is tacked-in in blue maong pants and a white clean rubber shoes. It is a required outfit in application in a military officership position.
"This is Sassah," She told herself. Like other applicants, she is most excited. She prepared it as a now or never opportunity. Like most of them, she has her sacrifices too.
Little did she know that she would be slapped back in the reality of an unfavored world. Little did she know that she was just dreaming… and now, she needed to wake up now.
Everything was just a beautiful dream that her comfortable beginnings, that too good to be true preparation is just an intro without ends, that the sudden end of everything will be a nightmare.
Too good to be true experiences, an instant and easy restarts from a setback, a feeling of surreal is like an ecstasy but now a very painful reality.
After six months of extreme physical and emotional training until she graduated as a reservist, where she excelled significantly that even her officer got a notice of her intelligent and rare physical strength for a woman.
She even got a personal recommendation from their officer to report for duty in full preparation for the one year officer ship training in the command center.
When shocking things happened. She was replaced from the ongoing batch of officers for training and the quota is already completed. In the military they only have a certain limited quota to complete. It may have a number for a reserved slot allotted for the recommendation of some officials but once a slot is confirmed with your name, it will not be replaced.
She was shocked but it was more surprising that she didn't freak out and fight for what rightfully hers. She was very calm. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath before she asked again.
"Mam, here's my ID, may you please check my slot number again?"
"I tell you, you are not on the list."
"Am I really not on your list? But, you notified me. Please see this, here's your memo." She asked in a very composed voice. The Female officer who handled the recruitment for the officer ship turned even colder in her request.
"Really? You check this memo. The result that you're holding is not final yet, maybe the one who notified you had made a mistake!"
"M-Mistake…?!" She was terrified.
"When I got this notification, I resigned from my job. I just left home. Then, it was just a mistake… ha-ha Nice, how unfortunate of me." She said softly as if she's only talking to herself. There are many attendees in the room like her and witness of her misfortune. She felt so little until she felt nothing.
"Well… t- thank you" She left without looking back. She was just rejected after she passed all the written exams and the physical test and before she took the onboarding interview. There is no valid reason for her rejection but she doesn't want to fight for anything anymore.
She was at a loss Though she knows that she needs to begin again and restart her life but she doesn't have energy to do so. She's lost it again. Is she cursed?!
On her way, she called her team leader and found out that her position was filled-in already. She was also thinking of going back home but finally decided to start fresh and she chose to do it in the business district of the city. She left the metro and decided to rent out a small room in the Big City. As a minimalist, all the things she brought were enough for her. Her room in the metro is now rented out by her sister tiney with elaina because elaina really loved the night view from her room.
A little room in an old residential house, a few meters away in the central business district is what she got. What's good in the Big City is the business district, everything should be fast in transition and everything should always be ready.
Her room is fully furnished with basic things from bed to dining set. But, what comforts her is the little balcony that allows her to see the lights of the business district. The outside is so lively even at night.
"Why turning twenty seven is a damned hard?! Though my previous life was not perfect it's not this bullshit right… How many crises will I need to overcome? I'm tired of restarting and restarting over again! Why is this happening to me?! What did I take for granted?! How evil am I to get all of this? Unstable career, single, broken family, financial difficulty, and… ALONE!